(Minghui.org) I began to practice Falun Dafa (Falun Gong) in 1995, and I’m now 75. Through wind and rain, I have followed Master Li Hongzhi’s teachings for 30 years. Persecuted by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) since 1999, I’ve been imprisoned and put into brainwashing and detention centers, but no matter what, my firm belief in Master and Dafa has never wavered.
I have personally felt that Master is truly watching over and protecting me at every moment on my cultivation path. Being able to cultivate Dafa is a once-in-millennia opportunity, and it is the greatest wish of all my lifetimes. The more I study the Fa, the more I understand just how precious it is, as well the urgency of time. The more I cultivate, the more I feel the tremendous responsibility of a Dafa disciple.
I took care of my paralyzed husband for eleven and a half years. During that time, although I was very busy and doing things to validate Dafa, Master’s strengthening helped me feel light and full of energy. I was always able to pay attention to and suppress my bad thoughts and notions. It was as if a mechanism had formed within me.
But when I turned on the TV for my husband, I would sometimes watch with him. Gradually, I was drawn into things like South Korean dramas. While watching TV, I felt that the mechanism of “suppressing my bad thoughts and notions” suddenly disappeared. Moreover, there were many Dafa projects going on. Fellow practitioners came by every day to discuss things. I also had to go out to clarify the truth and distribute Dafa informational materials. As a result, I studied the Fa less and, when I did study, I couldn’t calm my mind. So, although I did a lot of Dafa work, my xinxing did not improve.
After my husband passed away in July 2023, I began experiencing sickness karma symptoms. When conflicts arose with other practitioners, I failed to look within to find my own attachments. As a result, I became short of breath and had heart palpitations. It got to the point that I felt suffocated and could barely walk. Irrational thoughts planted by the old forces also frequently appeared in my mind. I became very fragile and harbored very strong attachments to resentment and anger. Above all, my mind was filled with fear—fear of being persecuted to death, fear of causing losses to Dafa, and so on.
I did not even dare stay home alone. I always wanted fellow practitioners to stay with me to study the Fa and do the exercises. My attachment to dependence on others was very strong. Precisely because of this dependence, the two practitioners that often came by no longer wanted to stay.
My fear arose again one day as several practitioners were preparing to leave. But I suddenly understood from deep inside: “I’m a Dafa disciple and Master watches over me at all times.” And I remembered: “With Master and the Way by my side, what is there to fear?” (“Lecture Given at the Conference in Sydney”)
The moment this righteous thought emerged, I felt Master remove the black substances of fear and other things from me. I realized that the sickness karma test was actually a xinxing test. After that, I increased my Fa study and began to truly look within.
I found attachments to jealousy, resentment, anger, and impatience. I continually looked within and measured my cultivation state, thoughts, and subtle intentions against Dafa’s principles to correct anything that did not conform.
As my xinxing elevated, changes also took place in my body. No matter how painful or uncomfortable I felt, I followed Master’s requirements and studied the Fa, did the exercises, and sent righteous thoughts. However, attachments such as jealousy, resentment, impatience, being overbearing, and not liking to hear criticism remained stubborn. During conflicts, it was still difficult to maintain my xinxing. I worked hard to memorize the Fa and eliminate these attachments.
In August 2023, I thought, “I cannot only study the Fa, do the exercises, and send righteous thoughts at home. I need to go out and clarify the truth to help Master save people.” But physically, I started experiencing waves of discomfort and was unable to move. In that condition, how could I go out and save people?
I thought, “I need to ask Master for help.” As I went to kneel down in front of Master’s portrait, I felt him removing black substances from the top of my head and immediately felt waves of comfort radiating within my heart. And at that point, my abnormal condition disappeared, and I felt extremely light and joyous.
The next day, I went out with fellow practitioners to clarify the truth. My body felt light as air. When I saw birds, I joyfully called out to them, “Falun Dafa is good!” And when I passed by trees, I called out to them, too.
But the following day, I began feeling unwell I understood that I had developed an attachment of zealotry, which caused my body to enter another abnormal state. I knew I should not be affected by this illusion. In the days that followed, I persisted in going out with fellow practitioners to distribute the Nine Commentaries of the Communist Party and clarify the truth.
No matter how much pain or distress I experienced, I completely denied the old forces’ interference with my efforts to save people. I would only listen to Master and accept his arrangements. I was determined to assist Master in saving people.
I felt that the Nine Commentaries had great power to save people—whoever received a copy would be saved. Another practitioner and I each carried dozens of copies and rode electric bicycles to suburban and rural areas to hand them out. When we returned for a second round, the feedback was really encouraging. One person said, “This book was not written by ordinary people. It exposes the true nature of the Communist Party!”
After we finished distributing these booklets to the surrounding areas, I thought that predestined people in the city could not be left out either. I wanted to distribute the Nine Commentaries down every street and alley. If I could hand them out to people face to face, I would do so. If no one was around, I would put copies in bicycle baskets.
Throughout this process, I held onto one thought: “Regardless of whether my body feels uncomfortable, I’ll only listen to Master. I absolutely cannot let him down and will do my utmost to help save more people while time remains.”
In December 2023, several practitioners from another county came to my home. They said a practitioner there had been arrested while distributing truth-clarification materials. They hoped we would cooperate as one body and participate in the rescue effort.
Traveling to that city required 12.5 hours on the road. I felt tremendous pressure because that place was considered rather perilous in terms of persecution. I worried my physical condition might create trouble for the other practitioners. But while studying the Fa, Master enlightened me with these words, “As one who truly practices cultivation toward high levels, you should give up various attachments.” (Lecture Six, Zhuan Falun)
At the key moment of battling between my everyday human thoughts and righteous thoughts, Master’s Fa principles eliminated my attachments and strengthened my righteous thoughts. I said in my heart, “If Master tells me to let go, then I will let go and cooperate with the whole body to help rescue this practitioner.”
The next day, after sending righteous thoughts at 6 a.m., several of us set out. When we entered that city and saw so many cars and people, I cried. I wondered if anyone had told these people the truth about Dafa. After returning home, we downloaded information from the Minghui website and mailed over 100 truth-clarification packages to the police, court, and procuratorate personnel in that city.
During this process, a practitioner in that area saw a vision through their celestial eye: The vehicle we rode in appeared as a glowing Fa-vessel, glimmering with golden light.
We heard some police officers in that city say, “Who dares to defend Falun Gong?” Before the second hearing, the old forces again planted a bad thought in my mind: “No one in our vehicle would be able to return.” I also saw, through my celestial eye, a vision of a hole in my living room ceiling with water gushing down. I realized this was interference from the old forces, attempting to stop us from sending righteous thoughts. Throughout the entire 12.5-hour journey, I continuously memorized the Fa and sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the old forces’ arrangements.
The lawyer later told us that many people from the police, procuratorate, 610 Office, and court attended the hearing that day. While we were sending righteous thoughts, a practitioner saw a large Falun (law wheel) rotating above the lawyer’s head. The lawyer presented an excellent defense for the detained practitioner.
During this process, family members of the detained practitioner who had not understood the truth about Dafa were moved by our efforts. They had never expected these practitioners would drive back and forth, over 600 miles, without asking for a penny. They came to understand the truth and completely changed their attitude about Dafa.
Master, I will cherish the time that you have extended through your immense grace. I’ll diligently study the Fa, look within in all situations, and treat every practitioner, family member, relative, police officer, and public official with compassion and kindness.