(Minghui.org) I started practicing Falun Dafa in May of 1997. I have persevered on this cultivation path for nearly three decades, am now 81 years old, and have persevered through thick and thin under the protection and guidance of Master Li Hongzhi, the founder of Falun Dafa. Thus, I have walked my spiritual path safely and earnestly.

At a cultivation experience-sharing gathering in 1997, I loudly proclaimed to others that I lived my life without the attachment of jealousy. A short time later, I had a vivid dream that I went to my sister’s home to see my mother, who had just returned from a trip. When I arrived, I noticed a lot of nicely cured meats. My sister said that Mother had given her the meat as a gift. Since my mother did not give me anything, I felt resentful, and tears ran down my face. I felt that Master was giving me  a hint about the jealousy within me. But I did not look inward at the time, and decades passed.

As I was meditating recently, my thoughts suddenly flashed back on a time in third grade. I was jealous of a classmate. Her name was Li Zhilan. She was pretty, with a slender face, big eyes, and pretty braids. Her grades were good, and the teachers liked her. We girls could not take it, so we mocked and ignored her. Whenever she came near us, we would walk away to embarrass her. After my meditation, I realized that our behavior at that time was indeed a manifestation of jealousy.

Master said,

“It is because jealousy manifests very strongly in China. It is so strong that it has become natural, and people do not even notice it.” (Lecture Seven, Zhuan Falun)

Master’s words spoke to me. I now clearly understand the immense harm that the attachment of jealousy is to our cultivation. I began to look inward for those times when I have been jealous. I found that I had constantly found fault with my husband over the decades. With Master’s guidance, I now understand and recognize my attachment to jealousy.

I saw my husband as being very lazy. He did not help with housework and enjoyed a leisurely and comfortable life. On the other hand, I was always as busy as a bee. Every day, in addition to my job, I had to cook the meals, do laundry, clean the house, and help our kids with their studies. I was jealous of my husband’s life of ease. I could not tolerate the fact that I had so much to do, while he just took it easy. So I had often nagged him about everything. As a Dafa practitioner, I really did not cultivate well in this respect.

From the perspective of the Fa, nothing a cultivator encounters is accidental. There must be a reason for my husband's behavior. Perhaps it might be because of the grudges I held or the debts I owed in past lives. Debts must be repaid. I should repay the debts and eliminate my karma so that I can return home with Master Li.

I tried to be nicer to my husband, but it felt strange acting like that. The attachment of jealousy remained. Everything I tried seemed superficial. I just could not be compassionate to him. ‘Rome was not built in a day,’ as they say. It was not so easy to shake off decades of jealousy.

I read articles on the Minghui website that addressed the elimination of jealousy. I also studied the Fa extensively, including Zhuan Falun, Essentials for Further Advancement, Collected Teachings Given Around the World, and Master’s new scriptures. Through Fa study, I found that my husband was another person that I should be helping Master to save, so I should cherish him.

Master said,

“As your Master, I have never kept account of the wrong things you have done in your cultivation; I remember only the good things you have done and your accomplishments.” (“Pass the Deadly Test,” The Essentials of Diligent Progress III)

I started thinking about the good things my husband has done. We have lived together for decades, and I was always in charge. He rarely criticized me. He gave me the money he earned and never asked me how I spent it. He ate whatever I cooked and wore whatever clothes that I bought for him.

My husband did not oppose my practicing Falun Dafa. During the wave of withdrawals that began in 2005, he agreed with my explanation and quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) instantly. In 2006, he loudly condemned the CCP, especially the former leader, Jiang Zemin, when I told him about the live organ harvesting. My husband also suffered a lot when I was persecuted. I was detained twice, and our house was raided four times. Once, he collapsed in distress after the police took me away.

In April 2024, I was illegally sentenced to two years in prison. I paid a fine of 20,000 yuan and served my term outside of prison. He did not criticize me for the loss. He did not interfere when I studied the Fa, did the exercises, sent forth righteous thoughts, or made Dafa materials at home.

After studying the Fa and cultivating my moral character for some time, I suddenly realized that I had compassion for my husband. I felt sorry for having nagged and bullied him for so many years. I no longer felt annoyed or disgusted with him. Finally, I was able to eliminate my attachment of jealousy toward my husband.