(Minghui.org) I began practicing Falun Dafa in May 1996, and I’m now 73 years old. During the 29 years I’ve practiced, our compassionate Master looked after me and strengthened me when I met with hardships and tests.
When I compare myself with practitioners who’ve cultivated well, I know I’m far behind. I decided to write about my experiences because I just want to tell other practitioners to not be afraid when they face persecution. Just do as Master asked—counter the persecution and don’t cooperate with the old forces’ arrangements.
(Continued from Part 1)
One day another practitioner and I were putting up posters to clarify the truth about the persecution to people. We came across a group of plainclothes policemen. We didn’t know they were police so we continued putting up posters. We were arrested. The officers tried to drag me into the police car. I refused to get in. Instead I sat down and meditated. The practitioner asked me not to do that. She meant that it didn’t look good.
I wasn’t concerned that people were watching me because I wasn’t doing anything bad. I didn’t cooperate with the policemen in the police station or at the detention center. The practitioner said I looked like a hero (she meant this as a criticism). I said, “I am a hero from the perspective of everyday people. From the Fa’s perspective, I haven’t cooperated with the policemen’s demands. I am in the Fa. I haven’t committed any crimes. Why should I cooperate with them? What I’m doing is called non-cooperation.”
This practitioner was later transferred to another room. A few days later she was assigned to do forced labor—packing chopsticks. Other people told me she was doing a good job. When I saw her, she was indeed packing chopsticks. I wondered what I should do. She was sent to another area, so I didn’t have anyone to discuss with if I came across anything. I felt a bit lonely but I had to rely on myself. Several days later I was ordered to pack chopsticks. They praised me doing a good job in packing chopsticks. Actually I was very slow. They just wanted me to work.
I realized I couldn’t send forth righteous thoughts if I continued working there. I told them that I couldn’t work there because I didn’t feel well and I had to go back to the cell. I knew that as a practitioner, the only things I should do is send forth righteous thoughts, memorize the Fa, and clarify the truth about the persecution.
They interrogated me a few days later and put me in an iron chair. I thought that I’m a Falun Dafa practitioner and I shouldn’t sit there. I squeezed out through the gap. The chair was designed so no one could get out of it. But I was able to miraculously squeeze out. They laughed when they saw this, and didn’t put me back in it. When they scolded me I clarified the truth to them. I later realized I should shout, “Falun Dafa is good” on the way back to the cell. After I arrived at the cell on the second floor, I shouted “Falun Dafa is good” to the downstairs through the window. I paused for a while when I felt tired and then I continued shouting. People on the ground floor and the second floor all heard me. No one stopped me.
After I was released I clarified the truth to a man who said he knew me. I asked where we met. He said, “Do you remember you shouted Falun Dafa is good in the detention center?”
One night at the detention center, the officers tried to take me to have a health check. I refused to cooperate, and said I didn’t have any illnesses. I knew Master was trying to help me, and my every thought must be in the Fa. I should not have any human thoughts. My every thought must be on assisting Master to rectify the Fa and save people. My every thought must be in line with the Fa.
They tried to coerce me to have a physical examination. I refused to go. If my thought was not in line with the Fa and I had the thought that they might release me, this thought would bring me trouble. The female guard dragged me. I resisted her. She dragged me several times and said, “Auntie, let’s go. We’ll give you a physical check-up.” I said, “I don’t have any illnesses, so there’s no need. I practice Falun Dafa and I’m in good health. I don’t need to have a check. I don’t want to bother you.”
The female guard brought two guards and they forcibly dragged me away. I resisted but failed. The doctor checked me and found everything was normal. The guard said, “Look at her. Everything is normal. She’s healthier than us.” On the way back, the guard received a call and was told to go to Tangshan the next day. I realized that I would be sent to the Tangshan Forced Labor Camp the next day. I sent forth righteous thoughts all night.
I was the primary financial support at home at that time. I felt like that my family would collapse if I wasn’t there. I felt sad when I thought of my two children and my husband who was in poor health. I couldn’t calm down when I thought of them. One inmate who had a good relationship with the guard tried to talk into allowing her to be released early. When I talked to the guard she refused to talk to me. I realized that I shouldn’t follow an everyday person’s example. Master is in charge. I must send forth righteous thoughts more and walk my cultivation path righteously, and then Master can help me. If I didn’t walk my path well, I would be in trouble. I must let go of my human heart.
