(Minghui.org) A fortuneteller told me 30 years ago that I would only live to be 68 years old. That depressed me, but somehow I felt that I could overcome that “death test.”
I believe that Falun Gong is the righteous way and that its founder, Master Li Hongzhi, is the only one who can save me.
When I read the lectures in Zhuan Falun, Falun Gong’s principal book, I saw what appeared to be a beam of light that extended upward from the pages.
I did the “Holding the Wheel in Front of the Head” part of the “Falun Standing Stance” exercise once, and I immediately entered into a state of tranquility. The middle finger of my right hand seemed to extended infinitely. A colorful ancient archway and scenic buildings also appeared on my finger. That scenery remained until I brought my arms down to the “Holding the Wheel in Front of the Lower Abdomen” position.
I was 68 years old in 2012. I was doing the sitting mediation on August 23 of that year, when the following phrase appeared in my head: “You have to die when your time is up.” I was frightened and thought Master was giving me a hint. It reminded me of what the fortuneteller had told me 30 years before.
Two days later, I felt a sudden pain in my heart while I was sleeping. It seemed like someone was grabbing my heart and would not let it go. The pain forced me to sit up. I had trouble breathing and sweat profusely. It seemed as if my heart would stop beating at any moment.
I raised my hand to send out strong righteous thoughts: “I am a Dafa disciple in the Fa-rectification period, and no one is allowed to take my life.” I shouted for Master to save my life. About a minute later, the pain went away!
I was dizzy and fell back asleep. I felt that Master gave me a big ball of light and opened the “Laogong” acupressure point of my left hand. The big light ball rested on my palm and glowed with golden light. I thought it must have been a Fa weapon used to eliminate the evil.
The next day my chest and back hurt. My face was pale, and my arms and legs felt weak. I knew Master had protected me. My heart was filled with infinite gratitude.
Five days later, however, I had trouble again. In the evening, my back was very hot, as if there was a big hot piece of iron stuck to my back. My chest felt like it had been hit by an iceberg, and cold air kept pouring into my lower abdomen. The fluctuations between the heat and cold tortured me.
My head felt like there was a swarm of bees flying around in it, and I couldn’t remember anything. The evil then tried to control my main consciousness, which made me almost lose control of my body.
I calmed myself down and shouted my name. I then mentally asked Master to help me because I was no longer able to shout. I began to remember the Fa and Lunyu. I had no fear!
I started to feel that I was tall and could utter sounds. Soon I was back to normal. I kept crying and was truly appreciative of Master.
I recalled what Master said: “The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts.” (“Drive Out Interference” from Essentials for Further Advancement II )
I knew that I would never leave the Fa and Master. No one is allowed to harm me! I studied the Fa day and night during those days. I read four to five lectures of Zhuan Falun in the daytime and watched the video of Master lecturing to Australian Dafa disciples in the evening. Each night I watched that same video.
I regained my health in a month. While I was doing the sitting mediation, a voice told me that my flesh body was saved. I knew Master had helped me again!
I was wondering how the evil could still persecute me after I overcame the death tribulation the first time? It was because I did not completely deny the persecution arranged by the old forces. The fortuneteller’s words still affected me.
I once lost some of my consciousness during the early period of my cultivation. I did not know to deny the old force’s interference. Several men wearing dark clothes stood before me and said, “Don’t let her elevate.” It meant that they did not want me to cultivate to enlightenment.
Another voice from high above said, “No, she has to!” I realized that was from Master, and he wanted me to return home with him.
I am Master Li Hongzhi’s disciple, and I let him to decide my fate. Master kept leaving hints for me after I passed the death tribulation so that I could cultivate diligently.
Master said:
“So, when you meet with ordeals, it is the perfect opportunity for you to improve. If you are able to look inside, that trying situation will become instead an opportunity, something to overcome and a chance to enter a new state. Why haven't you looked at things that way? As soon as you meet with an ordeal, you push it away. As I said, even if you quarreled over validating the Fa and saving sentient beings, or you heard some unpleasant comments, those were all for your improvement, because your improvement comes first. Without your improvement, nothing can be achieved, and that includes saving sentient beings.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2008 New York Conference”)
This teaching woke me up like a heavy hammer! “Can’t looking within be called cultivation?” I asked myself. Walking straighter on my cultivation path means to cultivate my inner self. If I failed to do that, my realm of Heaven would not be pure, and the people I saved would have no place to go. Not cultivating myself well is a crime.
I searched and found that I had a lot of human notions. I was selfish and narrow minded. That upset me.
My xinxing had not reached the standard that the Fa required, and I could not treat myself as a practitioner. But I had to look within to find my own faults and that was extremely painful.
The big tribulations won’t show up if I can look within on time, and all evil and bad substances will be resolved if my compassion is in charge.
Studying the Fa helped me to get rid of my notions, including selfishness, greed, zealotry, showing off, jealousy, self-validation, and hatred. I exposed them one by one and removed them. I learned to control myself and was able to think things through from a righteous perspective and suppress negative thoughts when I meet with any problems.
I studied the Lecture in Sydney and realized that what we cultivate is the cosmos’ Fa and that Master has already pushed us to the right position, so what we say to everyday people should also have the Buddha Fa’s power.
This righteous power manifested itself one day when I went to pick up my granddaughter at school. I was wondering how I could save more people with compassion when a man in his 40s passed by and said, “You are so kind.”
I told him I was a Falun Gong cultivator and believed in Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. He said he had already quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations and knew Dafa was good. He told me to be safe and left.
Master said:
“If you want to return where you came from, you must have the following two factors. One is suffering. The other is enlightenment. With regard to enlightenment, Jesus talked about faith while enlightenment is required in the East. If you have lost these things, you will not be able to practice cultivation.” (Lecture in Sydney)
I studied the Fa every day. I could understand the Fa principals in that realm once I was able to read calmly and attentively.
My mind became tranquil in our Fa-study group. I saw Master’s Fashen wearing a monk’s robes. He sat in front of me and watched me. I was very excited but dared not to be too happy and looked at him quietly.
It was my turn to read the Fa. I finished reading and saw that Master’s Fashen had left.
I knew Master had allowed me to see his Fashen and was encouraging me to be more diligent.
Thanks to Master, thanks to fellow practitioners!