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Solemn Declaration

I sold my soul to the "610 Office."* Due to my attachment to fear, I was deceived by false kindness and cooperated with evil people to arrest Dafa disciples. I also did damage to Dafa on the Internet, resulting in endless losses. From now on, I will walk the righteous path of a Dafa disciple and do the three things a Dafa disciple should do. I am determined to practice Falun Dafa to the end and make up for the loss.

* "610 Office" [a bureau specifically created by Jiang Zemin (former chairman of the communist party in China) to persecute Falun Gong. It has absolute power over each level of administration in the Party, as well as over the political and judiciary branches.]

Wei Wei

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My Confession

My name is Wei Wei. I am from Qing Dao, Shandong Province in China. During the past year, I have done countless wrong things. Because of my attachments, I was controlled and used by the evil and became a special agent on the Internet. My code was SA XXX. I brought severe damage to practitioners' truth clarification on the Internet in my hometown. Looking back at that nightmare, I have decided to write down what happened.

1. Background

My father died when I was a child. My mother suffered great hardship in bringing up my sister and I. We constantly fought with her. Our family was covered in gloom. In early 1998, both my sister and I attained Falun Dafa. The atmosphere in my family became peaceful and we did not fight with our mother any more. Seeing that, she started to practice Dafa, too.

I had practiced another type of qigong in 1997, and was possessed by a spirit. I had a headache three times a day as well as amnesia. At that time, I was doing intense preparation for college entrance exams, but I couldn't concentrate on studying. After beginning to practice Falun Dafa, I was in an excellent physical state and felt at ease with my study. If it hadn't been for my practicing Dafa, I wouldn't have been able to pass the exams and go to college. Seeing my improvement, five other students in my class also started to practice Dafa.

However, when I went to college in the fall of 1999, Jiang's regime started the persecution of Falun Dafa. Under pressure from my relatives, I dared not do the practice openly. When my sister went to Beijing to appeal for Falun Gong, the school where she worked illegally detained her and suspended her salary. Stricken by the news, my mother had a stroke.

So many things happened, and I didn't know how I passed time at school. Later I learned to log on to Minghui. Reading news about all sorts of severe persecution and torture that practitioners had gone through, I started to clarify the truth on the Internet.

In September of 1999, I clarified the truth over the telephone to an Internet special agent. I didn't know he was an agent. The next day, the police from Office One in Beijing Police Department illegally arrested me. At the police station, I didn't follow their instructions and I jumped out of the window from the third floor. I was hospitalized for a month and was forced to quit school.

In January 2002, when my sister and her fiancé were about to get married, police from the Public Security Department illegally arrested them for visiting Minghui on the Internet. I had to leave home and wander about to avoid the police.

On March 2, 2002, I attended a local experience-sharing meeting. The "610 Office" in Shandong Province gave orders to put all the practitioners attending the meeting in labor camps, but I was baled out for medical treatment because of health problems.

The Public Security Department took me as one of the major figures in Falun Gong activities and kept surveillance on me because I had come to know many practitioners in China and overseas through the Internet.

2. Degradation

First of all, I was unworthy of the practitioners in my hometown. In June 2002, I escaped from the police surveillance while in the hospital. The local practitioners told me that I hadn't studied the Fa well enough to have a solid understanding of the Fa. At that time, I didn't fully realize the solemnity of cultivation and still tried to find excuses for myself.

After that, I studied the Fa and spent one month memorizing the "Essentials For Advancement (II)." Still, I didn't look inward. The local practitioners wanted to help me, so they arranged for me to work with an aged practitioner to bind truth-clarifying materials. I found it hard to communicate with him and we had many conflicts so I thought about leaving for another city. This was taken advantage of by the evil. My neighbor reported me to the police and they arrested me on the night of August 6, 2002. I was afraid of being put into the labor camp again, so I worked with the police to arrest practitioners Sun Jixiang, Li Guifang, and Song Meilan. Later I learned that Sun Jixiang had been sentenced to labor camp for three years. Li Guifang had been brainwashed and transformed and Song Meilan had been bailed out because of her poor health. They were all about the age of my aunt. They had given me generous help when I was in great difficulty. Yet, I betrayed them.

On August 8, 2002, the police sent me to the "610 Office" for brainwashing. They asked for the source of the truth clarifying materials and I told them what I knew. I said, "I don't know for sure, perhaps somewhere nearby. It took about half an hour for a practitioner to go there to get the materials." That night I had a dream. A lady was on the fifth floor. She looked at me and then jumped off. I was terrified. The next day, I learned that Liu Jiming had been tortured to death. I was frightened and asked for information from the security of the police station. They told me that because I had said that the truth-clarifying materials were gotten from nearby, they looked through the resident registrations and found Liu Jiming. Her place happened to be one of the centers for distributing truth-clarifying materials in my city with 100,000 flyers in storage.

Liu Jiming was sent to the "610 Office" for going on a hunger strike. I was in room 805 and she was in room 804. Because of the filthy conditions, Liu Jiming had scabies. In addition, she was on a hunger strike. So the detention center rejected to take her in. That's why they sent her to the "610 Office" where she was transferred to the hospital.

I understood what a tremendous sin I had committed and, since then, lived in panic and uneasiness.

