(Clearwisdom.net) I obtained the Fa relatively late, and was lost in the ordinary persons' life for several years. It was Master's grand mercy that made me walk back into Falun Dafa in 2004. I was lucky that I didn't miss this precious opportunity. Now I'm writing down my experience of the past year to share with fellow practitioners, to help myself do better on the path, and to not let down Master' benevolent salvation.
I obtained the Fa as a college student. I learned from fellow practitioners' experiences on the Clearwisdom website, bought a printer, produced truth clarifying materials, and passed them out to people. Later I downloaded the video Weathering the Storm. I was very touched, and I felt that clarifying the truth by VCD was very powerful, so I bought a CD-burner to burn VCDs. I used to be a computer-illiterate, but I learned quickly how to burn double function VCDs with the miraculous power of Falun Dafa.
Through studying the Fa, I came to understand that Master arranges every Falun Dafa practitioner's job, environment, and skills according to the needs of the Fa-rectification. I am a teacher working in a law school, and I can clarify the truth to my students from a legal perspective. At first I was always too excited, and my body would shake because of human attachments or being interfered by the evil. I became calm gradually through sending forth righteous thoughts and studying the Fa. Master taught us in Rationality,
"Validate the Fa with rationality, clarify the truth with wisdom, spread the Fa and save people with mercy--this is establishing the mighty virtue of an Enlightened Being."
In my classes, I analyzed the legal points of how the CCP damages the legal system and controls the media; how it fabricated the self-immolation incident; how it violates citizens' freedom of belief, speech, their right to know, and their right to appeal. My classes for both regular students and those for special training programs all had good results. Of course, the process of clarifying the truth is also a process of cultivating. Evil could deploy itself through a gap when I have omissions. Once after a class, the school administration called me and said that my lesson contained content that was against the CCP, and they will arrange someone to sit in on my classes. I knew it was interference, so I quickly looked inwards and sent forth righteous thoughts. I found that I didn't study the Fa enough in that period of time, and grew overzealous because many students commented that they liked my classes. Later, the school leader sat in my classes, and said that I did a very good job.
Another time I taught some retired army personnel. All of them in our city receive training before they resume civilian roles, so the training happens annually. In the past few years, another teacher and I each taught a class, but there were three classes this year, and they assigned all three to me. I enlightened to the fact that Master had arranged for me to save them by clarifying the truth. I used the evil CCP's persecution of Falun Dafa as an example when I taught about constitutional rights and freedom of belief, and explained how the persecution harms China and how international society condemns the CCP. They all listened very carefully.
After I finished teaching the first class, I returned to our school. Our Department Chair told me that someone in the administration inquired about my cultivation of Falun Gong. She told me to watch out for my personal safety. That night when I studied the Fa, I calmly realized that it was evil interference because I still had fear. I asked myself, "What is there that you are so afraid of? What is so worth being attached to in this human world? You are cultivating Falun Dafa; the evil should be scared of you."
Master taught us in Teaching the Fa at the Western U.S. International Fa Conference,
"So as a cultivator, what is truly remarkable is when you can be steadfast and have righteous thoughts so firm that nothing can sway you. Be solid and firm like diamond, or granite, and then nothing can affect you--evil will be afraid at the mere sight of you. If upon encountering trying circumstances your thinking can be truly righteous, then, when faced with the evil's persecution and when faced with interference, just one sentence of yours fortified with steadfast righteous thoughts can instantly make the evil disintegrate, and it will make those who are being used by the evil turn and flee, it will make the evil's persecution of you dissolve, and it will make the evil's interfering with you disappear without a trace."
I solidified one thought, "I must clarify the truth. I am saving people; no one is worthy enough to interfere. If the administration looks for me, it would be a perfect time to clarify the truth to them. Everything is arranged by Master, and everything can be only done by Master; no one is allowed to undermine it." Later on, I clarified the truth to the other two classes openly in a dignified manner, and the school administration did not call me.
On my path of cultivation, I received hints from and was always protected by Master. Once I was followed by state security agents when I passed out truth clarification materials. I got rid of them with Master' help and returned home safely. In the following days, I could not calm my mind, worried that the authorities had found my address and that they would find my printer and copy machine if they ransacked my room. My room is very small, and I don't have anywhere to hide these machines. I was too scared to go and hand out materials, and I felt like the evil was watching me from the bottom of my building.
Although I was sending forth righteous thoughts constantly, I still could not be calm. I was imagining how I should deal with the evil coming to my door. I negated my unsteady thoughts, but they kept surfacing repeatedly. I knew it was not right and was very eager to emerge from that state, but I could not. One night when I was studying the Fa, Master said in the Third Lecture of Zhuan Falun, under subject of "What Has Teacher Given to Practitioners?"
"There is another type of person. Someone was told in the past that he had spirit or animal possession. He felt that way as well. However, upon having it removed for him, his mind still worries about it. He always thinks that the condition still exists. He still thinks that it is there, and this is already an attachment called suspicion. As time passes, this person may bring it to himself again. One should give up this attachment, as this spirit or animal possession no longer exists."
I suddenly understood. I knew that Master was giving me hints and was always protecting us.
Ever since the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party was published last year, I combined its contents with traditional culture in my daily teaching to guide my students to recognize the scoundrel nature of the evil Party and clear away the atheist poison that the CCP had brainwashed them with since they were young. Some of my students chatted with me after classes, and some said that my class fundamentally called into question the "education" they received since childhood.
Of course, there is more of my cultivation path that I need to walk down, and I still have attachments that I need to get rid off. I still have an attachment to comfort and laziness. I am not calm enough when I clarify the truth face to face, so the results are not so good. My fear has constantly surfaced, and it blocks my validating Falun Dafa. I will study the Fa more, strictly discipline myself, do the three things well, treasure this precious opportunity that we have waited millions of years for, and treasure Master's benevolent salvation. Heshi!
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