(Minghui.org) After the onset of the persecution of Falun Dafa on July 20, 1999, many Dafa practitioners started using a variety of ways to let people know the truth about Falun Dafa and dispel the lies and propaganda put out by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP)'s state-run media.
Since I had to work during the day, I often went out at night or on weekends to distribute Dafa informational brochures or post stickers. When I went out on business, I'd take Dafa materials with me and distribute them.
With many surveillance cameras around, I sometimes worried that I would be seen distributing materials and be arrested. When my righteous thoughts weren't strong enough, human notions put fear in my mind.
After entering a residential building one time, I noticed a camera pointing directly at me. Regardless of whether they recorded me or not, I sent righteous thoughts and told myself that I was doing the most righteous thing and that no one should persecute me.
Master said,
“There will be little interference if you are righteous with whatever you do. As I have always said, there won’t be any problems if you are righteous on your part. But if you do things with human thinking or attachments, problems will be hard to avoid—even if you are doing Dafa things.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2019 New York Fa Conference”, Team Yellow Translation)
I later learned that many cameras in residential areas were installed by the people living or working there, mainly to deter criminal behavior and protect their property.
And as Master said,
“I’ve heard that out of every thousand cameras they install, five hundred don’t work (laughter and applause), and that as soon as they fix one, some other one is broken.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2019 New York Fa Conference”, Team Yellow Translation)
I was then able to let go of the attachment of fear to the surveillance cameras.
When I go to residential buildings, I deliver truth-clarification materials to people’s doors and post stickers on display boards or newspaper boxes. I put them up very neatly in appropriate places so as not to interfere with the integral part of the building.
There are often many floors accessible only by the stairwell. Climbing to the top floor was an easy thing for me, and I didn’t feel tired at all. If someone passed by, I behaved nonchalantly and greeted them.
Every time I finished distributing materials in residential buildings, I felt as though I had just completed a mission in a demon's den, trying to awaken people’s conscience so that they can be saved.
Some stickers, such as “Falun Dafa is good,” “Celebrate Falun Dafa Day on May 13,” and “Epoch Times Statement of Withdrawing from the CCP” have stayed in place for months and helped many people learn about Falun Dafa.
After finishing the task, I could feel the mighty power of Dafa strengthening me and clearing the haze around me and the bad thoughts inside.
I spent a lot of my spare time sorting out the name lists of those who had agreed to quit the CCP and its youth organizations, which were given to me by fellow practitioners. I then sent the names to the Tuidang website, the movement for quitting the CCP.
Some names weren’t written clearly, and duplicate names needed to be verified. Repeatedly typing names was tedious, but it plays an indispensable supporting role.
It took a lot of time to sort through the name lists. Some practitioners organized the names very clearly before passing them on to me, while others were not so well done. If the words on the list were illegible, I had to go back to the practitioner who passed me the list and confirm the details with them.
After sending a name list to the Tuidang website, I would check the website several days later to make sure it was published with no errors or omissions.
A web editor from Tuidang once came back to me regarding a name list I had recently sent, wanting to verify a name on the list. I looked inward and asked myself why I didn’t see it before. I realized that what I was doing was sacred, and so I must pay serious attention to detail.
Each time there was an online experience-sharing conference, I would receive one or two handwritten articles from fellow practitioners who asked me to help type them up and send them to the Minghui website.
When I read the articles, sometimes I had negative thoughts like “Can this be published?” and “Isn’t this a waste of time?” However, I insisted on typing it up and sending it because it was my duty, and it was not my decision whether the article would be published or not.
In actually reading and typing up the experience-sharing articles, I felt the righteous thoughts and actions from these fellow practitioners, as I had undergone a similar cultivation process as they did. In particular, these articles reminded me again and again that I must get rid of the same attachments they were talking about and that I must persist with righteous actions as well.
I still have a lot of attachments, such as doing things carelessly, not being honest, having a competitive mentality, stubbornness, etc.
When clarifying the truth I didn't pay attention to my words and wasn't really concerned whether the other person accepted what I had to say. This attitude was also reflected in my job, such as hastily writing up reports and doing things without paying attention to the end product.
Sometimes I wasn't honest at work and exaggerated the amount of work I had done to my supervisor. When things went wrong, I didn’t tell the truth to avoid responsibility.
I also had a competitive mentality, always insisted on doing things my way, and refused to make concessions. My wife once told me that other practitioners thought I was very stubborn. I didn’t acknowledge it at first, but later I realized it was true.
Sometimes I knew clearly in my mind that what my wife said was right, but I still refused to listen to her, which caused some conflicts.
I must be strict with myself going forward and do the three things well.