(Minghui.org) On the morning of September 22, I had a lucid dream that I was visiting the Minghui website and discovered that Minghui has published a list of practitioners from different countries and regions who had consummated. I immediately wanted to find my name.

There were three files on the website. The first file contained the names of practitioners who had “Already Consummated.” I checked the list and found my city. I looked carefully for my name but did not find it even after I scrolled to the end of the list. However, I saw the names of my father and another practitioner.

I was very shocked and worried. Why wasn’t my name on the list? I then looked at the second file, which listed the practitioners who were “Awaiting Consummation” and found my name instantly. There were words in parentheses after these names.

There were many words after my name. They said that, in my 26 years of cultivation, there were many things that I did not do well, including the attachments that I still had, being lazy, not doing the exercises, not sending forth righteous thoughts, and not studying the Fa well. On the surface, I had cultivated for 26 years, but based on how well and how often I studied the Fa, sent forth righteous thoughts, and did the exercises, it only added up to ten years. That meant that over the past 26 years, I had only cultivated for ten years and did not cultivate for 16 years. It was clearly written!

I was feeling very uncomfortable and my heart ached. I thought about living and cultivating with Father every day, but the gap between us was so huge. Way too big! I even thought that I had cultivated better than him, so my name should have been in the “Already Consummated” list and my father should have been in the “Awaiting Consummation” list. I was very confused.

I then looked at the third file that had the names of Dafa practitioners who did not consummate. Something told me that these practitioners had fallen away from cultivation and some no longer cultivated at all. It was very sad.

The dream suddenly changed, and there was a big ship in front of me. Many practitioners were climbing aboard, and I saw my father. He looked very young, handsome, and well dressed. He was walking up the gangplank and I was shouting “Dad,” but he did not turn around and kept going. I ran over and tried to get on board the ship, but I couldn’t because I was holding a suitcase.

I was quite distressed. I knew that these practitioners had already consummated and would be leaving. I would not have a chance if I could not get on board. Just then, a voice told me that I was “awaiting consummation.” Because I had not consummated, I could not board the ship, but I still had a chance and time to continue cultivating. I could board the ship after I had consummated.

I sat there crying as I watched the big ship slip away. Many practitioners also cried. I regretted it so much! Why was I lazy? Why did I not cultivate properly? I was in so much pain and anguish.

Just then, I heard my father say, “Wake up and do the exercises!”

It was just a dream! I was a little happy but still disturbed because the dream had seemed so real!

I knew that this was a hint from Master. I do not know why I had been feeling sleepy recently and did not do the exercises diligently. Surprisingly, ever since that dream, I no longer feel sleepy. I know that Master saw I had awakened and removed that sleep demon. Thank you, Master, for watching over me. It is true that I have not done the exercises much over the years. Master has given me hints many times in my dreams, but I was too lacking and became lazy after being diligent for a few days. My laziness really troubled me!

Master, I would like to sincerely repent to you here. I let you down and made you worry. I am determined to do the exercises well from now on. Master, please be assured, I will try my best to make up for everything that I have fallen behind on and get from the “Awaiting Consummation” list to the “Already Consummated” list.

I wrote down my dream because I sincerely hope that fellow practitioners who are like me will be motivated to quickly become diligent. We are practitioners who are “Awaiting Consummation.” We are practitioners who can consummate. Let us be serious when we study the Fa, do the three things well, and do all five exercises every day. Let us all board Master’s ship and return to our true homes.

Master is waiting for us. Come on, fellow practitioners!

This is my own understanding. If there is anything inappropriate, please kindly point it out.