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After Looking Within, My Wallet Came Back

Oct. 24, 2008

(Clearwisdom.net) As I ride the city bus, I have noticed that people are very alert to thieves on the crowded buses. If someone is too close or their bags get bumped accidentally, people are unusually protective of their belongings. When I see that, I know that it is a reflection of the decline in human morality. People have lost trust in each other, a state of affairs caused by the Chinese Communist Party's destruction of traditional moral values.

I often take the bus, and I realized that I shouldn't be as protective as an everyday person, because "no loss, no gain." I won't lose anything for no reason at all. I usually keep my wallet in the back pocket of my pants and don't worry about it. A couple of thieves once tried to steal my things, but they didn't succeed. Regarding this, my heart was generally peaceful and I didn't think too much of it, because I know that thinking too much will develop the attachment to money and selfishness.

However, tonight when I got off the bus on my way home, I realized that my wallet was gone. It contained cash and my bank and ID cards. I felt very uneasy in my heart. My human side suddenly surfaced, as I had lost money and now I would have to apply for a new bank card and a new ID card. It was so depressing. Before getting off the bus, I indeed felt someone touch my back pocket. I really wished the thief or a kindhearted person would send my wallet back to me. I thought about it a lot.

Disappointed and complaining I returned home. I sat down and calmed myself and suddenly realized that I shouldn't be moved like that. I should instead look within and find out why I lost these things. Only by doing that could I truly resolve the issue. Thinking about other things was useless. Why did it happen? Did I lose it because I wasn't supposed to gain something but did? I am a cultivator, so I have to hold myself to a high standard in that respect. I didn't do anything like that, so it wasn't the case. Did I protect myself against others? Not true either. Recalling what happened at my relatives' that day, I found the cause right away. I take care of her business as a part of my job and I knew the price of goods was going to go up. I told her that and said, "Your business profits will increase big time!" That one sentence exposed my attachment to self interest and gaining or losing money. Vacillating between gain and loss is what everyday people do and is the state of an everyday person's heart. I recalled that I was indeed troubled by my job performance at work. It was an attachment to fame and self interest in human society. It was time to deeply examine myself in true cultivation.

The old forces took advantage of this big loophole. Because of that one sentence, my relative's compliments enlarged my attachment. I immediately sent forth righteous thoughts to deny those bad thoughts, and felt that those obstacles and substance would eventually be eliminated.

For two hours, after shifting back and forth, I looked within to raise my understanding of the issue. My heart felt calm and open. My belongings were gone, but I wouldn't worry about it or think about it. Finding the attachment, raising my understanding in cultivation, and eliminating the attachment were the most important things.

Right then, my cell phone rang. It was my relative, "You left your wallet on my sofa." Suddenly, I enlightened that nothing is coincidental. If I could raise my xinxing during the tribulation, nothing else would matter. If I had forgotten that I was a cultivator and was anxious, I would be an ordinary person. That would be a problem. It is such an unforgettable experience to realize the truth.