(Minghui.org) I am 58 years old and have been practicing Falun Dafa for over 20 years. I know that I am able to pass tests in cultivation thanks to Master's merciful care.
A callus recently developed on the bottom of my right foot, so I used a pair of scissors to cut it out. However, I cut too deep. Over the next few days, it started to become so painful that I could barely walk.
I had a hard time doing the chores around the house, as I felt dizzy and exhausted. My first thought was to lay down to rest.
I recited Master's Fa over and over,
“A Great Enlightened One fears no hardshipHaving forged an adamantine willFree of attachment to living or dyingHe walks the path of Fa-rectification confident and poised”(“Righteous Thoughts and Righteous Actions,” Hong Yin Vol. II)
“I’d say that bodily pain is the easiest to bear—you just grit your teeth and it’s over.” (The Fourth Talk, Zhuan Falun)
I should have had stronger righteous thoughts instead of giving in to the pain. After I sent forth righteous thoughts and memorized the Fa later that evening, the pain lessened a bit.
I got up to do the Dafa exercises the next morning, but I still couldn’t stand because of the pain. I told myself, “I decide whether to stand or not.”
After I finished doing all five of the Dafa exercises, part of my foot was still swollen and an abscess with pus had developed where the callous had been.
My daughter asked if I was okay, and suggested that I go to the hospital. I told her that I was fine, even though I felt some pain in my foot.
After all of my family members had left, I memorized the Fa, sent forth righteous thoughts, and took a nap. I felt energetic after waking up, and sent righteous thoughts for 30 minutes before studying one of Master’s lectures.
Master said,
“Making it through depends on one's own steadfast righteous thoughts and firm belief in Dafa. Master can take on the suffering for you, and I can even bear the pain in your place, but can you position your mind in a righteous way when under such cruel and harsh pressure? Are you treating yourself as a god or as a human being? Do you have ample righteous thoughts? All of these things depend on you, on you yourselves.” (Teaching the Fa in San Francisco, 2005)
Every word hit me as though Master were saying them directly to me, and I no longer worried about my foot. The more I studied the Fa, the stronger my righteous thoughts became. I no longer felt that the pain was a big deal, as Master has suffered so much for me.
Through studying the Fa more, I saw my attachment to comfort and wanting my family to take care of me.
I realized this when I was thirsty. The water bottle was empty, and I wondered why no one came back home to check up on me and fill up the water bottle. When this thought surfaced, I knew it was wrong. I told myself, “I should prepare lunch for them, instead of expecting them to come home to check up on me. Aren’t I being selfish?”
I also remembered that I had to take a copy of Minghui Weekly to another practitioner. I didn’t know what to do since my foot was still in pain, and I couldn't stand on it.
I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the fear of pain and suffering, and decided to take it to another practitioner instead who lived closer to me. With stronger righteous thoughts, I was able to deliver the material.
I completely recovered on the fifth day after doing the sitting meditation for two hours. This experience has solidified my belief in Master and the Fa even more.
I was sentenced to three and a half years of forced labor in 2013, and taken to Masanjia Forced Labor Camp in Shenyang City. I had high blood sugar levels during my time there.
I developed a leg ulcer after being released in 2017. It was small at first, but soon grew, and pus started coming out.
My daughter tried to make me to go to hospital, but I refused, and said I was fine. I knew that Master was helping to cleanse my body.
I developed ulcers all over my body six months later. My legs and chest were covered with them. My husband urged me to go to the hospital. I knew that Master was helping me, and I didn’t need to go. The ulcers soon disappeared.
If our righteous thoughts are strong, no matter how big the tribulation, it becomes trivial for a cultivator.