(Minghui.org) I must thank my fellow Falun Dafa practitioners for helping me set up the programs on my computer necessary to enable communication between us, and providing the opportunity to clarify the truth to the people of mainland China. In the past several years, despite enduring many challenges and hardships, I have persisted in clarifying the truth via the Internet. I have also continued to help people quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). When I first began this, my husband held many objections. He was so angry that he stormed out of the house, unable to stand my presence. I knew that this was clearly a test laid in place for me by Master, but I still felt heartbroken. I could not overcome my sadness, and therefore, I did not pass the test. Only after many intensive sessions of reading the Fa, sending forth righteous thoughts, and reading fellow practitioners’ articles, did I let go of my attachment of sentimentality. As my Xinxing improved, my environment also became better. My husband even stopped interfering with my efforts to clarify the truth.
Because I truly believed the web was a crucial tool for saving sentient beings, I always sent forth righteous thoughts in order to strengthen the Internet connection so it would not crash. Then, I would make my phone calls through the computer to save the people in China. I would also keep in touch with my fellow practitioners. We discussed ways to better reach people so they could understand the truth. I would tell the people on the receiving end everything I knew, so they could at least hear all the facts. Even though there were lots of practitioners doing exactly what I did every day, I always felt it wasn’t enough. I often found myself wishing I had more arms and more heads in order to reach more people faster. I told my fellow practitioners this and we devised a schedule where we all took shifts during the day. This way, every hour someone was calling and clarifying the truth. We told the people about the principle that good is rewarded and evil meets with karmic retribution. I never stopped clarifying the truth, and because of that I learned that as long as I tried my very best, it would not be difficult to help people quit the CCP.
Every day the practitioners were busy with other projects, and so there were often gaps in the schedule. When this occurred I would search for other practitioners to cover their shifts. One time, I was hanging around and I felt tired. As I flopped onto my bed to catch a little rest, the phone began to ring urgently. I picked up, and a voice said, “Bring me home, bring me home!” Instantly I awoke from sleep and realized that the phone call was just a dream. I knew time was short and very precious. Sentient beings are subconsciously waiting for us Falun Dafa practitioners to save them, but if there are no practitioners clarifying the truth, then the sentient beings have no hope at all.
Some people I call are completely within the CCP’s grasp, praising it in a singsong voice over and over again, repeating the brainwashing slogan, “Without the CCP, there is no new China.” One particular person I called once said, “You Falun Dafa practitioners are always screaming for the heavens to smite the CCP. However, so many years have gone by and there has yet to be a sign showing that the Party is crumbling. You guys are all just talk and there’s no power behind what you say. You are completely incapable of bringing down the CCP.” Then I told him, “Evil will never triumph over good. We are all Chinese people, and despite what we believe, how could you stand and let the CCP ruthlessly persecute Falun Dafa practitioners? Many high-ranking officials have already quit the CCP, and here you are still praising the Party. If you continue to stand with the CCP, you will fall with them also.” The person I was speaking with quickly changed his mind and said, “Oh, don’t say another word, I know I was wrong. Just help me quit now!”
My father was heavily influenced by the CCP, so every time I spoke to him about Falun Dafa, he wouldn’t want to hear it. My father could not understand the reason I was always on my computer helping people quit the Party. He had yelled at me angrily many times before about this, so I was scared to make him mad. The more he became irritated with me, the more I refused to see him. Only after a very long time did I realize that something was wrong with my attitude. I was a Dafa practitioner, and I came here to save sentient beings, so why was it that when my father was in front of me, my compassion all but disappeared? I couldn’t just run away from my fears. I had to tell my father the truth.
First of all, one must cultivate well before going forth to help save sentient beings. If your cultivation state is good, then it will reflect in your environment. Even though every day I received a different schedule, I always took my shift. If my heart is compassionate, my father will feel it. After meeting with my father several times to clarify the truth, he gradually began to enjoy speaking with me. We shared the articles, stories, and discussions written by fellow practitioners with each other. I continued to clarify the truth to him, and he soon began to understand that Falun Dafa is good and what I did on the computer every day was to save people.
Three months later, my father passed away. I was grief-stricken, and for the first time I told my fellow practitioners that I had to take a break from calling people and asked for someone else to cover my shift. I knew that we were short on people, but I actually had not relinquished the human attachment of sentimentality. Master said, “Those who are attached to affection for family will definitely be burned, entangled, and tormented by it. Pulled by the threads of affection and plagued by them throughout their lives, they will find it too late to regret at the end of their lives.” (Essentials for Further Advancement) . As a result, the evil took residence in me, and I became severely ill. I had trouble breathing and often vomited. I had a painful headache, and no matter how many thick winter coats I wore, I still felt freezing cold.
Life is short, anything can happen. There are so many attachments to sentimentality, but everyone will eventually depart this earth at one point. My father left this earth peacefully, and with the gift of understanding the truth before passing away. I appreciate Master’s infinite compassion, letting me make my mistakes and then helping me regain control of myself. After realizing this, I came back to study the Fa and to clarify the truth to the people in mainland China. At night, I wrapped up all of my father’s unfinished business and arranged all the preparations for his funeral. My illness also disappeared without a trace.
Master said, “If you don't take action to save sentient beings, you will not have fulfilled your responsibility as a Dafa disciple and your cultivation will amount to nothing, for your becoming a Dafa disciple was not for the sake of your own Consummation. This means that you shoulder a monumental mission. ” (“Fa Teaching at the 2009 Washington DC International Fa Conference”)
Falun Dafa practitioners should be steadfast in working on projects with the purpose of saving people. Sentient beings need to be saved. As we get closer to the end, we need to work harder and we cannot relax, because the closer we are to the end, the tougher the demands. The old forces that remain are making their last-ditch efforts. We thus should intensify our righteous thoughts, diligently do the three things Master told us to do, and focus more on saving sentient beings. Only then can our cultivation succeed.
Above is my experience sharing, please feel free to point out anything inappropriate due to my limited understanding, thank you!