(Minghui.org)
After my husband passed away in 2014, I went back to my hometown to take a break, and a friend introduced me to Falun Dafa. As soon as she started teaching me the standing exercises, I felt Falun law wheels spinning in my abdomen. That was when my life as a Falun Dafa cultivator began.
Master Li Hongzhi taught us:
“Cultivating mind and body refers to cultivating one’s xinxing at the same time that one’s body is cultivated. In other words, benti is being transformed.” (Lecture Five, Zhuan Falun)
I was very excited. I started reading Zhuan Falun as soon as I returned home a few weeks later and started correcting my thoughts that did not conform to the Fa teachings. I started to improve mentally and physically.
My father passed away when I was 13. Soon after, my two older sisters died. My oldest brother was a soldier and died in battle and my second brother did not live in my hometown.
I was the oldest of the siblings living with the family at the time, and I had to help my mother take care of my two younger brothers.
My mother made me drop out of school as soon as I graduated from junior high to help support my two younger brothers so that they could finish school. Later, I helped my youngest brother to find a job and a wife.
Although I had sacrificed so much for my younger brothers, they never acknowledged what I’d done for them or expressed their appreciation. They never welcomed me when I returned to our hometown from time to time. I was hurt and could not figure out why they acted like that.
I took care of my mother for my oldest living brother, even though in Chinese tradition, taking care of the elderly is the eldest son’s responsibility. However, he did not appreciate it at all and called me a “housemaid.” My mother also treated me unfairly. She arranged my marriage so that she could rely on me to take care of her. I did not like the man I married, but I had to accept the arrangement for her sake.
My married life was full of suffering. We had nothing in common to talk about and had no feelings or love for each other. Conflicts and accusations were the order of the day. I suffered a lot mentally and sometimes felt that the anger would give me a heart attack. I regretted agreeing to the marriage and blamed my mother for arranging it.
I lived like that for decades, with the result being that I became ill-tempered and ended up with stomach problems, a nervous breakdown, headaches, and when it was especially serious, amnesia. I had no appetite and had trouble sleeping. I even thought about ending my life.
After I started cultivating, I came to realize that there were reasons for all I was suffering. Despite my serious health problems, I found three good Chinese medicine doctors who cured me. Was Master protecting me?
Master said:
“It is because ordinary human society is supposed to be this way. Birth, old age, illness, and death are just such conditions. They all have karmic reasons and are of karmic retribution. You must repay the debt if you have it.” (Lecture Seven, Zhuan Falun)
I must have owed a lot from my past lives, and Master arranged for me to repay my debts: I repaid my mother and my youngest brothers in money and paid an emotional debt to my husband. My husband tormented me mentally and helped me to eliminate my karma.
Now I am cultivating Falun Dafa and following Master to return to heaven. I came to understand that my past suffering was all good for my cultivation. My anger, hatred, resentment, and competitiveness all disappeared; they were totally gone.
Master also arranged for fellow practitioners to give me a full set of Dafa books. I treasure them and read them whenever I have time.
Although I am over 80, I believe that people of all ages can cultivate, and I made up my mind to cultivate diligently. I want to follow Master to return to my true home.
Master taught us that Dafa disciples must do the three things well. I was able to study the Fa regularly, do the exercises, and send righteous thoughts. At first, however, I did not know how to talk to people to convince them of the truth about Dafa and save them. Master helped me by arranging for fellow practitioners to teach me how to tell people about Falun Dafa and the persecution and how to advise them to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations.
I called my old friends and former colleagues and explained the facts of Falun Dafa to them and advised them to quit the CCP, and many of them did. As I read more about Falun Dafa and the persecution, I became more proficient at talking to people.
When I started cultivating, I was concerned that I did not sign a pact with Master. Later, I read:
“That’s because this group of Dafa disciples was designated as such in the distant past. And regardless of whether they gained the Fa earlier or later, they are all Dafa disciples.” (Fa Teaching Given at the 2016 New York Fa Conference)
I then understood that I did not need to worry, that I just needed to do my best to save sentient beings.
