I am 15 years old. I came to Canada last January. When I first came over here, my dad had been practicing Dafa for two years. One night, my dad put Zhuan Falun on my desk. I didn't read it immediately because I took it as an ordinary Qigong book. However, Dafa little by little penetrated into my heart because of the influence from my family.
One day in April 1999, I happened to hear a conversation between dad and aunt, talking about some very touching stories regarding Dafa practitioners trying very hard to overcome all kinds of difficulties in cultivation. I was deeply moved then, decided right away to read two chapters of Zhuan Falun everyday after school. I also attended the conference last May, I learned so much from many practitioners' cultivation experience sharing, especially so moved by Master Li's lecture, I understood my xinxing level was very low, so I determined to be a real practitioner. A few days later, I kept checking my xinxing, maintained a calm mind to deal with everything, got rid of my attachments, and read the book as soon as I got homeand did the exercises every night. I felt
the transformation everyday. I very strongly felt my small heart shaken time after time, and getting bigger and broader, so was my understanding towards Dafa getting deeper. I understood how valuable the Dafa is, and we should do our best in cultivation. Later I went into a state, where nothing could move my heart. I understood it's just the beginning of the cultivation.
Last July during school summer holiday, back home was the crazy persecution of Falun Gong. Practitioners from Toronto were going to go to Washington to appeal. I wasn't very clear about what happened, but thinking that it's something related to dafa, I just followed them. When I was there, by getting more in touch with other practitioners, I started to like being together with them. At that time, I understood more of what happened in China. Those two days were my first time out of town by myself. Then other practitioners went to Ottawa. When I got home, it was already passed midnight. When I went to bed and was about to fall asleep, my hand happened to be on my abdomen. I still remember that my abdomen was moving up and down like a wave. I worked very
hard, then, in order to keep up with the courses.
There was one month that my mom kept writing and telephoning, because of the very negative propaganda on Dafa, but it never made my mind shake, even a little bit. Later on, these kind of phone calls and letters got less and less. There was one time, I wrote to my mom about how great the transformation on me was from cultivating Falun Dafa. I also attached a cultivation experience sharing article downloaded from the internet for her. After that, I found that she didn't argue with me any more. Sometimes even when I talked to her about my cultivation experience she seemed pretty happy.
There was another time, I was experiencing a tough Xiaoye, coughing, nose running, feeling cold, dizzy. Unluckily, I had to do a presentation. I thought it was really bad luck. However things turned out very well when I stood on the platform I had a much stronger voice than I normally do. In the end, I got a full mark which was the only one in our class.
The more I practice, the more I feel I need to move forward. I understand that lots of practitioners do exercises very early in the morning. I want to be like them, but it was pretty tough for me at the beginning, for I was very keen on sleeping and always slept late. Although I set my alarm clock for five thirty in the morning, when it rang, I just didn't want to get up. There was one time
the alarm clock didn't work at all for a few days, but I suddenly woke up by myself at five thirty, however, I just didn't want to get up. I started questioning myself, who were you practicing for? Being lazy isn't it an attachment? Why couldn't I give it up? Master Li talked about the relationship between practice and exercise in many lectures. Master Li said: the true cultivation is cultivating mind and body, including both cultivation and practice. I didn't make it, even didn't intend to, isn't it a misunderstanding of dafa? Cultivation is my business, why not be responsible for myself? After going back and forth a couple of times, I eventually am able to get up right on time. From doing the exercises I have lots of changes happening to my body.
