June 15, 2004

Recently I read Teacher's lecture "Teaching the Fa at the 2004 Chicago Conference." I was once again profoundly moved by Teacher's mighty compassion. I could not hold back my tears because my mind was so profoundly moved by Teacher's every word, especially when I came to the last two paragraphs.

Thinking back on the past 9 years' experience of cultivating in Dafa, I have steadfastly followed Teacher despite all kinds of trials and hardships and have never compromised my belief in Dafa in any environment since I began to practice Falun Dafa. However, when I compare myself to the standard of a Dafa practitioner in the Fa-rectification period, I find I still have much to improve. In the recent Chicago Fa lecture, Teacher pointed out some relatively serious loopholes in our current cultivation. By comparing myself to Teacher's words and looking deeply within myself, I found such problems do exist to a certain extent deep in my mind. Sometimes I refused to improve myself even when I knew I should, and even worse, I would do wrong things although I knew very well they were wrong. Even now there are still reflections of those bad thoughts, which indicate that I still have a long way to go to assimilate to the unselfish characteristic of the new universe.

For instance, I had shared my understanding and brought Teacher's latest Fa lectures to those fellow practitioners who hadn't stepped forward in the Fa-rectification. However, I was rather disappointed and was unwilling to contact them anymore when I saw no improvement in them and saw that they remained the same as before. I didn't give them the last two Fa lectures from Teacher because I thought they would make no improvement no matter whether they read them or not. For this reason I didn't contact them for 2 or 3 months. One day I ran into a practitioner who had given up her cultivation after July 20, 1999. She told me that she wanted very much to read the new Fa lectures from Teacher. I then found some and brought them to her to read and taught her how to send forth righteous thoughts. She also asked me to teach her how to do the exercises because she had forgotten them. However, she did not show up to our scheduled meeting when I planned to give her some other Fa lectures, probably because of her mind of fear. At that time I was somehow angry and did not try again to get her the Fa lectures. Time has flown by and half a year has passed.

I learned that I still have much to do after I read "Teaching the Fa at the 2004 Chicago Conference." Teacher said, "As long as someone has learned the Fa, I want to save him, I don't want to abandon those people." As disciples of Teacher, we should follow his instructions and try our best to accomplish what he wants with the best measures. Otherwise, how can we be Teacher's disciples? Upon this enlightenment, I brought the latest Fa lectures by Teacher to the homes of three of my fellow practitioners. I also brought them some little truth-clarification cards and asked them to give them to their relatives and friends to clarify the truth about Dafa and to save them. They gladly accepted them and exchanged their understandings on the Fa with me. They also expressed their determination to try to save sentient beings and to do well with the three things that Teacher requires us to do.

I used to be a volunteer instructor for our practice site before, when we had a large group of practitioners. Many of them have not yet gone beyond personal cultivation. I think I should take the responsibility to go to see these fellow practitioners. Teacher is unwilling to lose them because they have learned Dafa. I should take the responsibility to help them and to exchange our experiences so that we can improve together and not lose this precious predestined chance for which we have waited thousands of years.