(Minghui.org) Greetings revered Master! Greetings fellow practitioners!
I’m 62 years old, and I started practicing Falun Dafa in 1997. In the past 20-plus years of cultivation, I had tests and tribulations, and I’ve repeatedly stumbled. Thanks to Master’s and practitioners’ help, I’ve kept up with the progress of Fa rectification.
One morning in July 2024, when I opened the door of my business I noticed everyone’s face looked dark brown. When I looked at the board it was dark blue. It was actually light blue. I was frightened.
Four years ago my left eye saw things this way—everything looked dark and blurry. I couldn’t read any Chinese characters using my left eye. I could still see with my right eye, so I didn’t worry too much about my eyesight.
But this time I couldn’t see things clearly with my right eye. The light in my home was dim, and I couldn’t see what was inside the refrigerator. The beans I cooked looked gray, not green, and I couldn’t see whether there were any bugs in them.
I had difficulty seeing inside my store. A customer wanted to buy a pair of safety shoes, but I only found one shoe and not the other. The man said he would return and pick up the shoes before we closed for the day. I had to fumble around each shelf and look for the other shoe. I was determined to find it. I didn’t get anxious and maintained my xinxing. I realized this happened to temper my determination to cultivate. I fumbled around for the other shoe all afternoon and finally found it behind a box underneath the shelf.
My husband works in another city. When he came home he was frightened when I told him the eyesight in my right eye had also deteriorated. He asked if I wanted to have it checked in the hospital. I thought I should follow what Master said about cultivating oneself during tribulations, so I refused to go. But, I wondered what I should do if the sight in my right eye didn’t get better.
I told the other practitioners and asked them to send forth righteous thoughts for me. They helped me before by sending righteous thoughts when I had tribulations. I relied on them and felt assured. They asked me to look within. The night before I had practiced the meditation exercise at a practitioner’s home. He meditated for 2 hours. After I meditated for 40 minutes my legs felt hot and painful. I stopped meditating and lay down on the sofa for several minutes—then I realized I didn’t do the right thing. He was meditating but I laid down. I was not respectful to Master and the Fa, so I got up.
I looked within further. My son married two years ago. He worked in another city and came back home several days ago. He said he could earn 100,000 yuan a year, but came home empty-handed each time, and never brought any gifts. When I scolded him for not buying a gift for his grandfather, he was angry and refused to eat. I said, “Today is Father’s Day, and it is my responsibility to remind you. Won’t you buy a gift for your father-in-law? People will look down on us if you don’t buy him a gift. If you don’t have money, I have.” As a result the next day he asked me for 10,000 yuan and said he needed money for his business.
I believed that he indeed needed money, so I gave it to him. But I still had debts from his wedding including the 20,000 yuan I borrowed from a practitioner.
I looked inward. Did I spoil my son too much, and he made karma as a result? Was I too attached to him? I was afraid that he’d suffer from this or that—anyway, I had a lot of attachments.
When I sent righteous thoughts that evening, my fear and thought karma surfaced. One practitioner said that I’d damage Falun Dafa’s reputation if my eyesight didn’t improve. She suggested that I have surgery. I could still practice but I wouldn’t cause any damage to Dafa. Two local practitioners underwent surgery. I kept thinking of them and I couldn’t calm down.
A practitioner came to see me the next day and sent forth righteous thoughts for me. She said that my symptom was an illusion. I thanked her for her selfless help. I kept reminding myself that it was an illusion. Still, the thought of those two practitioners who had surgery constantly flashed through my mind. My husband asked me to go to the hospital for a checkup; I refused, but I couldn’t eliminate my fear.
He said I didn’t cook properly for him recently, so he was thinking of moving out. He was angry and lay down in bed. I reminded myself that I must maintain my xinxing. I knew that I must let go of my attachment to emotion. I didn’t ask my children to come over to help cook the dishes on my birthday. I prepared all six dishes myself.
One day when I was in the sitting room, my mind was filled with all kinds of negative thoughts. I thought: Do I totally believe in Master? I was not enlightened and worried that my right eye would have as poor eyesight as my left eye. I remembered the poem, “True Character Revealed” from The Essentials of Diligent Progress II:
“Faced with tests, a person’s true character is revealedMay you achieve Consummation – Buddha, Dao, or God”
Yes, I believe in Master 100%.
I calmed down and decided not to go to the hospital. My mind was now filled with the Fa’s principles. My righteous thoughts were reinforced even though my eyesight hadn’t improved.
One day while I was sitting in the sitting room, I thought to myself that my eyes were composed of particles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance and wouldn’t become bad. I sent forth righteous thoughts and then I recited the Fa.
The sun bothered my eyes when I drove a practitioner home on my scooter, so I bought a pair of sunglasses and wore them for five days. As a result, I could see things normally. Afterward, my eyesight gradually improved. Thank you Master!
I am writing this article to validate the Fa. I hope that my story will help those practitioners who have similar experiences and overcome the tribulation.