I also would like to talk about how I did the sitting meditation. I had very stiff legs before. After cultivation, seeing other practitioners, even kids and senior people can do double-crossed legs sitting meditation. I can't even do single-crossed legs sitting meditation. I was so worried about it that I determined to do it. I endured so much pain that I had to hold my pillow and
close my teeth tightly. I didn't know why I couldn't do double-crossed legs sitting meditation. Maybe because I had too much Karma, or maybe because, as Master Li said, "some gods in the heaven don't have human images, are some other gods' images, then he doesn't have to sit in lotus position." Maybe it was because of this factor. But master Li added something later:"you have this human flesh body. I think everybody should be able to make it." Right, I will definitely make it. No matter what reason, as a practitioner I have to do double-crossed legs sitting meditation. If my legs aren't good for practicing, what is the good of keeping my legs? Little by little my legs became softer to enable me to sit double-crossed .
Now I want to talk about my experience collecting signatures. Because of the Chinese government's defamation of Master Li and inhumane persecution of Chinese Falun Gong practitioners, practitioners abroad want to appeal to the local MPPs and MPs. Through their voices, to urge the Chinese government to respect human rights, and stop the persecution of Falun Gong, we needed lots of signatures to send to the MPs and MPPs. At first, I thought of collecting signatures at school, then afraid that grade school students wouldn't be very interested in doing this, I didn't work on that. The other day, my dad told me about one practitioner who, by herself, collected many signatures. He asked me: why you didn't do it in school? I took it as a little hint for me, so I gave it a try! I was going to start collecting signatures from my classmates during break times. One morning, in our ESL (English as a Second Language) class, I was thinking about the poor English of most of my classmates. Well, my English wasn't very good either. Would I be able to make myself understood? Would they pay attention to what I was going to say? I was also worried that some classmates had already heard what happened in China and maybe they were already convinced by the Chinese government's propaganda. What were they going to think of me? I really didn't expect that this thing could be more easily said than done. I felt a little bit scared. So I stood up with a blushed face. It didn't go well at the beginning. Only two people signed with some reluctance. I was so sad, after realizing that it's my vain heart that was in the way. I determined to get this signature thing done and pass this test. I was thinking, Dafa suffered so much back home, as a practitioner, how can we be bystanders? On the other hand, it's a good chance to get other people aware of the law. What am I supposed to be afraid of? Dafa is just so righteous! so serious! Why care about human's thoughts, leave Dafa's standard alone? In the afternoon our
math class, after the teacher finished her lecture, she asked us to do some exercises. At this time, I asked her for her signature. After she knew what had happened, she not only signed it, but also talked about it in front of the class. Moreover, she asked me to pass this signature sheet around, so almost everyone signed it. A few days later, I took advantage of break time again to collect signatures. My heart became more and more peaceful. I collected signatures not only from my class but also from other classes and the whole school. There were many xinxing tests. I did my best in these tests to follow a practitioner's standard. I got more and more signatures, so there are many people in school that know about Falun Gong. From this I understand that safeguarding the law and cultivation go hand in hand. Master Li said in one article: "Digging Out the Root": "During your cultivation practice, I will use every means to expose all of your attachments and dig them out at the root"
This March, when I heard about Geneva Fahui, I checked the calendar. It was at the spring break. I decided to go and booked the ticket, but when I double-checked the date, I suddenly found this one-week Fahui happened right after spring break. My dad said to me: you didn't make this mistake by mistake, anyway. I'd rather you go, so I listened to him. When I atrrived I realised it was an international Fahui, and we did exercise in front of UN headquarter! I was so glad that I came. After exchanging cultivation experiences with the other practitioners, I felt lke a learned so much. In front of UN headquarter, two times I even did double cross-legs sitting meditation for one hour, which was the first time since I started cultivation.
It has been a year since I received Dafa, but I didn't improve too much and I haven't understood the law too much. , When I heard some practitioners talking about their understanding on Dafa and how they improved their xinxing, I felt I lagged behind. I also find some shortcomings I used to have. I will surely be a true practitioner, cultivate my heart, and be strict with myself, because I realize that the true meaning of live is to return to my original true self.
In the end, I wish all the practitioners work hard and will succeed at an early date.
April 16, 2000
(2000 Falun Dafa Cultivation Experience Sharing Conference of Canada)
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