(Minghui.org) After I recently had a few sickness karma tribulations, I realized that they are a test of one’s xinxing—whether one actually believes in Master and Dafa and has firm righteous thoughts.
Master said, “If you still are not fundamentally resolute in the Fa, everything else is out of question.” (“For Whom do You Practice Cultivation?” Essentials for Further Advancement)
After I collected signatures on a petition for several days at the beginning of November 2021 I was exhausted and I wondered why. I remembered Master said, “My body would still sit there even with my head cut off.” (“Huge Exposure,” Essentials for Further Advancement) When a practitioner reaches such a state, he has really let go of life and death and has a rock-solid understanding of the Fa.
When I looked inward I found that I hadn’t let go of life and death and was still concerned about getting old or getting sick. I was still trapped in human thinking patterns and not thinking like a Dafa disciple.
Master said,
“As true practitioners, we should look at issues from a very high level instead of from the perspective of everyday people. Should you believe that you are ill, this may really cause you to become ill.” (Lecture Six, Zhuan Falun)
I asked myself why I was worried about feeling exhausted instead of taking it as a good thing to eliminate karma and expand my gong potency. Why couldn’t I think of myself as a Dafa disciple who treats all the things he or she encounters as good things?
Master said,
“A Dafa disciple... what's a Dafa disciple? He’s a being created by the most magnificent Fa, (enthusiastic applause) and he’s rock-solid and as indestructible as diamond.” (“Teaching the Fa at the 2003 Washington DC Fa Conference,” Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. IV)
Master’s Fa immediately enlightened me—I am a Dafa disciple, I am Master’s disciple! I am practicing to the top of the pyramid. As soon as I had this thought, my physical discomfort disappeared.
In early December 2021, my entire family had sickness karma. I didn’t feel anything at first. I reminded myself that I would be fine, but then my legs felt thick and swollen. The condition worsened, and my shoulder felt sore, and my eyes hurt and felt inflamed and tired.
I recalled what Master taught: “True Dafa disciples have higher energy and are able to destroy karma and germs ...” (“Stay Rational”)
I want to assimilate to the Fa and be Master’s true disciple! After I repeatedly said: “I want to assimilate to Dafa and destroy karma and germs,” the “illness” passed instantly. I knew that Master bore it for me because I had righteous thoughts. I knew I would be fine.
I felt exhausted, however. My mouth was dry, and I sweat from morning until night. I remembered Master said,
“The root cause of your illness has been removed, and what remains is only this bit of black qi that will come out on its own to let you suffer a little and bear a little hardship. It wouldn’t do for you to not bear even a little bit.” (Lecture Two, Zhuan Falun)
When I couldn’t sleep I kept reciting “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good,” until every cell in my body was filled with positive energy, resisting the negative things. Afterwards I sent righteous thoughts to dissolve all the evil beings and factors that were persecuting me. I repeatedly said: “I am a Dafa disciple, I only listen to Master, I don’t want any other arrangements.” I also sent out a firm thought to cut off all ties with the old forces and voided all contracts, if any, that I made with the old forces. While repeatedly saying this, I fell asleep.
When I woke up, I made truth-clarification calls to China. I also changed my notion that landline numbers have a better connection. I could not let human perceptions get in the way of people hearing the truth. As a result, I was able to reach the area’s national security chief, the secretary of the Political and Legal Affairs Committee, and the police station chief through their cell phones. Although the length of time they listened varied, at least they heard a practitioner’s voice and the message about Falun Dafa. For those who needed a follow-up call, I gave the numbers to a fellow practitioner. I was happy that he readily agreed to phone them. When we are focused on saving others, we are one body.
On December 21, 2021, I was able to go out and collect signatures again. When I got to the signature-collection site, I was excited and thrilled. I felt a sense of rebirth after an intense tribulation! It was a cold day and my legs felt weak, but I knew I would be fine because I was walking the path Master arranged—to give people a chance to state their stance by signing the petition.
My entire family recovered quickly, given Master’s compassionate protection. I looked inward for the cause: Why did I encounter such big interference?
First of all, I had a complaining mentality, and I hadn’t removed this attachment. When things don’t go well, I began to complain. Even though I sometimes didn’t say it directly, the unrighteous thoughts had already taken effect.
Another important reason was that I became complacent after I finished certain things. When I did the Falun Dafa exercises or wrote something that people thought was good, I was pleased and kept thinking about it. I was created by Dafa, and if I did something related to Dafa that made people praise me, wasn’t it due to Master’s mercy? Now that I think about it, my behavior was pathetic and ridiculous.
I kept sending righteous thoughts to remove these corrupt substances and anything going on that was not in line with Dafa. These things later became weaker, but they would occasionally surface again. I then sent out a thought to keep a clear and pure mind and drive out the interference. In addition, I listened to the Falun Dafa exercise music. As my main consciousness strengthened, these things became weaker and weaker.
During this sickness karma tribulation, I kept on reciting the Fa in the Fa recitation room of the global network platform. I knew that only the Fa could strengthen my righteous thoughts and only the Fa could bring me out of my sickness karma state.
One time before this I experienced complete assimilation to the Fa—I felt like a piece of sawdust that fell into a furnace—suddenly all my human thoughts were gone. I know that the righteous environment on the global calling platform helped me dissolve into the Fa, but the real improvement still depends on me. Only through regular Fa study, righteous thoughts generated from the Fa, digging out of the roots of interference, and letting go of my attachments can I walk the path of cultivation that Master arranged for me.