(Clearwisdom.net)
A few days ago, I had a heart-touching experience.
For a long time I had been thinking about making a comprehensive package of truth-clarifying materials. I gathered some flyers and did some cutting, pasting and editing. Finally I was able to make a version that I was very satisfied with. I called a fellow practitioner and asked him to make some copies and get prepared to hand them out.
However, this practitioner refused to make the copies. He gave me a lot of reasons and even criticized me, saying that I had used a lot of quotes out of context. Immediately, I felt wronged and resentful. I thought that he was irrational and was interfering with my making truth-clarifying materials with his human attachments. I was very disappointed and felt helpless.
Just when I was bogged down in this conflict and couldn't free myself, Teacher's words suddenly came to my mind, "... as long as you're a cultivator, in any environment or under any circumstances, I will use any troubles or unpleasant things you come across --even if they involve work for Dafa, or no matter how good or sacred you think they are -- to eliminate your attachments and expose your demon-nature so that it can be eliminated, for your improvement is what's most important." (From Teacher's article "Further Understanding," Essentials for Further Advancement) Teacher also said, "When you look at a matter, don't look at it while you're bogged down within it, don't evaluate the matter in isolation and within the specific matter. Jump out of it and take a careful look at it, see if it's in keeping with Zhen-Shan-Ren." (From Falun Dafa (Lectures in the United States), "Teaching the Fa at a New York Meeting") Teacher's words put out the angry fire in my heart and cleared my mind. I came to realize that I should unconditionally search internally for the source of this conflict.
When I jumped out of the specific conflict and checked my heart against the Fa, I found that I unintentionally used "working for the Fa" as my excuse to cover my attachment for doing work, plus the mentalities of showing off, competitiveness and protecting my self-esteem. During the conflict, I searched externally instead of internally according to the standards of a Falun Dafa practitioner. Teacher's words awakened me and made me understand deeply that if we Fa-rectification disciples could not unconditionally search within, we would only harbor our attachments, make the situation worse, and nurture the evil. Also, this would make it extremely difficult for us to transform from ordinary people into divine beings. Our cultivation could even be in vain. How dangerous! My heart was full of appreciation for Teacher's benevolence.
When I understood the principles of the Fa and got rid of the attachments, I found that everything went back to normal and became natural. The problem that had bothered me so much became such a trivial issue that it was not even worth mentioning. I felt the wall that had been blocking me had fallen away, revealing a Fa-rectification path shining with a golden light.