(Minghui.org) Falun Dafa was introduced in my hometown in 1998. Many elderly villagers, including my grandmother, regained their health after they started to cultivate. My father’s hay fever also disappeared soon after he began practicing. I was 14 years old that year, and the seeds of Dafa were planted in me.
Jiang Zemin, former head of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), began to persecute Falun Dafa in July 1999. I knew the CCP was spreading lies about the practice, but I did not cultivate diligently. It was only after the pandemic began in 2020 and I had some health issues that I begin to cultivate seriously. All my issues were gone in 20 days.
I cannot adequately express my gratitude to Master Li Hongzhi.
I liked to watch movies since I was young. I realized that many elements in them were not good, such as sex scenes and violence, so I decided to stop.
Because my heart was not clean, I always felt drowsy when I sent forth righteous thoughts. I became extremely sleepy when the set times to send righteous thoughts got closer. I was always in a daze and ended up thinking that I might as well not do it. So I stopped sending righteous thoughts for a few days. I then started watching one movie after another and slacked off in my Fa study. I was in a dangerous situation but wasn’t aware of it.
Eight people including police officers and personnel from the neighborhood committee came to my home at 7 a.m. They took me to the police station and illegally detained me. Relying on my faith in Master and the Fa, I was released 15 days later.
At the time of my arrest, I clearly sensed it was my attachment to movies that enabled the old forces to take advantage of my loopholes. My attachment was too strong, and I did not send righteous thoughts.
Cultivation is serious, and a Dafa practitioner’s path is narrow. We need to do well and not let the old forces exploit any loopholes. I did not do well and was embarrassed. I hope fellow practitioners will take my example as a lesson.
I kept reciting Master Li’s poem in the police station,
“ ... Disciples’ righteous thoughts are strongMaster has the power to turn the tide”(“Master-Disciple Grace,” Hong Yin II)
Sticking to Master’s teaching that one must be kind, I always smiled when I told the officers the facts about Dafa. When one officer accused me of promoting a cult, I looked into his eyes and said, “You’re slandering me.” He looked at me and stopped saying those things.
A young policewoman belligerently questioned me, but I did not answer. She then said, “Aren’t you Falun Dafa practitioners supposed to be kind and tolerant?”
I replied, “You should not abuse our kindness and tolerance that way.” She didn’t respond and then accused me of being in a cult. I responded, “My belief wasn’t listed in the 14 cults designated by the Ministry of Public Security. Please show me which law I have violated.” Again, there was no response.
The police wanted to take my picture and ordered me to sign and fingerprint some documents. I refused to do anything, because I wanted to prevent them from committing crimes against Dafa.
Throughout the whole time, I told myself that everything in the human world is a delusion, and one can see the truth only when one lets go of their attachments. I thought: “Although I wasn’t good at clarifying the truth, I could act in accordance with the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance to let them see what a practitioner is like.”
I chatted with them candidly, telling them how wonderful Dafa is, and they gradually stopped being hostile and changed their tone completely. A few officers even told me I was a nice person.
More often than not, I don’t do well in sending righteous thoughts. I was not clear-minded and confused.
I studied one lecture of Zhuan Falun every day, then read Master’s other lectures and memorized two pages of Zhuan Falun. But I was interfered with earlier this year. I started falling asleep as soon as I began to study the Fa and slept for two to three hours. I was still sleepy when I tried to study the Fa after I woke up.
As a result, I couldn’t finish a lecture in a day. Watching Master’s video lectures also made me sleepy. I knew it was due to interference. I looked inward, tried to learn from fellow practitioners’ experiences, and tried many other ways, but all to no avail.
My incorrect state lasted until I read the article “What Am I Doing That Is Not in Line with the Fa?” on Minghui.org in March. I had one thought when I sent righteous thoughts that day: “I am a Dafa disciple. Any life that interferes with me in sending righteous thoughts is interfering with my cultivation and not helping Master rectify the Fa and save people. Can you shoulder such a huge crime?”
I became energized afterward and was clear-minded when sending righteous thoughts. I studied three lectures in Zhuan Falun that day. I realized that the thought I sent out cleared away all the unrighteous elements interfering with me. When I looked inward before, I tried to enlighten from the standpoint of my individual needs and, as a result, I could not break through no matter what I did.
I will follow Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance and do the three things well to follow Master home. Please point it out if my understanding is incorrect.