3. Damage to Truth Clarification on the Internet

In June 2002, after I escaped the police's surveillance, I sent an email to the new hotmail account of a practitioner in another city telling him, with an attachment of complacency, that I had escaped. I didn't know that first email was intercepted. That practitioner was immediately taken away by the local police.

Afterward, I used the same email account to collect information of all the technical websites created by practitioners. I meant to study the techniques they used to break through the Internet blockade. I didn't realize that I was actually helping the evil. As a result, the "Neo-human Society" was under surveillance of the Public Security Department in June 2002. I also logged onto my MSN chat room which contained contact information of many practitioners in China and abroad. As a result, they came under surveillance too. At that time, many practitioners in China sent me emails from their homes. Although I deleted their emails immediately, they were still intercepted. I didn't know how many practitioners were thus put on the blacklist. Until October 2002, the police department in one city transferred over a hundred emails of mine to the police department in my city, saying that I had been chatting on QQ (similar to ICQ) with so and so in a western country. They named me as a major figure to be put under surveillance.

After I was arrested in August 2002, I told the police which software was invented by practitioners, which website had many practitioners logging on, and which website was created and maintained by practitioners. As a result, that website was blocked.

In September 2002, the special agents overseas sent rumors back to China, saying that during the Chinese Communist Party's 16th National Congress, the practitioners in America, Canada, and Taiwan invented an explosive ten times more powerful than TNT. (Editor's note: Such "news" is the product of Jiang's policy of defamation.) The police asked me to chat with people on the website and try to find out what it was. I used MSN to chat. At the same time, I used short messages in a community to collect QQ screen names of practitioners. I went on and off the Internet for a month. I knew I was under surveillance but I still chatted with more than ten practitioners on MSN. The records of those chats were in a file at the police department in my city. They were studying how practitioners chat on the Internet and what they mainly talked about. Perhaps, even words like JW, DF, DZ, XIEE [these are abbreviated Chinese Pinyin names used by practitioners when they chat on the Internet, since they are not easily recognized by people who do not practice. JW (Jingwen-Teacher's article) DF (Dafa) DZ (Dizi -- disciple) XIEE (evil)] became key words to be blocked. I also told the police that the webmaster of a certain website was a practitioner from someplace.

On January 8, 2003, they set me free from the "610 Office" to spend the New Year holiday. By then, I had been detained in the "610 Office" for 5 months. In my mind, I was against some websites and software abroad. I didn't realize that some of them had been set up to expose the evil to specific social groups. I also found some discrepancy between certain reports on Minghui and the facts that I knew. After I left the "610 Office," I argued with practitioners over some issues. At that time, practitioners thought that I was defaming Minghui. After some practitioners talked to me and kindly persuaded me, I calmed down. It was not that I didn't trust Minghui. I had sent many reports and solemn declarations of other practitioners to Minghui. Of course I knew the authenticity of it. I realized that the real reason that I was against Minghui was that I was jealous of the practitioners who had died in the persecution. That thought was filthy but it's really what I thought.

On March 4, 2003, while I was on a long distance bus a video was played about a man who took his father as a foe in order to rise up in society but died a tragic death instead. I was terrified. I knew it was a hint to me. Still, I was trying to find excuses.

From March 4, to May 4, 2003, the Police Department in my city applied for a special grant from the Police Department in the Province to rent a house for me ten meters away from the police department and have me log on to the Internet through broad band.

The two major pieces of information I provided to the police during those two months are as follows: First, the practitioners in China mainly went to two BBS, one for sharing their understanding of Dafa and the other for sharing Internet techniques. Second, I made it up that overseas practitioners mainly used the topic of SARS to clarify the truth of Falun Dafa.

The police asked me to build up relations with overseas practitioners and get to know their plans. People from the Police Department of the Province once told me that practitioners in Taiwan had invented a new method to interfere with the Sino-satellite (Editor's note: Another lie from "610 Office.") and they asked me to get more information on that.

4. Awakening

On May 3, 2003, when I read Master's "Lecturing on and Explaining the Fa at the Metropolitan New York Fa Conference," I was completely shocked. I felt that many words in that lecture were said to special agents like me. I had been controlled by the evil and doing the most filthy and evil things. I had argued frantically with many practitioners even though I knew who was right and who was wrong. I read articles on Minghui everyday. My numb heart was often moved by the heroic deeds and courage of practitioners. Yet, I was afraid to look at myself. I had thought about how to face the final judgment. However, I wasn't able to let the righteous thoughts dominate and go on a righteous path to make up for all my wrong doings. I had been living in terror and often had nightmares ever since I went to the "610 Office."

It's not that I didn't receive retribution. The skin disease I used to have returned to me. For some time, I dared not go out, for a slight movement would cause unbearable itching.

Now, I have left the evil and wandered about. Looking back at those years since I attained Dafa, it seemed that I only watched other people walking their paths, never really measured everything against Dafa, nor did I take cultivation seriously or really understand what it was.

In the days after I left the "610 Office" I had a dream about the time after Fa rectified the human world. It was exactly like the song of "Legend of Gods." People admired Dafa disciples and praised their great deeds forever. The shocking power of Dafa was beyond description. Yet I was almost left on Judas' pillar of disgrace forever. The scene strongly touched me. I felt extremely shameful upon reflecting on what happened. I am determined to make up for what I did, make good use of the last opportunity, and walk the final path well.

May 29, 2003

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