(Minghui.org) I have been cultivating Falun Dafa for three years and have been involved in translation work for the Minghui website for about two-and-a-half years. Since I had already read many Fa lectures when I started to practice, I understood quite quickly that this is a sacred task and not like anything else everyday people do.

Since the birth of my daughter, my time has been extremely limited, so that my path has really become very narrow, which has made it difficult to do the three things well.

In recent months, I have trouble with my translations for the Minghui website. I had to research a lot of vocabulary and it took me a long time to complete an article. A fellow practitioner who often corrected my translations pointed out that I often made mistakes in tenses. I tried to pay attention to this problem, but I did not improve. Gradually, I almost lost the courage to sit down and translate a report and was rather depressed when I thought about having to translate. At other times it had always filled me with joy.

One day I got an email from the same practitioner that really hit me hard and hurt me. She pointed out my shortcomings again regarding tenses and implied that I would make trouble for others because of it and that it was really not acceptable.

Up to that moment, I had struggled for months with my attachments and always only managed everything with a lot of effort and trouble to get the job done. When I read those words, I felt as if I were completely alone and that no one could understand me.

However, I quickly came to my senses and looked intensely inward to find the root of these sentiments and the reason for this interference in my translations. It really did not take me long to realize that I no longer did it with the right heart. I often had so many things to take care of that I had used every free minute immediately, without calming down or reflecting. I had lost sight of the sacredness of this task and simply did things for the sake of doing them.

For example, I did not read the entire articles up front, but immediately began to translate. I thought that would save time. That was one issue. The other issue was that, in the two previous months, I had studied the Fa only rarely and not with all my heart. I seldom attended Fa study with the group (either locally or online). When sending forth righteous thoughts, I only felt a little energy and did the exercises unwillingly and even shied away from them.

I began to study the Fa more intensely and really tried to put into daily practice what I read. I noticed many discrepancies that should be basic requirements for a Dafa disciple: I took interpersonal conflicts to heart, I felt treated unfairly, and I was looking for mistakes in others. I even failed to look at suffering in life as opportunities for cultivation and tried to change others, instead of starting with myself.

When I realized all this, I became calmer. When sending forth righteous thoughts, I now let my divine side prevail and constantly suppress my human side. Once in the past, I had a celestial eye vision of my divine side – it was incredibly beautiful, just like the painting "Reach the Divine Plane with a Pure Heart" from the Art of Zhen, Shan, Ren International Exhibtion. It helped me a lot to remember this.

Also, I now no longer put myself under pressure, insisting on taking advantage of every second to do something. I still do the work, but with free and easy attitude. I often send forth righteous thoughts and draw upon my wisdom to handle things.

I also have changed my attitude accordingly, knowing that it is solely up to me whether things go smoothly or not. If I always put the Fa and Dafa first and sincerely believe in Master and Dafa, everything will be harmonized. The path that Master has arranged for me is truly the best; I just need to find it and walk it.

Now when I translate, I first send forth righteous thoughts and make sure I'm in a calm state of mind. Then I read the entire article once and take it in. As I translate, I keep in mind why I am doing this work and what purpose this article will have in the future. I also think about my fellow practitioners and that we are making the Minghui website into a media that informs people of the facts and current events of this historic time.

Even though I have not yet managed to always send righteous thoughts at the set times or do all the exercises every day and sometimes even fall back into my old pattern when it comes to timing and pressure, I'm aware of this now and will look at everything righteously and eliminate attachments and interference.

I thank my fellow practitioners for their help. I thank Master for allowing me to cultivate in Dafa. I'm really one of the most fortunate beings in the universe.