(Minghui.org) At the beginning of this year, I felt that I was not being kind and compassionate, but always held resentment. I was often critical of other passengers on the bus: they were not pleasing to my eyes, they stood at the wrong place on the bus, and so on. I didn't have such a state of bad thoughts during my past years of cultivation practice. I was wondering what happened.

Then one day at our group Fa study, a practitioner misread two words in the following passage. It gave me a hint.

Master said,

“Some people have no real interest in spiritual practice, of course, and even at this point still haven’t come around. So we can’t look after them. We can only take care of those who are sincere about the practice.” (The Third Talk, Zhuan Falun)

The meaning of what he read became “do not look after them” instead of the original words of “can't look after them.”

I suddenly realized that if practitioners did not understand the Fa, Master could not take care of them, even if he wanted to. We should strengthen our main consciousness and eliminate the false self. So I decided not to look at other people's shortcomings, and not to blame others. I decided to only look inward and cultivate my thoughts. However, I felt that I still could not eliminate the bad thoughts.

I got another hint one day when I was reading Master's Fa,

“Let’s take a look at one example of how energy practice might factor into martial arts. Mobilizing the body’s chi energy is a big part of it. This energy isn’t so easily mobilized at first, and might not go where you want it to. To address this, a person will have to work his hands, chest, feet, legs, arms, as well as head.” (The Sixth Talk, Zhuan Falun)

“As he carries on practicing in this manner, his teacher will give him further instruction, and with time he will learn to mobilize energy.” (The Sixth Talk, Zhuan Falun)

I realized that cultivating my mind and eliminating the bad thoughts was a gradual process. My main consciousness would be strengthened as I carried on practicing diligently.

One day when I took a bus, the driver suddenly drove away while I was still boarding. I almost fell and immediately complained about the driver in my heart. After I calmed down, I told myself that the driver was in a rush because he might have been running late, as there were many passengers on the bus. Why didn't I immediately think about it from his point of view? I realized that the angry feelings I immediately had were not from my true self. I was a life composed of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, so the notion was not my true self. When I was realizing this, a person who stood by a vacant seat insisted that I take the seat. I knew it was Master's encouragement.

Master said,

“But chi is just a very basic thing, which belongs to the initial stage of practice; over time, with consistent effort, it will be converted into high-energy matter.” (The Sixth Talk, Zhuan Falun)

I continuously looked inward and tried to distinguish my true self from the false self. Gradually, I could discern and eliminate the bad thoughts that were implanted in my mind by the old forces.

One of my fellow practitioners had gone out of town for several months; I missed her very much. One day, I finally learned the news of her return. All of a sudden, I felt that I was so excited, and I could not even control my excitement. I reminded myself be calm and eliminate that feeling of over excitement. The strong emotion disappeared instantly.

Master said,

“That’s why if you strike somebody, the necessary energy will be deployed to the relevant part of your body without your having directed energy there or having willed it in any way. If someone strikes you and you move to block it, the energy will have arrived at that part of your body even before you make your move. It goes faster than you, however quick you might be, owing to the different workings of time in the two dimensions.” (The Sixth Talk, Zhuan Falun)

I realized that the speed of our supernatural capability is very fast. With this capability, I could immediately discover the notions when they were presented and eliminate them.

For example, when some practitioners said that my sharing was very helpful, I then suddenly felt an element of arrogance coming from another dimension. I realized it immediately, and eliminated it.

Through this, I realized the joy of cultivation practice. I felt that the low level elements were just like dust, and were easy to get rid of. When I spoke to fellow practitioners, I was also able to tell what was said by their true selves, and what was their notions.

I wanted to share my experiences because I noticed some fellow practitioners did not have confidence in cultivating their thoughts. I hope my sharing can be of some help.