(Clearwisdom.net) When I was 25 years old, I got postpartum depression after I delivered my first child. From then on, my life became dark. Tortured by this disease, I could not eat and sleep. My chest felt stuffy; my stomach was uncomfortable. I lost interest in everything.
Not Sleeping for a Long Time--at the Edge of Collapse
Over the next 10 years, I consulted both Chinese and Western doctors, tried all kinds of folk medicine and many sports. I even prayed to God and sought divine guidance. I tried so many methods and wasted so much money but I could not cure my depression. For so long I was not able to fall into a deep sleep for even a single night. I was on the edge of collapse and I became weaker and weaker.
There were days where I would see my doctor in the morning and go to the emergency room in the afternoon. Even though my cabinet was filled with Chinese and Western medications, my health continued to deteriorate. I had to hire a babysitter to care for my 5-year-old son. My husband did all of the housework. He supported the family and, at the same time, took care of me and our two daughters who were in elementary school. I could not do anything to help.
The mental pressure became heavier and heavier. I could not release it. I lay in bed all day long and felt that my life was extremely miserable. I felt I would rather die than live like this. I had often thought of ending my life. If my husband heard a noise in the night, he would get up and check on me, worried that I would commit suicide.
The Change in My Life--Great Joy
I continued to visit the Chinese medicine doctor, spending 5,000 yuan (translator's note: Taiwan currency) every time. In September 2002, there was a big change in my life. At that time, via my relative's introduction, I participated in a Falun Gong nine-day seminar. Surprisingly, after the second day of the lecture, I fell into a deep sleep. I was very amazed. When I saw the Chinese doctor after the second lecture, he felt my pulse and said with surprise, "Why has your pulse changed so much? Everything is different now."
My husband accompanied me to the nine-day seminar. He agreed with Falun Gong's principles. He also learned it together with me. He used to drink alcohol and he quit without any problems. My spirits improved. When the nine-day seminar ended, I never again saw a doctor or took any medicine. My daughter said, "My mom never gets mad like before without any reason." I don't have to hire a babysitter anymore since I can now care for my son by myself.
Now, I feel so free, and I eat well and sleep soundly. I feel so light while walking. In the early morning, my whole family does the exercises together and reads Zhuan Falun. My three kids are quick learners and very astute. My family is now harmonious and my life is fulfilling.
I'm so full of joy in overcoming depression and having my life changed by Falun Dafa.