(Minghui.org) I began practicing Falun Dafa in 1996. During these 24 years I’ve experienced many amazing things. I’m not very well educated and never wrote an experience sharing article before. I’ve known many practitioners who experienced symptoms of being sick and some even passed away. I wanted to tell you about my experiences. I hope they will help other practitioners deny the appearance of being ill.
Before I began practicing Falun Dafa the lymph nodes under my arms and my cheeks were swollen. Sometimes, I couldn’t eat or talk and I had a high fever. For nine years I relied on medication to survive. After I began practicing Falun Dafa my lymph nodes were normal.
In 2008 my lymph nodes became swollen again. The flesh under my chin swelled to the size of an egg. I was unable to read the Fa. I could not chew or swallow and I had a high fever. I survived on porridge. I became depressed when I looked in the mirror. My cultivation state seemed to be at a stalemate.
After I did the exercises one morning, I had a sudden thought: Do I really trust Master and believe in the Fa? In my mind I told Master, “I was wrong. This is all an illusion, I won’t look in the mirror again. I’ll ignore my swollen lymph nodes.” Instead of focusing on myself I went back to doing what I’m supposed to do. Two days later I felt something under my tongue. When I looked I saw a big pus pocket filled with blood. Almost immediately I spat out two stones the size of grapes. Afterward, I was completely fine.
A while ago, I met a practitioner with the same symptoms I had. She could neither talk nor eat. She couldn’t read Zhuan Falun when it was her turn. I asked her, “Aren’t you allowing this to happen? You cannot eat or read, and you’re completely giving in to it.” When it was her turn to read, I encouraged her to try. Her throat hurt so much that she cried, but she persisted. Afterwards she spit out blood and pus. The next day, she was completely fine.
In 2009, I felt pressure on the left side of my chest and I had difficulty eating. After a meal I couldn’t sit down. Sitting down too long during Fa study also made me very uncomfortable and I had to lay down. I realized this was an illusion and I needed to deny it. I resumed my daily Fa study, doing the exercises and my household chores. I refused to think of it as an illness. However, I made a mistake in thinking I would recover slowly so it took two years.
I felt the kidney stones moving inside me one day. I immediately thought, “I deny your existence. If I acknowledge you, you’ll turn into sickness karma!” I resumed doing my chores. On the fourth day, I began sweating profusely and needed to use the bathroom. I passed a stone the size of an egg yolk. Two days later, all the symptoms were gone.
In June 2014, while I was eating, the right side of my mouth became numb and the rice spilled on the floor. When I looked, my mouth was slightly crooked. I felt very tired. That night, in front of Master’s picture, I said, “Master, please don’t worry. I’ll pass this tribulation.”
I knew I had to look inward and find my attachments. I found that I really paid attention to my appearance. When I went to my mother’s house, I always dressed up. My children wanted me to go to the hospital. I told my husband that Master is always looking after us, and I wouldn’t go to the hospital. My children gave up. When I was on the train heading to my mother’s house, my condition worsened. I could barely see out of my right eye and my mouth became so crooked that I couldn't speak. When I arrived, my sister and brother urged me to go to the hospital. I refused. Seven days later I was completely fine.
Before I began practicing, I had a big bump under my arm. It did not hurt or itch so I ignored it. As time passed, it became bigger. My relative came over one day and noticed it. She told me that it would cost 16,000 yuan to have it removed. I said I was fine. That night, the bump became much bigger and very hard. I told myself that I was fine and everything was up to Master. Three months later, the bump was gone.
A practitioner pointed out that my belly had become very large. I said perhaps I had gained weight. I thought, “Maybe I ate too much?” The more I thought about it using ordinary thoughts, the bigger my belly became. I thought I should buy some bananas after work. Just as I was about to buy the bananas, my bus came. I thought, “Maybe Master is telling me I don’t need them.” When I got home I started to read the teachings. But, I couldn’t stop thinking about my big belly. I suddenly had the righteous thought: Master is with me at all times. I should trust Master completely. My heart and body lightened as I read the Fa.
The next morning, my big belly disappeared. I called for my husband to look and he was very surprised.
This September, my lower back became painful after I moved the sewing machine. When it was time to send righteous thoughts at 6 p.m., the pain increased. Even though it was hard to walk I decided to ignore it. The more it hurt to do the exercises, the more I did them; the more it hurt to walk, the more I walked. Finally, I couldn’t cross my legs during Fa study so I sat on a chair. One practitioner asked, “Aren’t you acknowledging it?” So, I sat on the floor. But I could barely move my legs and I was very uncomfortable. It took a long time to stand up. I was determined to walk home and climb the stairs. When I got home, my back ached all over. I cooked dinner as usual, washed the dishes, and cleaned up. When it was time, I sent righteous thoughts. After I sent righteous thoughts for half an hour, my pain was gone. I continued sending righteous thoughts for another 15 minutes and my body was completely fine. When I reached an hour, my body felt really light, and I could walk normally.
When I sometimes have tribulations, I’m able to immediately deny them. For example, when my wrist dislocated, I thought, “Maybe something I did was not on the Fa.” Almost immediately my wrist felt fine.
We are practitioners, so we don’t have any illnesses. When we have symptoms of “illness”, it’s only an illusion.
Master clearly talked about how we should handle interference like sickness karma,
“What's important for cultivators is righteous thoughts. When you have strong righteous thoughts, you are able to withstand anything and do anything. That's because you are a cultivator: someone who is on a divine path and who is not controlled by the factors of ordinary people or low-level principles.” (Teaching the Fa in the City of Los Angeles)
Master is always with us and is in charge of everything. It all depends on whether we believe and whether we want to cultivate.