(Clearwisdom.net) When I logged off from the Internet and stood up to prepare for sending forth righteous thoughts at midnight, I clearly saw a shiny little flash of light that darted in front of my eyes. Subconsciously, I waved my hand to drive it away and thought to myself, "Don't interfere with me. I am a Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple. No one is able to interfere with me and whoever does this will be guilty." The same thing happened another evening. I then sent forth righteous thoughts in order to eliminate it right away. "Did I have any xinxing problems?" I thought to myself. Where was the problem and where was the loophole that had been taken advantage of by the evil forces?
The old forces wanted to stop me from validating the Fa. If my righteous thoughts are strong, then I would leave no loophole for them to take advantage of and they would be helpless. When checking my xinxing, I realized that I had not looked inward for quite a long time. Where was my fundamental attachment of "selfishness" hiding? What was the first notion that stopped me from digging deep into the root of my thoughts? The conflicts I encountered were not at all accidental. When conflicts came, I would still stick to my human notions, so my xinxing could not be upgraded and I missed the opportunities of looking inward in order to improve my xinxing. When I studied the Fa, distracting thoughts interfered with me. However, instead of setting a higher standard for myself, I used Teacher's Fa in order to make excuses. When encountering conflicts, I failed to unconditionally look inward. I never paid attention to the cultivation of my xinxing when coordinating activities as one body. Sometimes, although I did not say it out loud, but I would say in my heart, "How come this guy acts like this?" In particular, I could not understand those fellow practitioners who would keep truth-clarification materials at hand. Therefore, I always complained about it. I would accuse the fellow practitioners of not working well together and when speaking to them I would sound overly agitated and my tone was not compassionate. Actually, I reacted to things with human notions. I often saw others' problems, but I failed to enlighten to it. As a result, I repeatedly missed opportunities to improve myself. I did not cherish the opportunities for cultivation.
The high-level beings of the old forces closely watched every action and thought of mine and used my loopholes. Our merciful Teacher gave me hints. One day when I was doing the sitting meditation, the Chinese character "Yan" (strict) appeared in my mind and it was very clear. I asked myself what was my purpose for coming to this human world. Since I am here for cultivation, then why do I always watch others? When encountering conflicts, I still failed to maintain my xinxing and failed to honestly look within myself. Instead. I always looked at other people's shortcomings and looked at right and wrong with a human heart.
After reading Teacher's lecture "Teaching the Fa in Philadelphia in 2002," I asked myself whether all of my thoughts and actions were on the Fa. Did I truly set a higher standard for myself from the Fa. When I am not within the Fa, even looking inward would still not reach the standards and requirements of the Fa. Teacher said,
"We are absolutely not some sort of ordinary people's political organization, nor is it some kind of ordinary people's club formed for fun. What we are doing here is cultivation, and this is a process whereby lives are fundamentally transformed into high-level beings. What I am saying is, those in the audience here are all lives who are on their way to divinity." (Teaching the Fa in the City of Los Angeles, February 2006)
Cultivation is very serious, and there is no back door. One must cultivate in a solid manner in accordance with the Fa and set higher standards for oneself. We should not compare ourselves to regular human beings and with our past, but measure ourselves with the requirements of the Fa for different levels and truly cultivate.
During the two conferences of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), the 610 Office phoned my home to interfere with my family members. They threatened to come and search my home. They also threatened my family members and created an intimidating atmosphere in an attempt to interfere with the Dafa projects I was doing. When my family told me about it, I was really a bit nervous, and even had bad thoughts and wanted to avoid it. However, I quickly rectified myself. All these years I had walked the journey to this day and had never avoided anything. Today, why should I be afraid when the evil beings are getting fewer and fewer in number? Wasn't I scaring myself? Wasn't this a human notion? Hadn't I let merciful Teacher down? When my righteous thoughts came forth, I decided to go and talk to the 610 officials. I reminded myself to be reasonable and clearheaded and not to be afraid. At that time, had I been even a little bit scared, I would have provided the evil forces with a space to live. I stood in front of Teacher's portrait, did the Heshi gesture (pressing both hands together in front of the chest) and said, "Teacher, I came down here with you in order to save sentient beings, therefore, the evil forces have no right whatsoever to interfere with me." I asked Teacher to help me. At the same time, I also recited Teacher's poem "What Is There to Fear" (Hong yin II). After reciting the poem dozens of times, I finally calmed down.
As a matter of fact, Teacher managed everything in an orderly manner. The following day I ran into the head of the 610 Office at the food market. While walking toward him, I sent forth righteous thoughts in order to eliminate the evil Communist spirit and the evil forces that controlled him. When I confronted him, I looked him straight in the eye and remained very calm. I said, "I was about to come and see you. Weren't you looking for me?" He did not dare to look at me and tried to change the subject. I said to him, "Since 1999, haven't you done enough in persecuting Falun Gong practitioners? You arrested people at their workplaces or ransacked their houses arbitrarily. As of now, you still owe me an explanation. You confiscated practitioners' money but you never gave them a receipt. Who told you to do this? Tell me what is the matter with you?" He did not dare to look at me, not even a glance. Before he left in a hurry, he said things would be fine now that the National People's Congress had come to an end.
