(Clearwisdom.net) I am an older lady. I began practicing Falun Dafa in April 1998. Before I practiced Falun Gong, I suffered from all kinds of health problems. Everyone at my job knew it. I suffered from high blood pressure, neurosis, cervical vertebra problems, cardiac arrest, and arthritis. I had to take a variety of medicines, and my neighbors called me a medicine jar.
Shortly after I started practicing Falun Gong, I suddenly realized that I hadn't suffered from any pains for a while and had forgotten to take my medicines. I had recovered from my health problems and it was Falun Gong that cured my illnesses. All my health problems were gone! I hadn't felt so healthy for many years! My family and I thanked Teacher and Dafa. "It's Teacher who took away my karma." The whole family was happy for me. My husband thought that it was unbelievable. How could someone recover so rapidly without taking any medicine? He also began practicing Falun Gong.
Every day we went to the practice site [to practice the exercises]. There were over 100 practitioners there, including some from other companies. In the evening, the practitioners in our community studied the Fa together for two hours. Sometimes after two hours, some practitioners didn't want to leave and stayed to share their experiences. Everyone was very energetic. At that time, we didn't know much about spreading the Fa, but we knew Dafa was good and told everyone. Everything we talked about had to do with Dafa. The Fa is so profound. By studying the Fa, we understood why we came to the earth, how to live, and how to be human beings.
On July 20, 1999, Jiang Zemin started the evil persecution of Falun Dafa. The police came to our practice site to keep an eye on us. Group Fa-study stopped. The environment in our company's residential community remained relatively loose, as the company manager's parents-in-law also practiced Falun Dafa with us. We were able to clarify the truth within the company. The company manager refused to allow the police to enter the residential community. Later, the police station managed to get into the community, and the environment became harsh. Practitioners could only study the Fa and practice the exercises at home. A practitioner from another company was responsible for delivering [truth-clarification] materials to us. He delivered them to me first, then I forwarded them to the other practitioners. When I didn't have enough copies, I transcribed them and then delivered them to others. I did this for a few years, and everyone was diligent.
In 2004, we moved to Hebei Province. I didn't know anyone there. I slacked off and was not as diligent as before in studying the Fa, practicing the exercises, and sending forth righteous thoughts. All my human attachments and desires returned. I used to be hot-tempered, and I was no longer tolerant. Many times my behavior was not even up to the standard of an ordinary person, let alone a practitioner's standard. I ran into all kinds of trouble, and regretted moving there.
Two years passed. In March 2006, I suffered from a serious heart attack. Before I lost consciousness, I cried for Teacher to save me. I was taken to the hospital, and it was eight hours before I woke up. I cried many times because of this. I knew Teacher had saved me. Without Teacher, I would never have woken up again. This is a serious lesson. I stumbled. However, Teacher didn't give me up. I regretted so much letting Teacher down.
Sometimes, I dared not look at Master's picture. I felt I was not worthy of being a Dafa practitioner. How could I continue to slack off like this without cultivating myself genuinely? I made up my mind to start from scratch, do the three things well, and solidly save the sentient beings, fulfilling my prehistoric vows.
Before I had the heart attack, I did well in clarifying truth to my family. Whether they were adults or teenagers, they all listened to me carefully, and believed me. They were willing to watch the truth-clarification videos and sometimes asked me questions. I just told them what I knew and what I understood. I was in good spirits and thought they were all saved. However, after I had the heart attack, their attitude completely changed. I felt this even though they didn't say anything, including my own children. Whatever I said, they no longer listened to me as before. I felt very bad about it. Because I failed to cultivate myself well, they were all affected. I can only do better in the future to validate Dafa well.
Teacher tells us that the most important thing is to clarify the truth and save the sentient beings. I must do my best to follow Teacher's instructions. Sometimes it's easy to clarify the truth to people, but sometimes it's hard. When I go out, I always have truth clarification materials with me, and I give them to people with predestined relationships. When I distribute truth clarifying materials, I continually send forth righteous thoughts. When I go out, I send forth righteous thoughts as I walk. Wherever I go, I send forth righteous thoughts.
Master said,
"Let each and every thing
be measured against the Fa.
Only then, with that,
is it actually cultivation."
("Solid Cultivation" from Hong Yin)
Every day, I actively study the Fa, practice the exercises, and send forth righteous thoughts. However, sometimes I still fail to do well. I am not diligent enough, and I still have many attachments. Teacher tells us again and again that these are the final moments. I must always take the Fa as teacher, do the three things well, save the sentient beings, fulfill my prehistoric vows, and follow Teacher to return home.
February 4, 2009