(Clearwisdom.net) I have been reading Teacher's new articles and "Minghui Weekly" for a long time, but I have not done much about distributing "truth-clarifying" materials, clarifying the truth, or advising people to withdraw from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). In Minghui Weekly, I read that some practitioners always study the Fa and send forth righteous thoughts before they do anything (regardless of whether it's Dafa related or not), because doing it makes everything go smoothly and helps to achieve better results. So I started to pay more attention to studying the Fa and sending forth righteous thoughts. There is nothing wrong with that, but I made a mistake: I was very attached to my my state of mind during Fa-study and when sending forth righteous thoughts.

I used to think that I needed to achieve the state of calmness as calm as still water when I studied the Fa, and that I had to be in a complete trance when I sent forth righteous thoughts, and that I could suppress all of my surroundings and random thoughts. Only then could I go out to distribute truth-clarifying materials, clarify the truth, and persuade people to withdraw from the CCP. Otherwise, I wouldn't be able to complete what I needed to do, and I would be wasting time, energy, and materials. Or I might be reported to the police and persecuted because I could not clarify the truth well. For that reason, I rarely clarified the truth. I pursued the feeling of calmness and trance when I studied the Fa and sent forth righteous thoughts. But the more I pursued it, the harder it became to focus when studying the Fa, and it became harder to enlighten to the deeper meanings of the Fa. Whenever I want to distribute materials, I felt that I did not have enough righteous thoughts; whenever I want to clarify the truth, I felt weak all over. Rarely did I feel calm or strong when I sent forth righteous thoughts.

A fellow practitioner said to me, "The thought that make you feel that you don't have enough righteous thoughts is usually an illusion that interferes with you." When he felt that he wasn't in a very good state, he would do the Falun Gong exercises outside or distribute a few truth-clarifying CDs. The moment he put the CD in someone's bicycle or when start to do the exercises, he felt his divine side became energized, and his state greatly improved. In fact, it was Teacher who was doing everything. When we go out and distribute truth-clarifying materials, Teacher's law body will help us. One time, when he was just about to start doing the exercises outside, he felt nauseous and dizzy. It was just interference. Once you clearly recognize the interference against yourself, you can send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the interference and do whatever you are supposed to do, and things will be just fine. Another fellow practitioner told me that that you cannot always get someone to withdraw from CCP right away when you clarify the truth to them. Tell people as much as you can, even if it's just one to two sentences. It will get better.

With encouragement from fellow practitioners, I started by giving out amulets(1) to the homeless and telling them to recite "Falun Dafa is good" to keep them safe. Thinking back now, it was as if to I had them use Dafa to keep safe and avoid tribulation. This did not align with the Fa. I would give them some money first and then whisper to them. Later I was able to clarify the truth under highway bridges in a clar voice. Then I told a banana seller that Falun Dafa was good and that I was just being a good person, following the principles of "Truthfulness, Compassion, Tolerance." We were close to a busy bus station. When a police car came close, I didn't get nervous, I just sent forth one thought: "All evils are eliminated." I didn't think my righteous thought was very strong, but the police car drove away and didn't stop. I told the banana seller to move away from the bus station so that I could explain the facts to him. Several other fruit sellers also came to listen. After half an hour, he basically understood that Dafa is good. The Fa can benefit people in many ways. The others who listened also developed some positive understandings. The banana seller asked me to bring him some materials and books next time. Because of my attachment to fear, I did not leave him any contact information or arrange a location or time for the next meeting. I regret that now have looked for him on that street for several months now.

One day as I came out of a group Fa study session, I walked past the Armed Police Headquarters. I saw an old lady sitting about 50 meters west of the main entrance, protesting. There was a board next to her with her son's picture, name, and story. It said that her son died inexplicably while in the police force. The family was notified several days later. She did not see the body and did not receive any compensation. She was there to ask for justice for her son. I gave her money for lodging and food, but she refused to accept it. I was so touched. Even an everyday person could be so strong. I started to clarify the truth, whispering in her ear. Later I became braver. I did not care when the police walked pass. I stopped for a while to send forth righteous thoughts for a few seconds, but I was very strong and determined. I did not have fear. The police walked away, and I continued to talk to the lady. After a while, she decided to withdraw from all of the CCP's affiliated organizations. She put the Dafa amulet on her chest and said loudly, "Falun Dafa is good." She also said she would give copies of the Nine Commentaries to the armed police to read.

When I started distributing CDs, I would leave the CD under the windshield wiper of a car or tape it to a door at night. Later, I distributed CDs on buses during the day. I would send forth righteous thought beforehand and ask Teacher to strengthen me, maintaining the righteous thoughts. Even though there were still some random thoughts and I didn't felt that my righteous thoughts were particularly strong, the results have been good. Some people smiled as soon as they got hold of the CDs. One time, an elderly man stopped me in his shop and won't let me leave. He said that I wouldn't able to leave that day because the government doesn't let those materials be distributed. As I was sending forth righteous thoughts, I said to him, "Can I talk to you? We could talk inside. Is that okay?" He said fine and gave me the best chair in the room. He told me that he had been receiving phone calls from practitioners and did not know what was going on. He asked his wife to come and listen, too. So I clarified the truth to both of them until they accepted the facts. I left their store openly and with dignity.

Yesterday, I only read Minghui Weekly, Teachers' articles, and Dissolving the Culture of the CCP. I did not memorize any of the Fa. I didn't get up early to do the exercises this morning and did not reach the state of trance when I sent forth righteous thoughts. When I recited the Fa, I wasn't very calm, either. But when I was out and asked directions from people, I told them the facts about the persecution. When I was on the bus, I clarified the truth the person next to me. Depending on the person's response, I then decided if I would advise him or her to withdraw from CCP. As a result, I became more and more energetic, and my work went very smoothly.

My current understanding is we should not be attached to our state of mind during Fa study and sending forth righteous thoughts. We need to keep in mind that we are Dafa disciples and that we need to save people. We need to be consistent in studying the Fa every day, maintaining righteous thoughts when distributing truth-clarifying materials, and advising people to withdraw from CCP. We don't need to insist on a certain state of mind or length of sending forth righteous thoughts. There is no need to always recite Teacher's words, cleanse oneself for five minutes, and then cleanse others for another five minutes before clarifying the truth. By then, the person may have gotten off the bus already.

Of course, all our righteous thoughts and behavior come from the Fa. The exercises also strengthen our divine powers. In the past, if I did not wait after sending forth righteous thoughts at twelve o'clock midnight to sleep, I would always be late for work the next day. Now, if I don't memorize a paragraph of Fa before sleep, I cannot get up before 3:50 a.m. to do the exercises with all the practitioners in China, and I will be late for work or feel tired. I know that the Fa's requirement is stricter than before. I must not make mistakes knowingly; I must be diligent and do my best in the three things.

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(1) amulet - In China, practitioners sometimes clarify the truth by giving people something small to wear or cherish, bearing a few words reminding them of the goodness of Dafa.