(Minghui.org) When I suddenly lost my eyesight in 2012 at the age of 63, I nearly had a breakdown.
It was a very difficult time in my life, even harder than the times when I was detained by the police or put through intensive brainwashing for not giving up my belief in Falun Gong.
Back then, no matter how the police persecuted me, I wasn't moved by it and I had strong faith to uphold my belief.
But suddenly becoming blind was a hard reality for me. I could no longer take care of my personal life, and I wondered how I could continue to let people know the facts about Falun Gong. During that difficult time, it was Master’s Fa that gave me the courage to keep going and practice cultivation with confidence.
Master wrote in Hong Yin:
To consummate yourself, reaping Buddhahood,Let joy be found in hardship.Physical pains count little as suffering,Indeed, cultivating mind is hardest.Each and every barrier must be broken through,And everywhere does evil lurk.Abundant troubles rain down together,All to see: Can you pull through?The world’s miseries endured,One departs the earth a Buddha.December 17, 1976
One thing I learned from Falun Gong was to look at things positively and never lose hope. I thought: Compared to other practitioners who were persecuted to death or those who are still detained in concentration camps and subjected to constant tortures, my blindness is relatively minor.
I calmed down and continued to study the Fa and do the exercises with my husband.
At first I was very distraught because I could no longer speak with people face-to-face when talking to them about Falun Gong or helping them quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP).
I had a dream one night that I had a new bicycle, but my husband held the key to unlock it. Meanwhile, my husband had a car but his key was with me. Neither of us could leave with our key in the hand of the other person. I spoke with my husband about my dream when I woke up. We thought it was a hint for us to cooperate with one another to tell people the facts about Falun Gong.
Although my eyes were not good, I could still use my mouth and ears. I learned how to use a recorded message to persuade people to quit the CCP, but only a small number of people agreed to quit using that method.
I thought: If I could talk directly to people, I would achieve better results. But I was afraid of being found out by the police and did not do that immediately.
Very soon, two practitioners told me that I could make telephone calls directly to people. I then realized that I should give up my attachment to fear and speak with people directly about Falun Gong and quitting the CCP.
Thus, my family project was launched. My husband drove our car and dialed the numbers while I spoke with people and told them the facts about Falun Gong and helped them quit the party and its affiliated organizations.
At the beginning I had a lot of fear and was unsure how to talk with people. Now that I have some experience, I can talk to them naturally and answer people’s questions easily. I can usually help 20-30 people to quit the CCP in one day.
It was really encouraging to see people's attitude about Falun Gong change.
During a call last year, the man who answered told me he knew how evil the CCP was and how he had wanted to quit the CCP for a long time even though he worked for the government. His friends and family all wanted to quit using their real names.
He was quite adamant. “Using an alias seems insulting to me,” he said.
Master told us:
“But, it’s only acceptable when you go about things with compassion in your heart. Don’t be bothered when people have a certain attitude or misunderstandings. When you act just to save the person, to save sentient beings, then I think the impact of that can change everything. If, however, as you clarify the truth your mind is affected by ordinary human attachments, then you won’t be able to achieve anything.” (“Fa Teaching Given in Manhattan”)
While many people welcomed my telephone calls and thanked me, others were very negative and cursed at me. But I never paid any attention to the people who were negative. I still greeted them and sincerely told them I wished them a good future.
On one occasion, the person who answered my call was a police officer. He at first threatened to arrest me. But I stayed constant. “No matter who you are, I want to help you stay safe,” I said. “If you treat Falun Gong practitioners well, you may have good fortune. Using an alias to quit the CCP will not affect your career.”
Maybe he understood that I truly cared about him. His attitude changed and he agreed to quit the CCP. Before I hung up, he reminded me to be careful.
Sometimes when people have not agreed to quit the CCP, I’ve called them again later. My persistence has really paid off, and many people have agreed to quit on my second call.
Some have not wanted to talk on the phone, but I knew they were listening. So I still told them about the Tiananmen self-immolation hoax and about quitting the CCP. I told them that they could send me a message instead of talking to me directly. One day, 15 people sent me messages asking to quit the CCP.
Master told us:
“For a Dafa disciple, cultivation is first priority. That’s because if you fail to cultivate well, you will not be able to accomplish what you are to do; and if you fail to cultivate well, your power to save sentient beings will not be that great.”
“If you don’t study the Fa well, there are many things you will not be able to do well.” (“Dafa Disciples Must Study the Fa-Fa Teaching Given at the 2011 Washington DC Metro Area Fa Conference”)
I keep listening to Master’s lectures and read Zhuan Falun with my husband. We read two lectures a day as well as many other articles and lectures from Master.
To cultivate myself well is the key to help people quit the CCP.