(Minghui.org) Six months ago I was nearing the end of my life and had nothing to live for. Then, I started to practice Falun Dafa. That decision has brought me the greatest happiness I have ever known.
Before I began practicing Falun Dafa, I had many health problems. Some were quite serious and caused me great suffering. I had chronic inflammation of the small intestines and the lining of the stomach, as well as constipation. Just eating a meal was a burden, and the constipation caused serious pain and discomfort. Sometimes the pain in my stomach was so severe I could not sleep, and nothing helped alleviate it.
I also suffered from nervous exhaustion, which caused insomnia. Getting to sleep was very difficult and whenever I did manage to fall asleep, I was plagued by bad dreams. Once, I went a whole month without a good night's sleep. This left me exhausted and so weak I could hardly move.
I was born with hereditary rheumatoid arthritis. Usually only older people have this condition, but I was diagnosed with it at a young age. It was dreadful. On top of all that, I had terrible body odor, which was extremely embarrassing.
When I grew up, I lived with my boyfriend. With no moral code to guide me, I became pregnant. I was in no way prepared to have a child and had an abortion, after which I began to suffer from many gynecological problems.
Tortured by all these long term health issues, I was depressed and irritable. Life seemed hopeless and there was nothing I could do to escape my misery. I had no interest in anything and often asked myself why I was living.
As I grew older, I thought of marriage. I found the man of my dreams and we got married. My life seemed to have taken a turn for the better, and I devoted all my energy to this marriage.
Then he abandoned me, and I was devastated. My hopes and dreams of happiness were destroyed, and I felt resentful and humiliated. I was full of anger and hatred. I wanted revenge and even thought of taking both our lives.
Sick and angry, I felt there was nothing to live for and I sank into despair. I seriously contemplated suicide.
Six months ago, in the midst of my pain and suffering, I suddenly remembered that I had gone to a Falun Dafa practice site with my mother when I was young. I had done the exercises and listened to the Fa. But then I got lost, sought relief from my illnesses, and pursued a comfortable, happy life.
Just remembering the time when I practiced Dafa lifted my spirits, and I felt the power and goodness of this cultivation practice and Master Li. Just the thought that maybe Dafa could help me transform my world in an instant.
I suddenly remembered how Falun Dafa had taught me the true purpose of being human, which is to return to our true nature through cultivation practice. I realized that I had almost missed the greatest opportunity of my life.
That experience shook me to the core. With my face bathed in tears I cried out, “Master Li, I do not want to be tortured by the troubles in this human world anymore. I beg you to take me home!”
When I was young, I was hospitalized many times for many illnesses. Though I was given medicine and injections, they never seemed to help. But I remember that I felt better when I listened to Master’s teachings. Now I realized that Master has been taking care of me all along.
Having suddenly become aware that it was Master and Dafa that saved me, I became determined to practice cultivation. Right away I sensed that Master arranged my path of cultivation practice for me and my body was cleansed. It truly was a miracle.
All my illnesses disappeared, and I did not even notice it. For the first time in my 28 years, I experienced what it feels like to be healthy. Since that magical time, I have been in a completely comfortable state. The feeling of peace and freedom is beyond anyone's imagination.
Master also purified my thoughts. Having suffered a life of sickness, suffering, and despair, I had become resentful and depressed. Soon after taking up Falun Dafa, all my bad thoughts and emotional agony vanished. The resentment that I had towards my former husband was gone, and in its place was a feeling of empathy and compassion.
By studying the Fa principles in Zhuan Falun, I quickly gained a completely different outlook on life. A positive outlook! With my improved state of mind, I experienced the true joy only cultivators of Dafa know. When looking at the blue sky or a blooming flower, I am amazed at the magic of nature. Master said, “the appearance stems from the mind.” (“Fa Teaching Given at the Epoch Times Meeting”)
After having lived a life of bitter pain and suffering, my attitude had become pessimistic and my face showed grief and resentment. Now people often say that I look beautiful. Master has eliminated so much karma and spiritual dirt for me. He has literally pulled me out of the swamp of pain and suffering and given me a new life. There is no way I can express my gratitude to Master in mere words!
There were times when all I wanted was revenge on my former husband. I was resentful of my own parents--and even Heaven. If it were not for Master and Dafa, I cannot imagine what would have happened. Master said, “If you cannot love your enemy, then you cannot reach Consummation.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Fa Conference in Australia”)
Under the guidance of Master and the Fa, I gradually let go of my hatred. My ex-husband used to be against Dafa and refused to listen to anything I said about the practice. He came to accept the facts after some time and spoke positively about Dafa. He even said, “Falun Dafa is good.” Eventually we parted peacefully.
The more I assimilate myself to the Fa, the better I feel and the happier I become. Sometimes while studying the Fa, my face is bathed in tears. They are tears of gratitude and happiness. I do not know how to thank Master enough for all he has done for me.
There are no words to express how wonderful it is to practice cultivation. I cherish the opportunity to cultivate Falun Dafa and clarify the facts to ordinary people.
Six months ago, I felt helpless. I was suffering so much and yet unable to escape the reality that I had created for myself.
Just six months after becoming a Falun Dafa practitioner, I am free of illness and my mind has been purified. I know the true meaning of life and am one of the luckiest people alive. Every day I try to do the three things. Sometimes I do not do them that well, but it is still the most meaningful thing in my life. It has brought deep inner joy and richness to my soul that cannot be compared with any happiness found in the ordinary human realm.