(Minghui.org) I was talking to people about Falun Dafa at a bus stop and ran into a fellow practitioner. She told me she felt the other practitioners were looking at her strangely because she helped so many people renounce the Chinese Communist Party. She felt irritated and thought they were jealous of her.
After hearing her story, I searched inward and discovered I have the same issue, but it manifests differently in me. I’m displeased and annoyed with the way my daughter-in-law educates her daughter (My granddaughter).
She’s from a modest family, and her father died when she was young. She graduated from a technical school and married my son.
My husband and I both live simple lives. Whereas my daughter-in-law enjoys an extravagant way of living. She is wasteful and likes to spend money. She’s also very picky about what she eats and often orders takeout if she doesn’t like the food served at home. She only buys the best things, and when she runs out of money, she asks us to pay for things.
If my granddaughter’s grades aren’t high, my daughter-in-law makes her pick up the garbage. She often shuns, ridicules, mocks, and speaks sarcastically to her. She also beats her when she gets angry.
My daughter-in-law recently said that her daughter didn’t do well on an exam and she was ranked near the bottom of the class. It just so happened that my daughter-in-law’s mother was visiting, so I told her everything I’d buried in my heart for the past eight years.
As a result, I got blisters in my mouth. I thought I spoke too much and didn’t look inward. I noticed I have a strong attachment to reputation, and I want to stand out. If my granddaughter gets good grades, then I can be proud and brag about her.
My daughter-in-law feels she’s the head of the household, and my husband and I have no say. I keep focusing on her negative traits when, in fact, her poor behavior is a reflection of my attachments. I lack kindness and have an unrighteous heart.
I’m now exposing my attachments so that I can eliminate them. I want to remove the bad elements from my heart so they have no place to hide. When my heart is purified, I will be kinder and more compassionate.
All lives are precious and are waiting to be saved by Dafa. I want to cultivate kindness to help them obtain salvation.
Please kindly correct me if anything I’ve said is not in line with the Fa.