(Clearwisdom.net) Reading the article “Mainland China Practitioners Should Never Miss the Chance to Improve through Fahui” in the 504th issue of Minghui Weekly, I feel the same way. For this Fahui, I spent five days writing my cultivation experience and finally submitted it to the Minghui website. I feel that writing the experience sharing paper was a process of truly cultivating myself. I have overcome various obstacles, disturbances and improved myself. I have a better understanding of Master's Fa.
1. Change Human Notions and Break Through All Kinds of Obstacles
During my fifteen year's cultivation, I have gone through dramatic changes both mentally and physically. However, since I was seriously poisoned by atheism, I haven't walked well on the narrow path of cultivation. Strong human notions prevented me from moving forward for a long time. I was apathetic when I saw the notice requesting articles for the Internet Experience Sharing Conference. In sharing among practitioners in our Fa study group, we agreed that each of us should start to write an experience sharing paper. No matter how good or bad we wrote, we should break through all obstacles and submit a paper since we are all Dafa practitioners; we are particles of the Fa and we have a historic mission in the Fa rectification. Inspired by my fellow practitioners, I became determined to overcome difficulties and write a qualified cultivation experience sharing paper. I could not miss this chance.
Although I made up my mind, when I sat in front of the computer, I was just dazed and had no ideas at all. Two days passed quickly, I was so worried but still had no clue. At this time, Master knew that I had such a wish so he arranged for people around me to give me a hint. I was talking to my family members who are not practitioners. When I mentioned writing an experience sharing paper, I said, “It seems that old and uneducated practitioners can write very good papers. Why can't I write one? I am educated.” My husband told me unkindly: “Others write from the heart but you are writing because you want to write.” My daughter tried to give me a hint, “Try it again. Don’t think about writing a sharing paper. Just think about writing a summary for yourself.” When we talked about the topic of cultivation, my daughter said to me, “I feel you are not cultivating but doing something. You are doing things because you want to.”
Hmmm. Am I cultivating? My family members think that I am writing a paper because I want to write and I am doing things because I want to. Then in cultivation, am I also cultivating because I want to cultivate? During the sharing in our Fa study group, a fellow practitioner said to me: “Writing an experience sharing paper must be based on the Fa. We are writing the sharing paper to validate the Fa rather than validate ourselves.” Yes! This is exactly my problem. I am just trying to share my experience of how Dafa cured my diseases and my gratitude toward Dafa. Based on this, how could I reach the high standard? How could I write a good experience sharing paper? Master said,
“Some people think Dafa can cure their illnesses;”
“After cultivating for a period of time, are your thoughts still the same? If so, you cannot be counted as my disciple. It means that you haven't gotten rid of your fundamental attachments and that you are unable to understand the Fa from the Fa.” (“Towards Consummation” from Essentials for Further Advancement II）
What a huge attachment I have in my cultivation! I am a Dafa practitioner in the Fa rectification period. Fa rectification is such a sacred thing that we can’t forget our responsibility and mission. We must truly base everything on the Fa. When I understand the Fa clearly, the thought obstacles also disappear. My mind is clear now. From my 15 year's Dafa cultivation, many supernormal things and phenomena that ordinary people couldn’t understand, one by one appeared in front of my eyes, like a movie. Master told us that we are all kings of the heavens and that we have wisdom. I understand that Dafa is supernormal and all-powerful. As a cultivator, I understand it with my heart and improve myself through writing an experience sharing paper. I really feel that as long as we are truly based on the Fa, there is too much to write.
2. Break Through Disturbance
During the writing process, I experienced a lot disturbance. In addition to obstacles from my own thinking, I experienced physical interference. My skin was itchy for a long time before I started to write the experience sharing paper. It became more and more itchy during the writing process until I finally broke out in hives.
On the deadline for submitting papers, I experienced the wonderfulness of Dafa. I went out with my husband to do some business and also send my paper to a fellow practitioner who would submit it to Minghui website. After a stop on the road, the car wouldn’t start again. My husband tried many times but could not start the car. I suddenly realized that this was a disturbance. I had one thought in my mind - that I must submit this paper to Minghui today. I sent righteous thoughts to break through the interference and asked for Master’s help. Then I told my husband to let me try. I sat in the driver’s seat and started the car with just one try. My husband said, “So strange. How could you start the car?” He is an experienced driver and nothing like this ever happened with this car before. I told him that I asked for Master’s help. He looked shocked but he didn’t say a word. Before that he was an absolute atheist. The paper was submitted right on the deadline.
I want to mention that in ordinary life, if something like this happened before my writing the sharing paper, when my righteous thoughts were not so strong, I wouldn’t realize that it was interference and ask for Master’s help immediately.
I also got rid of many attachments to fear. In the past two months, with Master’s arrangement and fellow practitioner’s help and encouragement, I set up a material production site in my home. In the past I had been illegally detained due to impure thoughts which were taken advantage of by the evil. Therefore, from time to time, I still had some attachments to fear after I started to maintain the material site. With the process of producing Dafa material, the bad thoughts were greatly reduced. When I was writing the experience sharing paper for the Fahui, I could feel clearly that I was not as afraid as before. The attachment of fear was gradually removed when writing the sharing paper.
In just a few days, because I had righteous thoughts and Master’s help, I got rid of many human attachments and broke through a lot obstacles. For a long time I had been bothered with the problem of not knowing how to search inward when facing contradiction, and the problem of not having enough righteous thoughts. In daily life, I couldn’t adjust my mindset very well and calmly face the surrounding environment. My righteous thoughts are gradually becoming stronger without my noticing.
Through submitting the paper, I really understand the true meaning of the Fahui experience platform specifically arranged by Master for our mainland China practitioners. I feel regret and shame that I didn’t cherish the past opportunities for Fahui experience sharing. Each opportunity will not come again. Our mainland China practitioners should not pass up this opportunity because this is what Master specifically arranged for us to improve our level.
In responding to the call for Fahui papers, I have gone through confusion and numbness due to a poor cultivation state; not knowing what to write even though I felt ready to write; endless cultivation experiences and understandings after understanding the Fa principles; to the completion of the paper with clear thinking and verbal fluency based on the Fa, thanks to Master’s help, fellow practitioner’s help and the strength that Dafa gives me.
Master said in “To the Taiwan Fa Conference” (Essentials for Further Advancement II ):
“I hope that through this Fa conference you will be able to find where you fall short and become more diligent, and that you will make this Fa conference a sacred one in which you compare how you have studied and cultivated, and show the righteous Fa to the people of the world.”
I will be responsible to the Fa and my own cultivation, diligently submit my experience in my cultivation to Minghui website and do what Master requires.
At this moment, I feel my field is so cool and I have found my true self.
The above is my understanding at my level, please correct me if there is anything you feel inappropriate. Thank you Master and thank you fellow practitioners.