(Clearwisdom.net)
Solemn Declaration
I started practicing Falun Gong in March of 1999. At different times over the past five years, I was detained, had to live under surveillance and had to perform forced labor for a year and a half, all because I went to Beijing to appeal to the government to stop the persecution of Falun Gong.
At the beginning of 2001, policemen took several fellow practitioners from the forced labor camp I was in, to the Tuanhe Forced Labor Camp for further persecution and brainwashed them. The police learned their most harmful torture and brainwashing methods at the Tuanhe Force Labor Camp and brought these cruel methods back our camp to torture Dafa practitioners. Devoid of any human nature, they tortured steadfast Falun Dafa practitioners. I was summoned to "a triangle area" [a place designated to persecute Falun Gong practitioner] one morning in June 2001, and collaborators (1) mentally and physically tortured me there for several days until I was brainwashed.
One evening they took me alone to one of the forced labor sites and deprived me of sleep, not allowing me to close my eyes for the entire time. The next day, they forced me to remain standing in the middle of the room while two men monitored me. They allowed me to eat lunch, but did not permit me to go to restroom, and I finally could not help soiling my trousers. When I became tired from standing, they did not allow me bend my knees, sit or lie down. Because of the torture, I could not sleep or eat.
After two and half days, my legs and feet were swollen, and the soles of my feet were too painful to bear, so I squatted down. The policemen then began to torture me with other methods. They hit my ears at seven and eight o'clock in the evening, and they used horsewhips, sandals and sticks to beat me throughout the night. My feet were so swollen that they looked like loaves of bread, and my legs were so swollen that they resembled elephant legs. I could not walk by myself, yet they still made me stand. Because of a lack of righteous thoughts and my fear, I then did something that a Falun Dafa practitioner should not do. I hereby declare that everything I said and wrote that does not meet the standards for a Falun Dafa practitioner is null and void. I will strive to follow the correct path, redouble my efforts and compensate for the damage I have caused Falun Dafa.
Note:
Zhang Hongyan
August 20, 2004
http://www.minghui.ca/mh/articles/2004/9/20/84603.html
Solemn Declaration
I was caught by policemen due to my carelessness and my human heart, which caused irreversible damage to Falun Dafa and fellow practitioners. I believed I was cultivating while I was doing Dafa work, but I did not realize that I was not truly cultivating. My ordinary people's thoughts appeared while the policemen kept me from sleeping, and I was brainwashed. I did things that a Falun Dafa practitioner should not do, forgot Teacher's words and believed a hypocritical lie from policemen. I wrote a so-called "Guarantee Statement."
Then, while in the detection center, I felt frustrated and unworthy to be a Falun Dafa practitioner, and I thought Teacher would abandon me. I even thought that I was an old force arrangement to help destroy Falun Dafa, and my heart was too painful to describe. I lived with anguish and self-condemnation each day. After I calmed down and thought deeply, I understood that the cultivation path I had previously chosen is right. Teacher's words appeared in my head,
"He didn't do well today, but aren't you old forces still persecuting people? I'll have him do things over tomorrow, and definitely have him do them well!"
("Explaining the Fa During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference")
Teacher's words reminded me that I am a disciple of Teacher and the period of Fa-rectification still continues. I must crawl up, start afresh and participate well. I started a hunger strike and took back my "Guarantee Statement" to rip it up. I am now again making a solemn statement. All the things I said and wrote which are not in accordance with Falun Dafa are null and void. I thoroughly deny the arrangement of the old forces, and I will steadfastly keep up my righteous thoughts and righteous actions. I will never disappoint Teacher's kind mercy, and I will let go of ordinary people's attachments. I will go home with Teacher.
Zhang Caixia
September, 2004