(Minghui.org) I began cultivating in Falun Dafa four years ago. Through Dafa (Great Law) I learned how to be a genuine human being and a good person. Master Li (the founder of Falun Dafa) and his teachings helped me to feel genuine love and happiness, and I have thus gained a deeper understanding of words like love and gratitude.
After cultivating in Dafa, my mind and body underwent significant changes. The migraines, tachycardia, and diseases were all cured without any treatment. I am full of energy every day, and my body feels light. I understand the meaning of life, the karmic relationships among one another, and the heavenly law that good is rewarded, and evil is punished.
By measuring myself with the principles of Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance, I realized that I was previously extremely selfish, arrogant, and egoistic. I often used my distorted thoughts to judge others. I was full of complaints and only cared about receiving, not giving. This was my attitude when dealing with others. Hence, my family relationships were in chaos. Back then, I never felt love or happiness. After cultivating in Dafa, Master gave me various hints that melted my cold and insensitive heart.
Through cultivating, my spiritual realm and moral standards have elevated. Master Li cleansed me inside and out and changed me from someone infested with karma and selfishness, into a healthy and happy person who always considers others first.
I have also gone through tribulations and tests, some of which were fierce, but with Master’s protection, they all turned out to be opportunities for me to elevate my xinxing and increase the capacity of my mind.
My understanding of love used to be narrow and biased. My friends received their fathers’ approval and praise, which helped them gain the courage to break through difficulties throughout their lives. However, I recall my father raising me while yelling and scolding, and I grew up amidst his disapproval. Facing his nagging and criticising, I felt defiant and often argued back, loudly resisting his negativity.
One day, my father told me that his friend was selling shoes for about 300 yuan, which could cure hypertension, and he was planning to buy a pair. I told him that they might be fake. However, my comment outraged him, and his face turned red from his neck up. He yelled, “What do you know? You don’t want me to get better. You just want me to die!”
Feeling strongly wronged, I almost lost my temper, but I immediately remembered that I was cultivating in Dafa, so I held my anger in and said nothing. After a while, I sat down with my father and said, “I’m sorry about what I said. I made that random remark about your friend’s shoes without even knowing anything about them. Nowadays, there are a lot of fake products, so I was afraid that you’d be cheated. If you really like the shoes, even if they can’t cure high blood pressure, I’ll buy a pair for you.” He was delighted to hear that.
I was surprised by how calm I remained, and that I wasn’t disturbed by his emotion, nor did I argue with him.
From the perspective of Dafa cultivation, I realized that his fury helped me transform my karma. Despite his misunderstanding my intention, I was able to see his perspective and forgive him. From then on, I often brought his favorite foods when I visited him. I also cared more about his life and health, and our conversations were always cheerful.
My husband, who was unhappy with me in many respects for a long time, had an extramarital relationship when we were living apart. When I first learned about his affair, I remembered Master’s teachings and remained relatively calm. He eventually cut off contact with that person and returned home.
During this time, I felt I had been wronged and treated unfairly. I was resentful and even wanted to take revenge. However, when these bad thoughts arose, I knew they came from my demonic side, and I was able to restrain them. My mind eventually returned to a peaceful state.
Because my brain was filled with deformed modern notions and the evil Chinese Communist Party (CCP) culture, I was competitive and full of complaints. I looked within to search for what I had done wrong. Had I declined with the modern moral standards and lost the traditional views of women? Had I been disrespectful to my husband? Had I not been gentle, virtuous, and considerate as a wife?
Before we were married, my husband and I were good friends, and we could talk about anything. In this corrupted society, it was not completely his fault that he had an extramarital relationship. I could truly feel his difficulties—it was not easy for him to be far away from home by himself. I had not helped my husband, who has such a strong karmic relationship with me, to fully understand the truth and be able to tell the difference between good and evil. When I finally realized that I was partially responsible for his mistake, tears streamed down my cheeks, knowing that I had planted the seeds, and that I was now tasting the bitterness.
From then on, I began to genuinely care for him and be more understanding. He could feel that I had changed from being a person who was unreasonable, mentally exhausted, and full of negativity, to someone who was able to deal with things calmly and treat him with sincerity and respect.
I felt ashamed that it took me that long to finally understand the essence of love and gratitude, because my mind had been distorted by the CCP’s deformed notions of arrogance, fighting, hatred, immoderation, being dominant, and lacking kindness for others.
Although life can create layers of difficulties, and often presents trials that can be exhausting or make us feel desperate, we should not blame others or complain about anything. Instead, we should look within ourselves. We will go to the opposite side if we use the deformed notions or our attachments to fight against what happens in life. Only by repaying evil with kindness and being grateful for life can we better appreciate the meaning of life. I must always follow Master’s teachings to guide me to truly love my family and fellow practitioners.
I feel ashamed to have enlightened so late, but I am now filled with immense happiness, and am grateful for the honor of being a Dafa disciple. Returning to my original true self is my deepest wish, and I believe everyone who has come to this world feels the same.
I am grateful to our great and benevolent Master for giving Falun Dafa to mankind. I am grateful for Master’s merciful salvation. I will use the wisdom gained through Dafa cultivation to help others, demonstrate my happiness and best qualities to inspire everyone around me, and manifest the extraordinary power of Dafa and the greatness of our Master.