(Minghui.org) I am a new 31-year-old Falun Dafa practitioner who started to practice at home since March 2018. I want to share my journey of learning Falun Gong.
Under the current Chinese education system, I was taught that scores are most important, and cultural and moral quality doesn’t matter. Although I had good test scores, I was rarely interested in the content of the textbooks. I was disgusted with the Chinese Communist Party (CCP)-related politics in the textbooks. In such a rigorous and tedious learning process, students lost their curiosity and genuine interest in the knowledge inside the textbooks.
However, I still spent a lot of time reading books outside my textbooks. My favorite magazine was a pictorial, which introduced different cultures from throughout the world. The people in free countries were sincere and friendly, which was quite different from what I learned from the textbooks.
I remembered I read a booklet in elementary school, which slandered Falun Gong. Since I believed the CCP’s lies about Falun Gong, I agreed with the contents of the booklet. But, it was written coarsely. I wondered back then how a reading material for elementary students could be written in such vulgar language.
When I was in high school, my family bought a computer, and I could get online. I came across the facts about Falun Gong, but I did not believe it. I still thought Falun Gong was like what the CCP’s propaganda said.
When I was in college, I got the software from a friend, which helped me break through the Chinese internet blockade. I found a lot of more information about Falun Gong. What changed me was the book Zhuan Falun, the main book of Falun Dafa. After reading this book, I believed that Falun Gong is righteous, and is a high-level Buddhist cultivation method.
The documentary False Fire exposed that the Tiananmen Square self-immolation incident was a hoax, perpetrated by the Chinese government. I learned that Falun Gong practitioners are good people who genuinely consider others from the Minghui website. They are normal people, like me, but they are being tortured for not giving up their faith.
Since then, I started to tell people Falun Gong is good, was eager to help others install anti-internet blockade software, and hoped they would learn the facts about Falun Gong. Most of them did not take my words well. I did not practice myself at that time, and did not have the compassion to help them understand the truth about Falun Gong.
Since I was a child, I often closed my eyes and sat quietly. My classmates knew that I had this hobby. I also developed some supernormal abilities. I could see the realistic three-dimensional color pictures in my dreams. Sometimes I could hear beautiful music. It was amazing.
I thought myself to be something and created my own set of exercises. Without righteous Fa guiding me, I did not know that I needed to improve my moral character. Gradually, those capabilities disappeared. Since the second half of 2017, I no longer had those dreams.
Later, I spent more time reading Zhuan Falun. I learned that my pursuit was the cause of my capability disappearing.
Master said:
“They can only be developed through sincere spiritual practice. But they still shouldn’t be a motivating goal. If they are, you should ask yourself why. Do you plan to use them around people? They are forbidden from being used like that, and the more you want them, the less likely they will come about. That’s because you would be wanting them, and that would be an attachment.” (The Third Talk, Zhuan Falun)
I read Zhuan Falun once seven or eight years ago. In March 2018, I lost my job. So I had more free time. I finally decided to practice Falun Gong, and gave up everything I practiced before. I regretted that I did not make this decision much earlier.
I was not as diligent as I expected due to my busy work schedule. My sickness karma had not been eliminated. Sometimes, my back pain slowed me down when doing the exercises. I watched Master’s lecture “Teaching the Fa at the Fa Conference in Australia” in May 2019. I realized the gods of the whole universe would be rearranged during this Fa-rectification. I had a better understanding of Falun Gong.
Since then, I have fully immersed myself in the Fa. I spent more time reading Master’s books and doing the exercises every day. When I encountered any tribulation, or when I was in pain during the sitting meditation, I would ask Master to strengthen me.
Master said:
“Now that you’ve obtained the Fa, what’s there to fear? There was a saying in the past: 'Having heard the Dao in the morning, a person can die at dusk.'” (Teaching the Fa at the Assistants’ Fa Conference in Changchun)
It appears quite easy for a person to practice Falun Gong. You just need to read the Fa and do the exercises. But in order to obtain the Fa in this life, one had been through so many hardships in previous lives.
Once I spent one hour in copying Master’s lecture after finishing the exercise at midnight. Then I went to bed. I was awakened by nightmares. I clearly felt something pressing on me, making me unable to move. I could not see the being, but I felt the extreme horror. I repeatedly said, “Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance” to those hateful beings. Gradually the fear disappeared. I shed tears. I felt I was rotating with the Falun within a short time, and heard the music of Pu Du. I believed this was Master’s affirmation of my righteous thoughts.
Master said:
“Steadfastly cultivate Dafa, the will unflinchingThe raising of levels is what’s fundamentalIn the face of tests one’s true nature is revealedAchieve Consummation, becoming a Buddha, Dao, or God”(“True Nature Revealed”, Essentials for Further Advancement II)
I am determined to continue to walk on the path of cultivation.