(Clearwisdom.net)
My husband has always taken a very important position in my heart. What he brought to me was the excruciating pain of being heartbroken. Right after I attained Falun Dafa in 1996, I found that he had a mistress. I cried the entire evening. Later on, after I kept studying Falun Dafa, I finally overcame it. I thought that as long as I am in Dafa, I could leave behind all attachments. After this thought came up, all the things he had done seemed non-existent. However, in the second half of 2001, he started to contact his girlfriend and began to distance himself from me while still living with me.
I went through the painful emotions over and over. I finally began to calm myself with my faith in Dafa after nearly three years of my husband's ongoing unfaithfulness. I thought that I had already put my attachment down. But not long ago, while facing the fact that he did not come home the entire evening, I started to feel uneasy. I felt that my tolerance had brought me more pain. I had another thought that I should not face this kind of torment. The feeling of being helpless and wounded left me feeling like I was teetering on the edge of a cliff, about to fall off anytime.
At that time, my mother-in-law was not feeling well, so I went there to take care of her. As a result, I cried to her in pain about what had happened, although I did not want to tell her in the beginning. She was very touched after hearing me and said, "You are indeed a kind daughter-in-law. My son behaved so badly and you still treat my family so well. I had no idea about what has happened between you two. This Falun Dafa is so good. It makes you become such a kind person. Because of this, I will study Falun Dafa." I said, "Yes, if it weren't for Falun Dafa, I could not live like this no matter what. This family was broken apart a long time ago." I realized that the sentiment is selfish, and true cultivators of Falun Dafa are unselfish. I should get rid of the attachment to sentiment and walk steadily on the road of Fa-rectification.
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