(Minghui.org) Whenever we encounter tribulations and tests, it's important to distinguish divine thoughts and human notions. Below is some of my experience:
1. When sickness karma shows up, I immediately think: “You are not me. I don't acknowledge you. I'm a disciple of Mr. Li Hongzhi. I don't acknowledge or take any arrangements of the old forces. My body is composed of high energy matter. Any demon of sickness will be immediately eliminated if it dares to approach me.” I would then recover in a few minutes.
1. When I get drowsy during Fa study, the sleepiness urged me to stop the study and take a nap. I know it is demonic interference with my Fa study. How can divine beings be sleepy? This is another moment that I should distinguish the real me from the false me. Use righteous thoughts to eliminate my attachment to comfort.
1. Sometimes when it's time to send forth righteous thoughts, an idea emerged, “I need to do laundry... My room is so dirty.” I need to suppress the urge to do chores and realize that sending forth righteous thoughts is way more important.
1. Once when I was clarifying the facts, a thought arose: “I hope my family member who is against my truth-clarification efforts don't see me. Otherwise, I will have a hard time at home.” With a second thought, I realized that this was fear and human attachment. I had to overcome my fear.
1. Once, during the second exercise, my thoughts began to run wild. I even started dwelling on them. I suddenly realized the problem and said to myself, “All these wild thoughts are not mine. I'm doing the exercise.” Once my true thoughts emerged, my mind was totally blank. The wild thoughts disappeared instantly.
1. My human notions tell me when I'm about to memorize the Fa, “Don't do it. It's a waste of time; you won't be able to remember anything.” I know that I shouldn't go along with this notion.
1. When I read persecution news of practitioners in other cities, my human notion says: “They are in a different place. I don't know them.” This again is the false “me.” Dafa disciples are one body. How can I not send righteous thoughts when I know about others being persecuted? Divine thoughts should suppress human notions; then I'm behaving as my true self.
1. I was very angry when I heard that my husband had an affair. I wanted to beat him up and then divorce him. I sat at the edge of the bed, full of resentment. Then Master's Fa reminded me:
“This is something I often say: once you take up Dafa, whatever it is you encounter--good or bad--it is a good thing (applause), for it came about only because you cultivate in Dafa. Some students experience all sorts of hardships after taking up Dafa. If you didn't cultivate, those tribulations would lead to your destruction. But precisely because you do cultivate in Dafa, even though the pressure you face is great when the hardships come at you earlier than they would have, and the tests of your xinxing are tough to pass--and sometimes the tests may be huge--when all is said and done, those hardships are all things you need to overcome, they are accounts you need to settle, tabs that you need to pay. (Audience laughs) Aren't they great things, then? So whether it is good things or bad things you run into, so long as you cultivate in Dafa, they are all positive, to be sure.” (“Teaching the Fa in San Francisco, 2005”)
I looked inward and calmed down. I remembered to think and behave like a cultivator.
We all have attachments that are very difficult to let go of. But all of us know that we will have to abandon them eventually. All the tribulations and tests we experience on our journey of cultivation are no more than temporary hardships such as a gust of wind, a cloud, a short rain, or a clap of thunder.
Let's always bear in mind Master's compassionate salvation, his protection and sacrifice.