My son is six years old. Two years ago he and I obtained Falun Dafa at the same time. He could not read at that time and could only study the Fa (law and principles) by listening to the recordings of Teacher's Fa lectures. He played while listening and did not appear to pay much attention. But he often said things that were above the principles of everyday people. This six-year-old child's faith in Falun Dafa is extremely firm. The slander, lies and propaganda of the evil forces aimed at undermining Dafa never have any effect on this child.
Because I could not let go of my most fundamental attachment, amidst mental torment, great pressure, threats, and because of lack of righteous understanding, I wrote a statement in a transformation class this past March. I made a very serious mistake.
When I got home my son said to me, Mom, you really shouldn't have written those words!
I felt deep regret when I heard my son say this. I wanted to get back on track with cultivation and undo the negative impact on Falun Dafa that resulted from what I wrote. I realized that I had to issue a solemn statement to negate what I wrote. I understood without a doubt what such a statement would mean for me. The evil forces hate to the bone those practitioners who have become clearheaded again and come forth with solemn statements. In order not to be arrested by the evil forces, I decided to give up my job and leave home. But I felt incomparably sad and miserable at the thought of becoming homeless and leaving my beloved child and husband. It was so hard to take any steps to leave home, so it seemed that a long time passed and I still could not take the first step.
One afternoon, when I was debating intensely in my mind and could not make a decision, it suddenly occurred to me that I should ask my son's opinion.
Do you think Mom should leave today or next Monday? I asked. Todayhis answer came forth without any hesitation. Why? I asked. If you can't leave now, you will be far behind when I cultivate to a very high level!
My son's words suddenly made me very clearheaded. What was the most difficult thing for me to let go of was this child, who had cultivated to a higher level than I had. As his mother I truly felt ashamed of myself. At this I started packing right away and left home with determination and ease. As I was leaving, my son pleasantly bid me farewell and gave me a splendid smile.
Afterwards I felt so happy that I did leave at that time, because my husband had prepared to take a long vacation to watch me, starting the following Monday. He got home soon after I left. I am so grateful for Teacher's compassion. Everything is arranged so wonderfully. Teacher does not want to leave any practitioner behind. There is nothing I can do to express my gratitude.
May 8, 2001
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