(Clearwisdom.net) I was fortunate to first begin the practice of Falun Dafa in 1998. Less than a year later, the cruel persecution began. Although I could see through the lies and slander on TV, I did not have a deep understanding of the Fa at that time. I was afraid to step forward to voice grievances for Dafa due to great fear. I only exercised and studied at home, secretly, and as a result I lost contact with other Dafa practitioners. I neither read any of Teacher's new articles nor the Clearwisdom Weekly news. Not until the autumn of 2003, under Teacher's compassionate guidance, did I finally step forward and rejoin other practitioners.
Practitioners gave me Teacher's new articles and the Clearwisdom Weekly, and I eagerly studied them. I realized I was so far behind in progressing in Fa-rectification! I became determined that I must do well the three things that Teacher told us, and follow closely in Fa-rectification. I understood the meaning of Teacher "not wanting to leave behind even one disciple!"
After studying the "Fa" diligently, I felt that my xinxing also greatly improved. I very quickly overcame the barriers and did not have fear when clarifying the truth. Although I have stepped forward a little late, many attachments were exposed as I clarified the truth. The first time I clarified the truth during the daytime, I went to a nearby village. I originally planned to ride my motorcycle there, but on second thought it seemed more convenient to ride my bicycle. I could park my old bicycle anywhere and it wouldn't matter even if I lost it. This thought became my loophole for the evil interference and a near arrest and detention.
After arriving in the village that day with some fellow practitioners, I clarified the truth to the villagers while distributing materials, and this came to the attention of the village Party Secretary. He said that he specialized in arresting Falun Gong practitioners. I told him, "Those who practice Falun Gong follow "Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance" to be good people. Why would you arrest them?" He spouted the CCP propaganda, and I forgot to send forth righteous thoughts at that time. He ended up calling the police station, but no one picked up the phone at the other end. He pushed my bicycle to the front door of the unit office. We had drawn the attention of many villagers at this point, and fellow practitioners took the opportunity to clarify the truth to everyone around. The secretary then returned to the unit office, where he most likely tried to call the police again. When he came out, he drove the fellow practitioners away, saying, "You have nothing to do here, go away." I knew that the tribulation was targeting me specifically, and suddenly realized that his holding the bicycle was a hint at my attachment earlier about not taking the motorcycle. After I realized this, we left safely under Master's protection. After this incident, I wrote a letter clarifying the truth to the secretary. Several practitioners and I then posted our truth clarifying materials all over the village. Later on as a result of our efforts, the secretary did not report practitioners even when he encountered them in the village. Through this truth-clarifying experience, I realized the seriousness of Dafa and that we cannot afford to have any loopholes: only righteous thoughts will result in righteous actions!
I was then determined to study the Fa more diligently, send forth righteous thoughts more often and clarify the truth better. I decided to go to a school to distribute truth-clarifying booklets by myself. I tried two times but could not get in, so I calmed myself down and looked inside myself. I remembered Teacher told us in the article "Rationality" in Essentials for Further Advancements II to validate the Fa with rationality and clarify the truth with wisdom so that we do not do things blindly. I decided to go there in the evening when the students were having dinner, because there was a greater possibility their front doors would be open and accessible. During two previous nighttime visits to the school, there were electrical power outages. I realized that Teacher was helping the students. I thought it would be nice if there was a power outage again. I just thought about it, and there was a power outage. Under Master's protection, I went inside the school and accomplished what I wanted to do. I understand that on the surface it is Dafa practitioners doing Dafa work, but actually it is Teacher doing things to help us if we only have the heart. Without our Master's kind protection, it would be very difficult to accomplish anything.
Because I have stepped forward quite late, I always want to do more in truth clarifying. Sometimes when we are short of truth clarifying materials, I have written the truth clarifying messages on pieces of red paper. When I discovered that the paper messages were either torn or destroyed by the rain, I then used paint to write them. One night I wrote Falun Dafa truth clarifying messages on every telephone pole in the village. On my return home I thought about the great effort I had made and wondered how many people would understand the truth about Dafa. The next morning, my husband happily told me after he returned from outside, that all the telephone poles in our village were painted with "the Global Trial of Jiang Zemin." After I heard that I was really happy for the awakening of sentient beings, and I knew that Teacher had made use of my husband's words to encourage me. I really felt that our Teacher is always with us!
Last year when the farm workers were busy, I obviously felt I did not have enough time to study the Fa. I felt a little anxious. I found a way to solve this problem by copying one of Teacher's poems in Hongyin II onto my palm. I would recite one or two poems every day, and this way I could learn "Fa" without slowing down in my work.
Because I studied the Fa more, things went quite smoothly when I clarified the truth. Two other practitioners and I have thoroughly clarified the truth to 30 villages, and we did it during the daytime. We talked to everyone and distributed the truth-clarifying materials to everyone. With only a few exceptions, most villagers accepted the materials. At that time, I felt so good that I started to feel complacent. I felt that I had cultivated quite well. Master saw this attachment clearly, and I had a dream that night. I dreamt that I climbed a very steep hill, which only became steeper and steeper, and I was scared when I arrived at the top. I saw that another practitioner had reached the top already, and he offered his hand to me and pulled me up. I had dreamt similar dreams two or three times before. After I woke up, I enlightened that Teacher would like me to see the gap between this practitioner and myself. I felt that Master had told me, "Don't be complacent, and work harder." I felt so shameful and thought to myself, " If I had not received Teacher's kind protection and guidance and did not have the help from the other practitioner, I would not have been able to accomplish all this today."
Here I would like to heshi with great respect to our compassionate great Master, and heshi to all practitioners. In conclusion, I would like to use the last sentence in Teacher's lecture "Teaching the Fa at the 2004 Washington DC Fa Conference" for our mutual encouragement:
"Do well with all the things you should do. All the most magnificent, most wonderful glory and honor of the future await you."
June 28, 2005