June 6, 2003
(Clearwisdom.net)
Excerpted from a chat room dialogue between a Falun Dafa practitioner and a Mainland Chinese student.
Kind-hearted Web Chat Pal: "Even If I Risk Being Caught, I Will Post This Article to the Website, I will do it regardless!"
I'll admit that I am a not a courageous person. As a matter of fact, I already learned the facts (about Falun Gong) through many channels much earlier; however, I didn't have the courage to talk about the truth in public. I think many Mainland Chinese people are like this. There are many things that I am afraid of, such as the Internet police, I am also afraid of many different kinds of cruel tortures that the Chinese government uses. I am only a student and I don't want my family to be affected because of me.
I always come here (to web chat rooms), but I haven't dared to speak about Falun Gong. I am not a practitioner. But I hold such a view that: everyone should have their right to freedom of belief. Every time when I saw that the people who were deceived said sarcastic words about you, I would feel very sad. I wanted to say to them: "Friends, use your brain to think about it, OK?" However, every time, when I was about to post an article to the website, I stopped myself. Even though I do know that https is a secure link, I don't know how secure it is, I am especially afraid of being monitored by [Jiang Regime's] web police, because I know they can kill the snapshot function on the Google website, so there must be some experts assisting those web police to do their corrupt deeds. Today, I found a substitute server, plus https; I went ahead with posting the articles regardless! (Please do not laugh at me; I am very nervous now, but I am also a little bit excited.)
Everyone knows the bureaucratic ways of the Party, however, nobody dares to speak out. This ridiculous persecution is quite obvious - nobody is a fool, if an exercise requires you to immolate yourself, would you continue doing it? [referring to the Chinese government's staged self-immolation incident] Please everyone think about what I said, please tell me whether you are supportive or against? Everyone please think about why they banned books and videotapes in such a hasty manner? Didn't they try to cover themselves up?
Another special day has passed, June 4th ; [referring to the anniversary of the Tiananmen Square Massacre]; seeing policemen on the streets everywhere, I felt very sad. In my childhood, I was so na ve that I believed that I had freedom, gradually I came to realize that how difficult it is to even talk about freedom in Mainland China. Blue-sky or green lawn, nothing can give me that kind of feeling from my childhood, because in Mainland China, I am depressed. I even lack the righteous courage to support a kind group of people being defamed and persecuted. I often ask myself what my reasons are. I feel sad every time I ask myself that question, because the truth is, I am afraid of being persecuted myself, I am afraid of my family being affected too. We should all thank the Internet, without the Internet I would have been deceived forever.
In such a grieved society and nation, where evil overcomes justice, please forgive me for the fact that I can only give you my moral support; I will forever be with you (Falun Gong). There are also many students and friends who share my feelings, I think that they are on your side in their hearts too. For justice to be served it is just a matter of time; those evil forces will eventually be punished. I believe that my practitioner friends would never complain about the sarcastic words of those who have been deceived. From your words I see compassion, and I felt the warmness from my childhood. I will read this mysterious and legendary book (Zhuan Falun) when I have chance. I believe I will be able to accept it.
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