(Minghui.org) I was about to apply mosquito repellent on my hands and legs so that I wouldn’t get bitten when I did the exercises. I suddenly thought, “The mosquitoes won’t bite me.” So I put the cream away and did the exercises. Amazingly, this time the mosquitoes did not bite me. Obviously, my positive thought was a righteous one.

I always had negative thoughts that I would get mosquito bites. When I was in a good mood, I could quietly endure the bites without feeling uncomfortable. But when my mood wasn’t good, the bites became unbearable. They were so itchy and annoying that I scratched them severely.

I’ve often had negative thoughts. When I get a phone call from someone I don’t know or when someone knocks on the door, I think the police are coming to harass me or persecute me again. I often feel that people won’t accept the facts about Dafa or that I’ll be followed. These negative thoughts seriously interfered with my cultivation. I realized that the root of this negative thinking was my attachment to fear—I still hadn’t eliminated my fear of being persecuted.

I know I must change my mindset. As a Dafa practitioner, I’ve been doing righteous things to help Master save people. I should negate the old forces’ interference. With his protection, no one can touch me! Whoever tries to control me is doing something bad and will face consequences.

I remember something that happened years ago. I handed a copy of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party to a man on a crowded street. He glanced at the book and shouted loudly, “This is against the Communist Party! I am going to report you!” As he reached for his phone, I was not afraid and said calmly, “You are a kind person and you will not report me.”

The man repeated his threats and I kept calmly talking to him. We went back and forth like this. No one on the street even glanced at us – it was as if we were in a different dimension. Seeing that no one else was paying attention, the man eventually walked away, muttering that he would report me next time. I assumed that he wouldn’t read the book, so I tried hard to take it back. Interestingly, he held the book tightly, and I thought that perhaps he would read it.

Another incident also involved distributing truth-clarifying materials about the persecution. I went out to distribute the materials, but there was a loophole in my thinking. I was afraid that it wasn’t safe to keep the materials at home and they needed to be handed out quickly. I did it for my own self protection, rather than to save people. My lack of righteous thoughts was taken advantage of by the old forces. I was reported and imprisoned for one year.

Master said,

“We have said that good or bad comes from a person’s initial thought, and the thought at that moment can bring about different consequences.” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)

I had righteous thought during the first incident, and Master helped me resolve the tribulation. Master also prevented that person from committing a crime against Dafa and gave him a chance to be saved. In the second incident, I had fear. Consequently, some people committed a crime against Dafa by reporting me, and I suffered a tribulation. I feel very remorseful when I think of these incidents now.

Most of my negative thoughts stem from all sorts of fears. Behind the fear is a selfish mentality and a strong sense of self-protection. I must truly set aside my attachments and let go of my fear!