I didn’t sleep at all that night. If I didn’t have a family I wouldn’t have any concerns. Because I couldn’t stop worrying about my family, I couldn’t relax. They sent me to Tangshan the next day. I thought of my mother. She constantly worried about this person and that person while she was alive. After she died, everyone lived well. I reminded myself that I shouldn’t worry about this one and that one because it would affect my ability to carry out my responsibilities as a practitioner—everyone has their own lives. I reinforced my righteous thoughts. Any of my family members could leave and the rest would continue to live well. It was absolutely impossible that I give up Falun Dafa. No one could do anything to me.
I asked Master to strengthen me, and said, “Master, please strengthen me. I will follow you until completion. I will only go forward, not backward. I will definitely help Master rectify the Fa and save sentient beings and will never do the things that are disrespectful to Master. I will be a qualified Falun Dafa practitioner and behave according to the Fa principles, so Master won’t have to worry about me. Master, please strengthen me. I will definitely do well and I am able to do well so Master has fewer worries and is happy.” I was finally able to let go of my attachment to my family.
In the car, the female guard said, “Auntie, please tell us about Falun Dafa. I like to listen to you.” I didn’t say anything. I sent forth righteous thoughts all day. No one could move me. I was determined to follow Master’s arrangement.
Before I left the detention center, one inmate said, “Please quickly say that you give up Falun Dafa. Just say it. It doesn’t matter. If you are sent to Tangshan, they will beat you until you pass out. If you don’t eat, they’ll force feed you and torture you until you give up. You’ll be sent back to the detention center within three days.” They threatened me. But I was determined, “I have no fear. I’m a Falun Dafa practitioner. The evil cannot touch me.” I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the interference.
I wore a winter coat when I was arrested. It was spring when I arrived at Tangshan. I was too warm and felt uncomfortable. They tried to drag me out of the car. I refused to cooperate. They dragged me to a marble slab which was in the shade. It was cold there, so I felt better. They wanted me to have a physical examination. I refused to stand up. I didn’t do what they told me to do. When they later checked me they found I had many illnesses. The guard said, “How come you didn’t have any illness yesterday and today you have so many illnesses?” I had a heart problem and other problems, so the forced labor camp didn’t accept me. I was sent back to the detention center. I stayed in the police car and refused to get out. My family members and practitioners came to pick me up, and I went home.
Falun Dafa practitioners should have righteous thoughts and righteous actions. We should pass the test of life and death and not cooperate with the evil’s demands, orders or instructions. If we can do that, Master can help us. How can he help us if we cooperate with the evil?
When I was brought back from Tangshan the police officer issued a release on bail pending trial form. I tore it up and didn’t acknowledge it. They said if I was arrested again, I would be sent directly to Shijiazhuang Prison. After I was released I stayed home and studied the Fa for 7 days. Then I went out to clarify the truth to people with other practitioners.
We were reported to the police again. The police took away the other practitioner but didn’t take me. When I came home, my husband asked what was going on. I asked what he meant. He said that the police rang him. Both of us laughed.
Some practitioners felt the pressure after they were released on bail pending trial. I said, “Don’t be afraid. They’re using it to threaten you. We need to maintain righteous thoughts and do what we should do. Master has the final say. If we have righteous thoughts and let go of our attachments, Master can help us. The evil is nothing. The police didn’t touch me and didn’t come to see me. There’s nothing to worry about. Master has the final say on everything. We only believe in Master.”
Two years ago, I went out to clarify the truth with a young practitioner during the Chinese New Year. I went over to clarify the truth to a driver and told him, “Young man, I’m giving you a USB which contains information on how to keep safe.” “Ah, you’re a Falun Dafa practitioner,” he said and grabbed me. I said, “Why don’t you listen to the good news? Why did you grab me?” He refused to listen no matter how I clarified the truth to him. He started to make phone call to report me.
