(Minghui.org) I was in very poor health before I became a Falun Dafa practitioner, with so many illnesses. I had so much trouble sleeping that I suffered a nervous breakdown. I was always angry, even when no one upset me.
Things got so bad that I attempted suicide. Luckily, my husband stopped me in time.
When I look back on it now, I feel a great deal of regret for my behavior.
I was 61 years old when Falun Dafa was introduced to my city in 1996. My former supervisor at work gave me a ticket to watch Master Li's video lectures on the Fa.
My illnesses had disappeared by the time we finished watching the videos. I felt as though I had become a different person, with an opportunity to start life over again.
About a year after becoming a Dafa practitioner, I experienced a strong energy pulse through my body continuously for two months. Every night while I was in bed, I felt warm currents rushing from my head to my feet. It was an extremely comfortable feeling.
I am now 80 years old, and can still carry heavy sacks of groceries up three flights of stairs without feeling tired. I am happy and so is my family.
I really cherished the time before the persecution of Falun Dafa began, as until July 1999, I was able to spend all my time studying the Fa and doing the exercises without any worries.
Studying the Fa was very difficult for me at first, because my lack of education meant that there were many words that I didn't know. I was really embarrassed when I studied the Fa with my coworkers, as most of them were well-educated and could read fluently, but I wasn't able to.
After recognizing my attachment to saving face, I asked Master for help: “I must study the Fa well and keep the Fa in my mind.” Master gave me a hint that I should hand copy the Fa.
I did so with all due seriousness, and became better at reading. I have never been absent-minded or felt sleepy when I study the Fa since then. For the last 20 years, I have studied at least one or two chapters of Zhuan Falun every day. Sometimes I even study three chapters in one day. I truly love to study the Fa.
Many people were forced to give up the practice as a result of the persecution, and the cultivation environment that we once had disappeared. I was so distraught that I was unable to eat anything for more than a month. However, after some time, I sent forth a thought: “Even if I am the only one left, I must persist in cultivation.”
I went to Tiananmen Square to appeal for the right to practice Falun Dafa about three months after the persecution started. I was there for four days, and witnessed many practitioners being violently beaten. I really didn't know what to do.
After the fourth day, I came home to find that my family life had been turned upside down. When I walked in the front door, my husband and my son were standing in the living room. My husband said, “If you hadn't come back, I would have divorced you!”
Someone from the neighborhood committee had been sent to my home to force me to hand over my Dafa books. They told my husband that if I didn't hand them over, I would be taken to a brainwashing center.
I had no other choice but to leave home to avoid being persecuted. My husband was so frightened by the authorities that he gave my Dafa books to the people at the neighborhood committee, which made me very sad.
I have done a lot to let people know about Falun Dafa and the persecution over the years. I have distributed a large number of Dafa informational materials with the help of other practitioners, phoned people to tell them about Dafa, and helped people quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations.
Sometimes my legs were badly swollen and I even suffered symptoms of a stroke, but I still did what I was supposed to do and recovered in little more than a week. My family members witnessed Falun Dafa's miraculous effects.
I was putting DVDs that contained information about Dafa on car windscreens one day in 2013 when I was dragged to the local police station by people wearing red armbands.
Once I arrived at the station, I told the people there about Falun Dafa and the persecution. They told me to call home and warn my husband that police were coming to raid the place. They were trying to help me, so that my husband could hide my Dafa books and other materials.
The police found nothing when they searched my home, and I was released. I was deeply grateful to those people for protecting a Dafa practitioner.
In 2015, when many people started suing Jiang Zemin, the former head of the CCP who initiated the persecution of Falun Dafa, I wrote a criminal complaint and sent it by post to the Supreme Court.
Some officers from the local police station came to see me a few days later. I told them about Dafa and the persecution and why I wanted to sue Jiang. I kept telling them not to commit any wrong deeds as I walked them to the door. They have not been back since.
One day, my son suddenly had severe pain in his leg when he stepped outside his home to go to work. He immediately had to go back inside the house. I spoke to him on the phone while he was in pain, because I had called him to invite him over for lunch. After he finished talking to me, the pain had disappeared and he went to work.
He was so surprised that he told his wife what happened, who then told her mother. My daughter-in-law’s mother eventually said to me, “Your energy is really powerful!”
My husband, now 86 years old, was the local Party Secretary before he retired. Initially, he supported me practicing Dafa, but after the persecution started he was against me practicing because he was very fearful of the CCP.
I came home one day and saw him standing bent over, motionless, in the living room. He told me that he had a terrible backache and had been standing there for quite a while. I remained calm and told him that he would be all right.
After I said those words, he tried to move, and could stand up straight and walk again.
Just as Master said:
“Haven’t I said that with one person practicing, the whole family benefits?” (“Teaching the Fa at the Fa Conference in Australia”)
He went downstairs to empty the garbage. When he came back he patted me on the back, and said, “Thank you, I am okay now!” He was extremely happy.
Through this incident, he not only came to admire Dafa, but also became more dependent on me. It is Master's compassion that gave him opportunities to be saved.
My husband developed bladder cancer a few years ago. The whole family went to the hospital on the day of his operation, but I thought, “What can I do to help him if I go to the hospital? I would rather stay at home and study the Fa.”
I had never experienced such a good state when studying the Fa that time. My body was surrounded with energy. It was so quiet, as if entering a divine world. Only the Fa remained in my mind. Perhaps Master was encouraging me on seeing that I was focused on the Fa without indulging in the attachment of sentimentality.
My husband's operation was a success, and he has been in good health for the past seven years.
He is 86 years old and in such good health that his doctors and former colleagues are all astonished.
I often think: “How lucky some people are to be family members or friends of Falun Dafa practitioners! This is a moment in history that should really be cherished, and it is a precious opportunity to be saved!”
I have never neglected Fa study over the last 20 years, and I have never been absent-minded when studying. The Fa is very dear to me. Yet I do not think that I have practiced cultivation well enough. It is because of the boundless Fa and Master's immeasurable virtue that an 80-year-old woman like me has the energy to do the Dafa work I need to do. My family has witnessed the powerful effects of Dafa firsthand, and perhaps this is one of the ways that Master is using to save them.