(Minghui.org) I read the Minghui website for 17 years. I had no problem accessing it until November 20, 2023. I updated my Firefox browser to the latest version, but it didn’t help. It couldn’t access Minghui.org for 40 days.
I tried for more than an hour every day. I felt anxious and lost at first. I tried but failed to access Minghui at the regular time I usually read the website every evening. I felt frustrated and sad, and that I’d lost a beacon on my cultivation journey.
I slowly learned to let go. Most practitioners in China can’t access Minghui after the persecution was launched in 1999. I didn’t feel lonely at that time. I studied the Fa every day and always felt Master was with me.
Ever since I started reading Minghui in 2006, I’ve been excited to read Master’s new lectures as soon as they were published. I’ve also been able to submit the names of people who quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) organizations, submit my experience sharing articles, send my greetings to Master on holidays, and watch videos of Falun Dafa practitioners’ parades overseas. All of these gave me tremendous encouragement and motivation. I treasure this precious communication platform for our cultivation during the Fa rectification period.
I gradually became distracted as overseas practitioners created their own channels on social media and by the increasingly dazzling news on the Dongtaiwang website (to get around the CCP’s information censorship). I used to spend a few minutes browsing the news, but eventually I spent hours, way longer than the time I spent reading Minghui.
After each lengthy browse, I always warned myself not to spend so much time reading the news. I even changed the default landing page on my browser to the Minghui website. However, I couldn’t help visiting Dongtaiwang. I read topics ordinary people are interested in, from 6 p.m. until midnight. Sometimes, I continued to read after sending righteous thoughts at midnight. I read until 3 a.m., but I only spent less than 20 minutes on Minghui.
My attachment to ordinary people’s news went on for a long time. The temptation gradually ate away my righteous thoughts and left a loophole for the old forces to take advantage. I couldn’t concentrate when I read the Fa. I didn’t feel as powerful as before when I sent righteous thoughts, because I was anxious to finish, as if I had something else to do. As soon as I finished dinner, I sat down in front of my computer and browsed Dongtaiwang after downloading the Minghui articles of the day. I knew it wasn’t right, but I couldn’t stop.
This sudden disruption forced me to calm down and reflect on myself. I realized that the process of my cultivation is the process of eliminating my attachments, and that Master and Falun Dafa are my guidance for cultivation. The only way to head toward a bright future is to stand firm with my belief.
I was certain that I would be able to access Minghui again after I corrected myself and eliminated my attachments. I needed to use this period of time to cultivate myself well, catch up on my Fa study, and assimilate to the Fa.
It’s December and I wish to send my New Year greeting card to Master. I tried every day despite repeated failures. On December 28, I finally accessed Minghui using an old version of Firefox. I sent my greeting card and downloaded the Minghui articles from the past 40 days. To my happiness, I received a link to download the movie Once We Were Divine.
I know that Master has always been with me and takes care of me. After I made up my mind to eliminate my attachment and strengthen my righteous thoughts, Master removed the obstacle and gave me the resources for my cultivation during the Fa rectification period. Thank you, Master!
The above is my limited understanding. Please feel free to point out anything that is not on the Fa.