(Minghui.org) I’m a young Falun Dafa practitioner and I was born in the 1990s. When I was 14, I became addicted to online games and often skipped school and went to the Internet cafe. When my family was asleep, I went to the Internet cafe and stayed up all night playing games online. After I started practicing Falun Dafa, I quit playing games.
However, as I grew up, I became obsessed with watching videos on my smartphone. I also liked Korean comics, Japanese cartoons, novels about the Chinese people in ancient times and the 1980s, and horror films.
The theme of most Korean comics yearn for a beautiful life and a loving family. They helped me feel relaxed and I wanted a better life. Japanese cartoons are full of violence and pornography. When I watched them, my dimensional field was filled with low-level spirits and the evil beings behind them.
On the other hand, the novels about Chinese people in the 1980s were full of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) culture which is filled with struggle and hatred. The main character usually ruthlessly avenged himself on those who hurt him, including his parents and children. Traditional kindness, tolerance, and humility are nowhere to be found. While watching these videos, the degenerated elements of Party culture they contained filled my mind.
I was also addicted to horror movies. While I was asleep one night, I saw a being with a Satan-like image in my dimensional field. I was terrified and stopped watching horror movies.
I realized that watching these things caused great harm to my body and mind. When I read the Dafa books and recited the Fa, thoughts of resentment, jealousy, and lust suddenly appeared in my mind. When I browsed on my cellphone my thoughts became foggy; I was short of breath and I felt nauseated. It felt like the phone sucked my energy away.
Sometimes, a voice would say to me, “It’s nothing; you’ve done the three things; you worked hard all day; you deserve a break.” Then I watched these bad things on my phone for hours. When I sent righteous thoughts and studied the Fa, my mind was no longer calm. When I was absorbed in looking at my phone, I skipped sending righteous thoughts. Afterward, I felt very regretful and blamed myself for my lapse. I knew I shouldn’t be like this, but I couldn’t help it. I felt regret and was depressed for a long time and couldn’t stop feeling sad.
A practitioner told me that he had a celestial vision in which he saw karma, Party culture, and other negative elements entered a Falun Dafa practitioner’s dimensional field when he was attached to his phone. Master endures some of our karma, and my actions increased his suffering. I felt bad. How much additional suffering did Master have to bear for me because I slacked off in my cultivation?
I recently read articles about other Falun Dafa practitioners putting down their phones, which deeply touched me. I was determined to eliminate my attachment to my cellphone and watching short videos.
When I promoted Shen Yun last year I didn’t look at my phone for a few months, and I was in a good cultivation state. However, after Shen Yun left Japan, I picked up my phone again.
I used to think that if I did the three things well, I could look at my phone while I ate or used the restroom, and that I was taking a break. My complacency gave the old forces a chance to take advantage of my omission.
Master said,
“Smoking is also an attachment. Some people say that smoking can refresh them, but I call it self-deception and deceiving others. When feeling tired from work or from writing something, some people like to take a break by smoking a cigarette. They think that they feel refreshed after smoking a cigarette. Actually, it’s not like that. It is because they took a break. Human thinking can create a type of false impression, and can bring about this kind of illusion. Later, then, it can indeed become a kind of notion, forming a misconception, and you feel that smoking seems to lift the spirits. It cannot do that at all, and neither can it have this effect. Smoking does not do the human body any good. If a person smokes for a long period of time, when a doctor does an autopsy on the body they will find that the trachea and lungs are all black.” (Lecture Seven, Zhuan Falun)
I realized that my attachment to the phone was the same as being addicted to smoking. Not only does it not relax my body and mind, but it pollutes my body. When I can really let it go, I can see the beauty and wonder that Dafa brings to my life.
After I had this thought, I put my phone down and I was able to easily let it go. I know that Master helped me and removed that addictive substance.
Now that I no longer watch videos on my phone, every day is fulfilling. I can do the exercises every morning, I have time to care for my family, and the house is cleaner. In the past, when I quarreled with my husband, I focused on trivial matters and had a competitive mentality.
My husband and I rarely argue now, and I don’t dwell on things. I seldom think about the conflicts and injustices that used to occupy my mind. If I get off work early, I clean the house and cook dinner. Setting aside the phone enabled me to look at myself rationally and take my cultivation seriously. Dafa has changed me.
I also noticed that many obsessive thoughts, including jealousy, competitiveness, loneliness, depression, and other emotions, significantly decreased. My willpower is stronger, and my mind is clear.
When I interacted with others, sometimes I had many thoughts whirling in my mind. One day, I wondered how I could have a pure mind. A sentence came to mind: “Assimilating to Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance.” I felt my body resonate with that thought. Assimilating to Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance is the way to being myself.
I felt Master’s boundless compassion while reading His latest articles: “How Humankind Came To Be,” “Why Save Sentient Beings,” and “Why This World Is a Realm of Unknowing.” My narrow-mindedness still causes me to have negative and pessimistic thoughts from time to time. Master’s compassion for living beings is immeasurable.
I realize that when we are determined to truly practice Falun Dafa and let go of our attachments, Master will give us everything.
Giving up the games and other distractions on the phone is not just about giving up an addiction; more importantly, it’s about having the determination to cultivate. This determination is precious and shines like gold. When Master saw this, he helped me improve.
Although I still have many attachments that I haven’t been able to completely let go of, I truly feel that most of my human attachments disappeared after I stopped using my phone for entertainment.
Even though I stumbled along the way during the years I practiced Falun Dafa, Master continually helped me. During twenty years of cultivation, Master has, time and again, endured a lot for me, his unworthy disciple.
I had many wishes in the past: I wished I could exercise in the morning, hand-copy Zhuan Falun, and have more courage to tell the truth to the Chinese people around me. I am working hard to put these wishes into practice, hoping that all beings will be saved!
This is my personal understanding at this time; please kindly point out anything not in line with the Fa.