(Minghui.org) I often heard on Minghui Radio stories about practitioners struggling with Fa study, and I felt that I was one of them.

I have practiced Falun Dafa for 27 years, but Fa study has always been a struggle for me. Whenever I study the Fa, I feel drowsy, restless, or physically uncomfortable. But no matter how difficult it has been, I have persisted in studying the Fa, trying to overcome it with various poses—sitting, kneeling, or standing. Because I understand deeply the importance of Fa study, I have persisted, even when I struggled to grasp the Fa principles while reading, or found myself falling asleep while listening. Reading one character at a time, I filled my heart with the Fa.

I have memorized the entirety of Zhuan Falun once, which took me several years, yet I still failed to comprehend the Fa principles. When I started to memorize it again, I stopped halfway through the first lecture because I realized that I wasn’t aware of what I was reciting even though I had recited it fluently.

Why was Fa study such a struggle for me? I looked inward and sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the interference, but that didn’t work. I pleaded with Master for help, but Master didn’t explicitly give me any hints.

I’ve been cultivating with my third eye open. I often received hints in advance from Master before undergoing major tribulations. Why hadn’t Master done anything regarding my Fa study? I struggled to understand who or what was blocking me from studying the Fa, or what karmic ties were at work. Could it be that there is a deep, unresolved grudge? How much longer must I continue to repay this? Could Master resolve this for me through a benevolent solution?

Suddenly, I remembered Master’s words when He talked about saving practitioners in car accidents, “Actually, don’t think that nothing happened to you after being hit—a you, made up of karma, really died.” (Fa Teaching Given at a Meeting in New York, Teachings at Conferences in the United States)

I was jolted awake and realized that it was another “me” composed of karma, hindering me from studying the Fa. For 27 years, I had allowed this false “me” to interfere simply because I believed that it was truly myself! Looking back, I can’t believe it took me so long to see through the illusion.

Once I identified this false “me” and listened to other practitioners’ experience, I sent forth righteous thoughts three times for extended periods, totaling over six hours, to eliminate it. Later, I did so once again. As a result, I was able to study the Fa normally, with the Fa filling my mind.

Now, I feel relaxed and comfortable during Fa study and have even reached the point that the more I study the Fa, the more I want to do it. I no longer feel drowsy while listening to the Fa either.

This is my personal experience.