(Minghui.org) Master said: “We have said that good or bad comes from a person’s initial thought, and the thought at that moment can bring about different consequences.” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)

I understand that different thoughts can lead to different consequences. Reading other practitioners’ experience-sharing on Minghui caused me to reflect on my own incident from several years ago. I now expose those thoughts of mine that had deviated from the Fa, to remind myself and caution fellow practitioners not to dismiss such matters as trivial.

One day in late 2019, I was preparing dinner before my husband returned home from work. Then I soaked his dirty clothes in a basin for washing, and after he returned, we sat down to eat dinner. As I had finished first, I went to wash his clothes. I then noticed my husband was still drinking. Seeing his contented expression, a thought crossed my mind: “When will he ever wash my clothes for me?” I didn’t realize at the time that this thought was not in line with the Fa. Three days later, I suffered a severe stroke, which paralyzed the right side of my body. As a result, my husband indeed ended up doing the laundry and cooking.

This tribulation of sickness karma compelled me to study Fa diligently, recite the Fa, and copy it. As Dafa continually purified me, I realized that my own unrighteous thoughts had invited evil to my door. That one thought contained so many human attachments—resentment, jealousy, grievance, desire for comfort and happiness, and a longing for repayment.

Looking back on years of cultivation, I realized I had wasted time by not truly cultivating myself. I had only tried to be a good person, which I now deeply regret.

A few days later, practitioners from another region visited me. They sent forth righteous thoughts for me and helped me deepen my understanding of the Fa. I felt regretful for wasting their precious time and for causing discredit to Dafa. I assured them that I would be fine and recover gradually. Throughout the tribulation, I never regarded my condition as an illness instead, I enlightened that Master was guiding me to improve.

At that time, I believed that my faith in Dafa was steadfast and I was confident that I would recover. Now I realize my thought of recovering gradually was not righteous. It revealed that I had not truly grasped the Fa after years of studying it, and I didn’t understand the Fa principles clearly, so I was helpless when facing tribulations. Although I identified that I was a Dafa practitioner, did I truly hold the Fa principles in my heart? How much were my actions in line with the Fa? I had never seriously reflected on these thoughts.

Acknowledging that Dafa practitioners’ mission is to help people understand Dafa and the truth of the persecution, I had always made every effort to not miss any opportunity. But now, I couldn’t do anything while lying in bed and felt a sense of guilt. Meanwhile, another thought surfaced: “You should take a break, and you have been exhausted all these years.” However, I failed to recognize that this thought was not in line with the Fa, let alone did I reject it.

Through intensive Fa study, my body and mind gradually realigned with the Fa. I recognized that my thought of taking a break was imposed by the old forces in an attempt to undermine my willpower in cultivation and drag me down. I didn’t want to rest while fellow practitioners were busy spreading the truth of Dafa to people, and I must continue to do the three things and negate these negative thoughts. There are no breaks in cultivation. Even a moment of relaxation allows the old forces to exploit such a loophole.

Consequently, my thought of recovering slowly had strengthened the evil forces behind it. Although many people viewed my recovery as miraculous, I continued to struggle with the incorrect states of my body, which hindered my ability to do the three things well. Nevertheless, I did not give up on cultivating myself.

Seeing my resolve in cultivation and my efforts to rectify myself within the Fa, Master removed many negative elements from me and saved me once again. I have no words to express my gratitude to Master for his compassionate salvation.

I will study the Fa diligently and thoroughly during the limited time remaining, and cultivate every thought and notion, so as to completely negate all arrangements by the old forces. I will eliminate every evil factor obstructing my assistance to Master in validating the Fa. I will continue to be a true disciple of Master and the Fa.

Please kindly point out anything not in line with the Fa.