(Minghui.org) I began to practice Falun Dafa in 1998, a year before Jiang Zemin (former Party leader) started persecuting practitioners. I then went awry on my path and didn’t return to cultivation until late 2008. Since then, both my physical health and moral character have improved greatly.
When I married my husband, he brought his two-year-old son from his previous marriage to live with us. We then had a girl. When our son was 11 and our daughter was 7, my husband died in a car accident. My son stayed with his grandmother, and I took my daughter to another city to run a business.
My original house was used by my son’s uncle (my husband’s older brother) from 1998 to 2020. Then in 2020, he rented out the house. He didn’t talk to me about it and has never given me any of the rental income during these years. But it is, in fact, my house. If I had rented out the house for these 20 some years, it would have brought in a considerable amount of income. Shouldn’t I be the one to make that decision? If I didn’t practice Dafa, I would for sure be fighting with him for the earnings. But I was not moved. I knew that I was a cultivator, and perhaps I owed him from a previous life.
A few years ago, the government was preparing to renovate the area and needed to re-validate the property owners. My son’s uncle then put the house under his name. He learned that if the house was under his name, he wouldn’t be given other properties, so he put it under my son’s name. I didn’t even think about this decisions, let alone participate in it.
My son’s uncle and his wife have also played a lot of tricks to interfere in my relationship with my son. I never quarreled with them and still treated them well. After many years, however, they started to change. His wife now agrees with Dafa’s principles, and she always understands it when I clarify the truth to her.
I always yielded when conflicts came up in my family, and I never put my son in a difficult position. It has now been more than ten years since he got married, and I have had no conflicts with my daughter-in-law. They are very happy!
There were seven practitioners in our Fa study group. One of the practitioners was Chen, who was going through a tribulation of sickness karma. We had been supporting her by studying the Fa and looking inside together. Half a year later, however, she was unable to make a breakthrough and passed away.
Ang, a fellow practitioner from another Fa-study group, said to me, “What you said to Chen was over exaggerated, and too much for her to take. It really hurt her and caused her to pass away.” She also pointed out some other things about me that she did not like. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. I thought, “You are a fellow practitioner! How can you talk like that? The weight of those words was just too heavy!”
Ang had never studied the Fa in our group and really knew nothing about our situation. This had to be the result of another practitioner in our group, Bing, who talked to Ang about it.
I really struggled with feeling wronged, and I kept reminding myself by calling out my own name and asking, “Do you still want to cultivate? If you do, look inside unconditionally and cultivate based on the Fa.” I knew that if I didn’t resolutely cultivate based on the Fa, only a little bit of human thinking would lead me to a dead end.
Master Li gave me wisdom as soon as my righteous thoughts arose. I remembered what Master said:
“Because you are a cultivator, your life path has been changed, and you have been given a new cultivation path; nothing on your path happens by chance.” (Teachings at the Conference in Los Angeles)
I knew I had to look inside, and my poor cultivation state must be the result of many things that should be corrected.
I realized that regardless of whether the accusations from fellow practitioners were false or not, I needed to improve my xinxing. I encountered this test on my cultivation path for a reason, and I needed to pass it. I should thank the two practitioners who were, in fact, helping me by providing me an opportunity to improve.
That was the first time I felt the beauty of elevating to a higher realm. For about three days, I was in a state where my mind was empty and quiet; it was as if I was separated from the human state completely. This experience was quite amazing but hard to put into words.
When I saw Bing again, it was as if nothing happened. To this day, I have always treated her with sincerity.
Tears well up as I write this, but not because I feel I was wronged. I just feel so grateful to Master for shaping me and helping me improve.
As part of the Zero-Out campaign in May 2021, the police began coming to my home to ask me to sign an agreement renouncing Dafa. They also kept calling my daughter to put pressure on her, telling her that if I refused to sign, there would be such and such consequences. My daughter was so overwhelmed that she cried and said, “I won’t force you, but can you tell me why you can’t just sign it? You know that it’s not true; it would only be a way to deal with the police.”
I thought this was a good opportunity to talk to her about cultivation, since she usually didn’t want to hear about it. I told her how our whole family benefited from Dafa and how I would have passed away long ago had I not cultivated. I asked her, “How could I do anything against my conscience?” Afterwards, she stopped asking me to sign their agreement. But she was still so worried about it that she stayed with me. She exclaimed, “I can’t let them take you away!”
I knew I also needed to look within to find what went wrong in my cultivation. I first picked up one of Master’s Fa lecture books and studied it with a calm mind, and I gradually realized my problem. I always had a fear of “being persecuted,” which caused me to slow down my pace of saving people. I sometimes even stopped completely.
Why wasn’t I able to get rid of this mindset? I then found that I also had problems with completely believing in Master and the Fa. Did I truly believe everything Master said? I urged myself to continue studying the Fa.
Master said:
“Indeed, in the Fa-rectification of the cosmos, all of the cosmos’s gods are watching attentively, and the multitude of Buddhas, Daos, and Gods are participating. Could a bunch of evil people still have their way at this time? [What is happening in the world] is but an instance of this wildly arrogant, evil party being utilized to test Dafa disciples and eliminate Dafa disciples’ attachments in the face of death, thus leading to their Consummation and meanwhile sifting out those who aren’t fit to be Dafa disciples. All it amounts to is just such a process.” (“Fa Teaching Given at the 2010 New York Fa Conference” Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. XI)
My spirits were suddenly lifted. That’s right! Master has the final say in everything! Then why can’t I just forget about the persecution?
As I studied this Fa lecture over and over, Master showed me many Fa principles. I felt a warm flow of compassionate power pouring out from deep in my heart. I tearfully said to myself, “Sentient beings are so pitiful! They are doing this for my cultivation. I must cultivate well. I can’t let them go to the abyss because of me.”
My thinking was very clear and simple. No matter which police officer came or what rank he was, I only asked myself one question, “What does Master want us to do?” The answer was, “Master wants us to save people!”
Three groups of officials took turns visiting me. One was from the neighborhood committee, one was from the street committee, and one was from the police station. I welcomed all of them warmly. After listening to them explain their intentions, I smiled and asked, “Do you really want to force me to be ungrateful for my blessings? Who’s asking you to do so? Isn’t this strange? In this way, everyone will become bad people, right? You are all young and have ambitions. You shouldn’t go down an unfathomable trap adorned with flowers and money.”
I told them about traditional Chinese values and stories, about how I handled conflicts and injustices after cultivating Falun Dafa, how Dafa has spread throughout the world, how the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) seized power, how the CCP has caused so much misfortune in society, and how practicing Dafa is protected by the Constitution. I took the time to really talk to every official who came to my home.
An officer from the first group asked me, “How do you know so much?” Someone in the second group said before leaving, “Talking to you this evening has really been worthwhile.” Someone in the third group said with concern, “Be careful and don’t talk about this casually to others.” Afterwards, none of them mentioned signing anything.
I have stumbled many times in my cultivation. But I am certain that I was only able to make it to this day because of Master’s compassionate protection. I have no way to repay him. I can only use the limited time left to do the three things well, diligently cultivate myself, and save sentient beings.
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