It seemed the police didn’t want to come out during the Chinese New Year. He waited for over half an hour. He felt a bit regretful and offered to call a taxi for me. I said, “You don’t need to call a taxi. Please let me go. I can go home myself.” I continued, “You’re doing a bad thing if you report me. You see there are so many calamities now. I clarify the truth to you to help keep you safe.” He didn’t listen and said, “You still dare say that. You dare to act against the Chinese Communist Party (CCP)…..” He said he was in the military. I said, “You are in the military and you’re unable to hear the truth. Please listen to the truth and understand what I have said.” No matter what I said he refused to release me.
The police car came. I went to the police with the USB in my hand. I said, “Sorry for causing you trouble during the Chinese New Year. Since you are here, I would like to tell you something good. The CCP persecutes us and orders you to commit crimes against Falun Dafa. This USB can save you. Please take it home and watch it.” The policeman in charge accepted it. He also agreed to withdraw from the CCP. The other policemen didn’t listen to me initially. I continued clarifying the truth to them. They finally both agreed to quit the CCP.
The young man in the military didn’t leave and listened to our conversation. I said to him, “Young man, I don’t hate you even though you reported me. I realize you don’t know the truth. I hope you will stay safe. If other practitioners clarify the truth to you in the future, please withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations and remember Falun Dafa is good so that you’ll stay safe when disasters come. Falun Dafa is the Buddha law.” The police asked the young man to leave, and then let me go home. I said, “I feel happy for you because you’ve been saved. I didn’t go out in vain today.” I left. When I turned around, I saw their car was following me. I waved to them and said good-bye. After a while, I turned back and saw they were still following me. I felt something was wrong.
I went back to them and said, “Young men, I helped you quit the CCP. Please watch the stories in the USB. You will indeed be saved. You won’t be eliminated when the big catastrophe comes. If you continue following me, you still don’t understand the truth. If you do something against me, you’ll be committing big crimes. I’m helping my Master save people. If you interfere, are you able to bear the consequences? Please don’t follow me. I just want you to be safe and happy.” They stopped following me.
When I talk to people, I call them big brother, younger brother or younger sister etc. and I tell them I have good news to share with them. Then I clarify the truth to them. Three times the police didn’t touch me. I was arrested and detained nine times. Because I maintained righteous thoughts, I was released. I clarified the truth to the police more than 30 times. I can’t remember how many times I was in difficult situations in the past 20 years, but because I acted according to the Fa Master protected me.
I went out to clarify the truth and didn’t come home until 10 p.m. I had stomach pain after I arrived home. I went to the toilet and found I was bleeding. I wondered if I was too tired. I realized this wasn’t the reason because I’m a practitioner so I shouldn’t feel tired. By midnight I was bleeding heavily. I was in so much pain it felt as if I was giving birth. I couldn’t lie down and I couldn’t sleep. I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the interference that prevented me from saving sentient beings. I was able to sit up for a while at 4 and 5 a.m. By morning I was fine.
My husband understood that I wouldn’t see the doctor. But my daughter worried about me. She wept and said she was worried that I might have cancer. My sister also cried. My daughter said, “Mom, please go to see the doctor for a check up. Neither of us have gotten married yet. If anything happens to you, how could we live?” I refused to go to the hospital for a check-up.
I asked them what money they had since they wanted me to go to the hospital. I knew they didn’t have any, so they gave up. My daughter asked my neighbor to watch over me in case anything happened to me. Regarding the sickness karma, I have this thought that Master said that practitioners don’t have illnesses and we don’t have illnesses and Master is cleansing our bodies. I did a lot of work as if I didn’t feel any discomfort. When my daughter came home and asked the neighbor, she said, “Your mother is very well. She’s done a lot of work while you were gone.”
I know I still need let go of many human thoughts and attachments. I still have the CCP culture elements in me. I need to send forth righteous thoughts more and rectify myself on many issues so that sentient beings won’t commit crimes against Falun Dafa due to my cultivation gaps. I will follow Master closely, complete my mission as a practitioner in the Fa-rectification period. I will help Master rectify the Fa and save sentient beings and be a qualified Falun Dafa practitioner.
Thank you Master! Thank you practitioners!
(Selected submission for the 22nd China Fahui on Minghui.org)