I arranged my time so that I did the five exercises and sent righteous thoughts early in the morning, then I went out to talk to people about Falun Dafa and the persecution. I studied the Fa in the afternoon.
At first, I was only able to advise a few people to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations each day, but gradually the number increased to more than a dozen. Some people were very receptive and appreciated my talking with them. I said, “You are a kind person. My master wants me to help you. You should thank him.”
I also talked to the merchants when I went shopping. Many merchants were rewarded after quitting the CCP and its youth organizations and their business improved.
A girl selling fruit who quit the CCP told me, “Auntie, after you helped me quit the CCP, I sold more fruit.” I told her, “Dafa has blessed you.”
I spoke to people as young as 13 and as old as 98. Looking at these lives that I helped save, I was very happy for them.
However, some people were afraid and did not want to hear about Falun Dafa. I told them, “I am 80 years old and I am not afraid. What you are afraid of?”
Some people simply did not want to listen to me, some had bad attitudes, and some threatened to beat me. Some young people even followed me and reported me to the police.
I have been reported to the police more than a dozen times since 2015. Over the past two to three years, they illegally searched me once and took me to the police station three times.
About seven people from the police station and the community committee broke into my home in March 2016 and searched it.
I was not afraid. I told them, “I cultivate Falun Dafa and conduct myself following the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. I’ve done nothing wrong and did not break any law. Jiang Zemin made the decision to persecute Falun Dafa and to harvest organs from living Falun Dafa practitioners. He and his cohorts have committed monstrous crimes and heaven is destroying them.”
I advised the intruders to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations right away and to not commit any more crimes against Falun Dafa. I told them that it was for their own future. I also played the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party VCD for them.
They took my two Dafa books when they left, so I went to the police station a dozen times to ask for them back. I talked to them about Falun Dafa in person and wrote them letters. More than a dozen police officers quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations as a result.
The police officer who took my books dared not show his face—I was not able to get my books back. In order to save them, I wrote letters to the officer and to the head of the police station.
In the summer of 2017, several police officers suddenly appeared while another practitioner and I were handing information to an elderly man. I was taken to the police station.
I kept sending righteous thoughts and kept telling the police about Falun Dafa. I asked them not to be Jiang Zemin’s scapegoats.
A young police officer came over and said, “Auntie, please help me quit the CCP using my real name.” He then told me, “Some senior officers are coming to talk to you this afternoon. Please explain things to them and advise them all to quit the CCP.”
Then, two more young police officers came and wanted to quit the CCP and I helped them, too.
A senior officer and the station chief came in the afternoon. The chief asked me, “Why were you handing out those flyers? And who did you give them to?”
I said, “I am saving people. I gave my flyers to passersby and I do not know their names. Whoever takes one has a hope of being saved.”
He asked again, “Why are you doing that?” I said, “Jiang Zemin’s regime persecutes and kills Falun Dafa practitioners. The regime is corrupt and has betrayed our country and has done many evil things. Heaven is eliminating it.”
I then told them, “My master is compassionate and is giving people this last chance. People who quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations will avoid disaster and be saved. I am a Falun Dafa practitioner and it is my mission and responsibility to save people.”
The senior officer did not like me talking about Jiang Zemin and kept interrupting me. I said to him, “What kind of leader are you? Why are you full of nonsense?” I then showed them the website for quitting the CCP.
After I finished talking, I started to walk out. The chief walked with me. I asked him, “Do you want to quit the CCP?” He said, “Yes.” One more life was saved.
Later on, I was taken to the police station two more times. I wrote to the chief and asked all his people not to follow Jiang Zemin to persecute Falun Dafa practitioners and told them to quit the CCP. Four more officers quit the CCP as a result.
With Master’s encouragement and protection, and with fellow practitioners’ help, I have been able to do what a Dafa practitioner should do. I know my understandings are very limited, so please point out any of my shortcomings.
Thank you, Master! Thank you, fellow practitioners.