(Minghui.org) I am 65 years old and have practiced Falun Dafa since 1996. When I first obtained the Fa, I had a desire to memorize Zhuan Falun, the main text of the practice, but I gave up after several attempts. 

I felt it was too difficult to memorize, as simply reading the book was much easier. Although the thought of memorizing the book resurfaced from time to time over the years, I did not have the courage to follow through. 

Recently, many local practitioners began memorizing the Fa. A fellow practitioner encouraged me to do so as well, so I shared with her about my past experiences in this regard. 

She said, “You can do it if you want to. Master Li will be there to support you. Look, there are so many practitioners who not only memorize Zhuan Falun but also memorize other Dafa books. You may fall behind if you don’t do it.” 

I was a little ashamed, so I nodded and said I would give it a try. She replied, “You sound unmotivated. For such a wonderful Fa, you should memorize it.” 

She was right. We all practiced Dafa, so why couldn’t I do it while others could? 

I used “feeling it was difficult” as an excuse. I realized I should let go of this human notion. 

With Zhuan Falun in hand, I turned to face Master's portrait and said, “Dear Master, I will memorize this book word for word. Please help me complete the task.” 

I then felt a sense of relief afterwards. The road block was gone deep down to the microcosm of my body, and I was now determined more than ever to memorize the Fa. 

At the beginning, I memorized one sentence at a time. Then I began memorizing paragraph by paragraph. 

It took me great effort and a long time to memorize the whole book the first time. When I started memorizing Zhuan Falun the second time, I realized that I had nearly forgotten everything I memorized previously. 

However, I wasn't discouraged. I had only one thought: to memorize Zhuan Falun. 

I once again began memorizing sentence by sentence, then paragraph by paragraph. It took me several months to memorize and recite the whole book the second time. 

I was able to directly memorize the Fa paragraph by paragraph when I did it the third time. I discovered that I could memorize better and faster when I was calm. 

Memorizing the Fa for the fourth time, I felt that I could see the light at the end of tunnel and there was no resistance. I could almost recite each paragraph after reading it once or twice. 

The more I memorized, the faster I could memorize the Fa. I knew Master was there to support me. 

I was able to memorize several paragraphs at once and then recite the Fa by sections. Now, I can recite the Fa by chapters in a group with other fellow practitioners. 

I don’t pursue speed, but try to slow down my speech rate, and recite the Fa with sincerity and heart, so that every word of the Fa can appear in my mind. I then realized that my xinxing has also unconsciously assimilated with Dafa's principles. 

Although I had cultivated Dafa for more than 20 years, I still had resentment towards my mother-in-law, who is also a practitioner. I didn’t feel she was a true Dafa cultivator because her xinxing was low. 

When I shared my conflicts with her to other practitioners, they said that each practitioner had their own cultivation path, and I should let go of those human notions. 

My understanding back then was that I was the cultivator but she wasn’t, and that I should treat her as an ordinary person. With such a mentality, it didn’t take too long for those conflicts to return, which only made me suffer. 

While I recited Master’s teachings, a thought came to me: “You have been looking outside of yourself for years, never looking at your own problems.” 

I was shocked. Indeed, I had been finding faults with my mother-in-law for over 20 years, but I never focused on my own problems. I never reflected on myself when looking at her behavior.  

It reminded me that I saw the image of an antique mirror during meditation a few days ago. It was Master who used this image to remind me to reflect on my own faults. 

Upon enlightening to this, the substance that caused my resentment towards my mother-in-law was gone. From that moment, my perspective towards her had completely changed. 

In fact, my mother-in-law has been helping me evolve, paving the way for my cultivation over the years by helping me let go of human attachments. 

I discovered my attachments to sentimentality for my husband, jealousy, attachment to personal interests, comparing myself with others, looking down on or complaining about others, fear of losing face, and seeking personal comfort. 

After realizing my shortcomings and how my mother in law has been helping me all these years, I began thinking only good things about her. 

She firmly believes in the Fa and is not afraid of enduring hardship. She is in her 80s and goes out to clarify the truth and save people every day. 

She has limited education, but she manages to have people write down their names when they declare their desire to quit the Chinese Communist Party and its associated organizations. 

She has also overcome severe illness with righteous thoughts three times when she vomited a lot of blood. I now feel that she is an amazing person.

I realized that I should not only memorize Zhuan Falun, but also become a true cultivator with righteous thoughts and actions. I should cultivate diligently until I reach the state of a great enlightened being in the new universe.