(Minghui.org) After I returned home from group Fa study one time, I felt physically and mentally exhausted. It was as if a layer of thick material was pressing down on my brain. I was dizzy and could barely move. I didn't even want to open my eyes.
I began to search for the reasons why I was in this state.
Other practitioners in my family were not diligent in studying the Fa. They were a disappointment to me, and I couldn't understand why Master would spend so much effort to save people like them. I had an attachment to looking down on and blaming others.
I couldn't understand why Master had extended the time of Fa rectification to save more people. What more could I do to save people? I didn't know how to move forward.
My cultivation state felt like it had reached the limit. I didn't have a higher understanding of the Fa principles to guide me to move forward. It seemed that I lost my driving force in cultivation.
If I wanted to proceed to a higher level, I needed to upgrade my understanding of the Fa principles and raise my xinxing.
After this realization, I felt more energetic and wanted to be diligent. I decided to study Master's other teachings since I had already read two lectures of Zhuan Falun that day.
I finished reading one Dafa book, and then picked up another. My thoughts were led by Master's Fa, and the Fa principles were gradually forming in my mind.
I experienced an infinitely vast and complex world that penetrates from the universe's celestial bodies to the surface dimension where humans beings exist.
When I observed this huge universe I found many smaller universes inside, but I couldn't detect the microcosmic materials that composed these smaller universes. I felt weak and was hesitant in moving further when facing these microcosmic materials. I couldn't think of how to continue moving further.
New Fa principles were revealed to me at this point, and I found that I lacked a strong will and endurance in cultivation practice.
I began to understand what I needed to do. My thinking became very broad, and a substance of calm and compassion slowly arose from within me.
When I went to our group Fa study the next day, I was engulfed by an energy field full of boundless compassion. I was like a small child learning how to walk for the first time.
I was staggering, but slowly moving forward in the realm of selflessness guided by Master's compassion. I was in tears feeling this compassionate energy.
My inner world became very broad and calm afterward, something that I had never experienced before. My mind became clearer, and I hardly had any distracting thoughts. Some words from Hong Yin also manifested from deep in my heart, which strengthened my righteous thoughts.
I realized that we will have endless compassion and wisdom if we cultivate the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.
As practitioners, we should really cherish this opportunity to cultivate; we should cherish the time Master has extended for us and study the Fa well; and we should look inward and move forward on the path of cultivation to save more beings in the universe.