(Minghui.org) When I was young, I was greatly influenced by my father, a knowledgeable and thoughtful man. More than anything else, he wanted to understand the meaning of life. As a child, I thought I would surely find the answer once I went to university.
Twenty years later, I graduated from college, yet the question remained unanswered. My professors taught Marxist philosophy, political economy, and modern Chinese history. Although I earned high grades, I felt empty inside. The knowledge I had acquired did not help me understand life's deeper purpose.
After graduation, I got married and started a family. Later, I became ill and increasingly irritable. Despite seeking treatment through modern medicine, my condition did not improve. Old problems remained unresolved, while new ones arose one after another. I felt lost and confused, unable to understand what was happening to me or why my life seemed to be heading in the wrong direction.
I had reached a mental and emotional breaking point and no longer knew the purpose of living. I used to believe that the purpose of life was to find true love, but reality had shattered that illusion. My husband was a talented man, but he was also extremely chauvinistic and inconsiderate. He slapped me while I was pregnant, kicked me during my postpartum recovery, and even placed photographs of other women in front of me when I was suffering emotionally. Incidents like these occurred repeatedly. As a result, I hated him and wanted to leave him forever. Yet I felt trapped because I had lost the ability to support myself financially. We continually hurt each other and struggled through a painful and dysfunctional relationship. I was incapable of managing the situation and carried deep resentment from the repeated emotional wounds we inflicted on one another.
Along with my emotional struggles, I began to experience serious health problems. Rheumatoid arthritis caused pain in nearly every joint of my body. After four years of medical treatment, my condition showed little improvement. I was thin and pale, and despite being only twenty-seven years old, I felt as though all traces of youth had vanished. After years of enduring the torment of illnesses, I longed for nothing more than a healthy body. During those four years, I tried almost everything in search of relief. In addition to conventional medicine, I read Buddhist and Taoist books and practiced two other qigong disciplines, but I gained very little from them. Disappointed and desperate, I often imagined that somewhere there might be a true master who could save me.
In 1996, my husband came home from work and told me that the mother of one of his colleagues had attended a nine-day Falun Dafa seminar in Changchun. According to him, her rheumatoid arthritis had completely disappeared after just nine days. Upon hearing this, my heart was deeply moved. I had a strong feeling that I, too, might finally be saved.
My husband soon brought home Falun Dafa books, audio recordings, and videotapes. I eagerly began reading the books and studying the teachings. What followed was a tremendous transformation in my life. All of my illnesses disappeared, and within a short period of time, I regained my health and vitality.
The change was remarkable. Although I had once been weak and frail, I soon felt energetic and looked healthy again. Not long afterward, I participated in my company’s 3,000-meter race and won second place. In just one month, I had gone from being a chronically ill patient to one of the strongest runners in the race. The dramatic transformation astonished my relatives, friends, and colleagues.
The improvement in my physical health was remarkable, but the transformation in my mindset was even more profound. In simple and accessible language, Master Li expounded the profound and far-reaching principles of Falun Dafa, clearly answering the ultimate questions I had long sought to understand.
From ancient times to the present, from heaven to earth, from the macrocosm to the microcosm, from the cultivation world to human society, Master provided comprehensive explanations for the many mysteries that had perplexed me throughout my life. At last, I understood. I had finally found what I had been searching for—the truth of the universe. I was often moved to tears by the profound principles taught in Dafa. From that moment on, my greatest aspiration was to be a good person, an honest person, and someone who could gradually let go of selfishness and live according to the principles taught by Master in Zhuan Falun and embodied in Dafa.
I was willing to put such beautiful principles, Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance, into practice wholeheartedly in my daily life. In our limited time on earth, what greater blessing could there be than to obtain and live by this universal truth?
In July 1999, Falun Dafa came under brutal persecution. I traveled to Beijing three times to appeal for justice and to seek redress for Falun Dafa. As a result, I was illegally sentenced to forced labor and imprisonment. I was misunderstood by relatives, friends, and colleagues, and I faced discrimination and pressure at my workplace.
After my release, I returned to work. Some supervisors and colleagues sympathized with me, some offered assistance, and others asked whether there was anything they could do to help. However, I realized that many of my relatives and coworkers only felt sympathy for me; they did not truly understand Falun Dafa, cultivation, or the persecution itself. Many thought I was a kind person but also naïve, foolish, or uninformed. Some even ignored me or looked at me with disdain.
Determined to help people understand the truth, I began communicating with them online. I started with modern Chinese history and the rise of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), then explained the spread of Falun Dafa and the persecution that followed. From basic facts to universal values, I patiently revealed the truth layer by layer. It was truly a battle between good and evil. Because moral standards in society had declined and the CCP propaganda had deeply influenced people’s thinking, many found it difficult to see things clearly. They might understand the facts one day, only to become confused again the next. During this process, some people threatened to report me, some mocked and insulted me, some waited to see me fail, and others worried about my safety.
To reduce interference, I sent forth righteous thoughts for two hours every morning and one hour each at noon and in the evening. I asked Master for strength and guidance. I firmly believed that, with Master’s protection, no one could deter me from doing what I believed was right. After two years of patiently clarifying the truth, many of my colleagues and friends finally came to understand Falun Dafa. They were grateful and delighted to learn the facts. Their perspectives broadened, and they became more open-minded, gaining insight into many issues they had previously been unable to understand. They also came to recognize the harmful nature of the CCP’s actions, and some voluntarily withdrew from the CCP and its affiliated organizations.
One colleague, after learning the truth and withdrawing from the CCP, the Communist Youth League, and the Young Pioneers, experienced a remarkable recovery from late-stage liver cancer.
Looking back on more than twenty years of cultivating in Falun Dafa and assisting in Fa-rectification, I can see that Master has always protected and watched over me. In order to enable me to cultivate, Master has endured countless hardships on my behalf and borne innumerable sins and karma for me—far more than I could ever know.
What I do know is that without Master’s compassionate salvation, I would have neither the present life I enjoy today nor any hope for the future. Every minute and every second we have is made possible through Master's immeasurable sacrifice and suffering. Knowing this, how could we not cultivate diligently?
So many sentient beings still do not know the truth and are waiting to be saved. Therefore, we can only strive to be ever more diligent. We must study the Fa well, send forth righteous thoughts well, and help save more sentient beings.
Once again, I offer my deepest gratitude to Master for his boundless compassion and salvation.
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