(Minghui.org) I’m 10 years old, and I attend the Shen Yun Arts Proficiency Assessment Center. My mother meditated while she was pregnant with me, and through her third eye she saw a Falun in my belly. I practice Falun Dafa with my parents, and we help each other cultivate and do the three things better and better.
I like the idea of working hard, but the truth is I have an attachment: I’m lazy. I imagine myself working really hard, I even have dreams in which I’m working hard. I dreamed that all of my leg holds, back bends, and over-splits were perfect. However, I don’t like doing things that aren’t fun.
Master said, “It is known that what actually causes people to become ill is seventy percent psychological and thirty percent physical.” (Lecture Six, Zhuan Falun)
When I’m told to do something I don’t want to do, my first thought is, “I’m tired.” Then I feel tired and lazy. When I have the thought: “I’m tired,” I should replace it with, “That’s not me. I am a Falun Dafa practitioner. STOP interfering with me!”
After I realized I have this attachment to laziness, I’ve gradually been able to eliminate it. After my attachment began lessening I’ve become more flexible and I’ve made bigger breakthroughs in dance.
My friend and I are home schooled and she’s a year younger than me. I am faster at writing than she is. She sometimes gets so angry because I’m faster that she doesn’t want to do her schoolwork. She often asks me, “Are you rushing?” I tell her that I don’t rush. But now that I think about it, I am rushing. I never looked inside. Instead I thought her being slow was her issue and I didn’t think about why she was angry at me.
While my dad drove me home from dance class one night I asked if he could think of a reason why this kept happening. He asked me some questions to help me look inside. When he asked if I was impatient, I said, “Yes.”
I realized being impatient can affect others. I wasn’t impatient yesterday. I still worked fast, but this time she didn’t get angry with me. We were both lighthearted and happy.
My friend has a little sister who is very annoying. I get upset, and I want to yell at her. I truly get impatient with her.
My mother keeps on reminding me that she’s only four years old, but I still get impatient with her. Every time she annoys my friend and me I should remind myself that it’s a test. Every time I fail the test, I remind myself that Master said:
“If you fail the test the first time, it will be difficult to pass it the second time. Yet there is also the case where when one fails the first test, one will regret it very much upon waking from sleep. Perhaps this mentality and state of mind will reinforce your thoughts about it. When the issue again arises, you will be able to control yourself and pass the test.” (Lecture Six, Zhuan Falun)
I never regretted failing the test before, but, now I do. Now, every time this happens I try to do better. I’m slowly improving and I feel I’m getting closer to passing the test.
I recently had a sore throat, and it affected my voice. When I sent righteous thoughts today I told myself I was going to keep my eyes closed. I repeated the formula over and over, I told the old forces to stop interfering with my throat. I thanked Master for helping me clear my karma, and I began repeating the formula.
A small black cloud appeared in front of me. It turned white, and in a flash it disappeared. My throat felt a little better. I felt like something was pulling me up and my back started to straighten, but the old forces were trying to make me slouch! Then I heard my dad say my Chinese name. I opened my eyes, and my dad told me to open up my flower hand gesture. The old forces could not make me slouch, so my hands closed without me noticing! The evil took advantage of me opening my eyes, and I no longer felt the pulling up and straightening of my posture. The negative elements caused me to slouch, but I resisted and then felt the pulling up feeling again. Next, I saw light shining in my inner eye right before the gong sounded to mark the end of the time to send righteous thoughts.
Thank you, Master. Thank you, fellow practitioners. If anything I’ve said that is not in line with the Fa, please kindly point it out.