Cultivation is a very serious matter. The method the old forces used in order to block the Fa-rectification was to create partitions. When I looked within, I realized that I had not done something well in my cultivation. In particular, I failed to pay attention when thinking and did not completely negate the old forces. For example, when I was doing Dafa work, I had thought flashes showing me a scene where policemen were knocking on a door. When I was on the Internet, I would feel a little bit uneasy and when I saw a police car, I would always take a few more glances. These were all reasons for the old forces to take advantage. One day the police called me three times and harassed me. They said that they wanted to check and close my Internet connection. I hastily sent an appeal to the Minghui website, but they did not publish it. As a Dafa practitioner, I should be able to eliminate this and never let them come into my house.
During the process, I needed to constantly eliminate the old forces and adjust the state of my mind, remember Teacher's Fa and let go of fears at different levels. What we are doing is the most righteous thing in the universe, so we must do it nobly, righteously and in an aboveboard fashion. Therefore, what was I afraid of? As long as my thoughts were righteous and under the compassionate care of Teacher, when I encountered dangers I would be able to emerge unscathed.
Teacher is looking after me and protecting me all the time, and has given me all he can. In March 2002, when I was copying articles from the Minghui websites, Teacher showed me two Chinese characters "Chongqing." (note: Chongqing is the name of a city). This encouraged me to walk righteously the remaining part of my journey. This was because in 2001, I did something wrong, which I felt very sad about. Looking inward I found that I had agreed to the persecution by the old forces, thinking that it was unavoidable for practitioners to be imprisoned. Because of this thought, the evil beings constantly harassed me and arrested me in my office. At that time my righteous thoughts were not strong and I did not stop their persecution.
I remembered when the evildoers came to my office and took away my money. I thought that money was an external thing after all, so I only thought about the money as being my salary. I failed to stop them on the basis of Fa-rectification. They split my money amongst themselves and looked at it as a bonus, and did not give me a receipt. This not only brought harm to them but also gave me unnecessary trouble in my daily life.
On January 4, 2002, with the arrangement of Teacher I went back to my workplace. After my return, I continued to study the Fa. I knew that I would not acknowledge the persecution any longer. Since our Teacher has not acknowledged it, nor would I as his disciple. I would also not acknowledge the forced labor and other forms of persecution. Therefore, I went to the Political and Judiciary Committee and our local procuratorate in order to file a lawsuit against the policemen, as well as to clarify the truth to the government institutions and various departments of my workplace. I requested to annul the decision to send me to two years in a forced labor camp and to return the money that belonged to me. During the process of clarifying the truth, I exposed the criminals and the crimes they committed, and at the same time rectified myself through constant Fa study. This way, my cultivation environment continued to improve. The issues of salary and work were solved. When I wanted to have a computer, my son brought one to me. Having this computer and being able to browse the Minghui website was also a process of cultivation for me. It was a process of negating the old forces and walking along the path arranged by Teacher. I have learned to use the Chinese input, printing, publishing solemn declarations for fellow practitioners, help everyday people to quit the Communist Party and its associated organizations and write articles in order to expose the persecution. Teacher gave me the wisdom, strength and courage, which made it possible for me to be where I am today.
Teacher says,
"Dafa is the Fa of the cosmos, and Dafa has created all beings in the cosmos. Dafa has established living environments and standards for the beings at different levels of the cosmos, and it has created for the beings at different levels different forms of wisdom, including the culture of humankind. The purpose of spreading Dafa far and wide is to rectify the Fa in the cosmos, and, at the same time, to have Dafa's disciples in the human world reach Consummation. Dafa is also creating a new humankind, and will likewise bring to humankind a new culture." ("Using at Will" from Essentials for Further Advancement II)
I am a being created by Dafa, so my life should be used to validate the Fa, and not to seek a cozy lifestyle.
I am grateful to Teacher and fellow practitioners at the Minghui website for giving me such a good environment to validate the Fa in. Now I have an independent family network which is also connected with the one body and I am doing what I am responsible for. I still have room for improvement and I am far away from the requirements of the Fa. The process of the Fa-rectification is getting faster and faster. We must have a clear understanding and do away with all the arrangements by the old forces. The new situation of the Fa-rectification has set new requirements for the practitioners. As a practitioner, how can we coordinate and cooperate well? I enlightened to the fact that we have more responsibilities now. The practitioners in mainland China should cooperate with the "Coalition to Investigate the Persecution of Falun Gong" so that they can do a good job in collecting evidence. To ensure positive results, we must have strong righteous thoughts and eliminate all the interference. Every practitioner has a responsibility to negate the arrangements of the old forces and walk the last part of the journey righteously. This requires the coordination of all of us as one body in order to expose more facts of the persecution and to save even more sentient beings.
May 22, 2006