(Clearwisdom.net) I am an officer in a city government. I was in charge of office management and Party member management, which included collecting Party membership fees. At the end of last year, I was transferred to the office of "Education Movement to Maintain Advancement" in my work unit. I worked there for over a month, during which time I often felt depressed, but I did not know why. After I read Master's new article "Turning the Wheel Towards the Human World," I realized that my depression was due to the effect of evil Party elements. After reading the article, I realized that each Dafa practitioner who is a Party member must take the step of quitting the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) in order to be in step with the Fa rectification progress. Through sharing with other practitioners, I realized that I should no longer write the notes and understandings on the Communist Party's "Education Movement to Maintain Advancement." Further, as a Fa rectification period Dafa practitioner, and since Dafa and Dafa practitioners are being severely persecuted, I should leave the office of the "Education Movement to Maintain Advancement," submit a withdrawal from the CCP to my work unit, and publish my withdrawal statement on the Internet.
Though I enlightened to it, it was very hard for me to put it into practice. When I thought about submitting my withdrawal from the CCP to my work unit, my fears came up. For a few days I kept wondering how to face the consequences of submitting the withdrawal. At the same time, I was worrying and could not let go of my human sentiments. I was thinking about my work unit, that had undertaken the "Education Movement to Maintain Advancement," the work unit leaders, who would have to bear pressures, and how my colleagues would view me. I also thought about my parents who were in poor health, and whether they could bear the pressure. What if my work unit dismissed me? I could not let go of the attachments to fame, self-interest, and sentiments.
While I was adjusting my mental state and improving my righteous thoughts, the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party was published. I read it twice. I continually cleared the poisons of the evil Party, and this helped me clearly see the essence of the Communist Party. Besides studying Zhuan Falun regularly every day, I read Master's article "Dafa is Indestructible." I read the sentence:
"As a Dafa disciple, everything of yours is formed by Dafa and is the most righteous, and it can only be that [you] rectify everything that is not righteous. How could you bow to the evil?" ("Dafa is Indestructible")
Reading this increased my confidence. My whole body suddenly felt warm. I had strong righteous thoughts, and had no more fear. At the same time, I enlightened that I am a Dafa practitioner and that fear is an attachment, which must be eliminated. My purpose is to save all sentient beings.
Regarding saving all beings, I recalled worrying that my actions would affect saving the people in my work unit. My actions might also affect the work unit's prestige. I wondered if my actions would push my coworkers to the opposite side of the truth, or that they may not be saved because I did not do well. Later, I realized that I should let go of these worries. I should just follow Master's requirement to validate Dafa. Only when I do well and my actions are a role model for others, can I better save people. I enlightened that Dafa practitioners quitting the CCP is to save the people whose minds are controlled by the Party culture.
On the day I quit the CCP, I had strong righteous thoughts. I told the other practitioners in my region about this and asked them to send forth righteous thoughts with me. In addition, I asked for Master's help. My mind was righteous that day. I enlightened that I should not passively approve the work unit leaders' repeated education, and that I should totally deny the old force's arrangement.
"...not even acknowledging the elimination of their ordeals' manifestations." ("Teaching the Fa at the 2004 Chicago Conference")
Since the Party Constitution says that Party members are free to quit the Party, I formally submitted my withdrawal from the Party to the Party Branch Committee. I told the secretary of the Party branch my reasons for quitting the CCP, which were the persecution I endured in my previous work unit for practicing Falun Gong, and the CCP's corruption. The people are cursing the CCP's corruption. If I were a CCP member, then I would be an element of the CCP and the people would be cursing me for being corrupted. However, since I am not corrupted, I do not want to carry this bad name and be cursed. I believe it is shameful to be a CCP member and I voluntarily quit the Party. (I did not realize this reasoning until I had a sharing with other practitioners.) It was my first time clarifying the truth to the secretary of the Party branch. It was a great shock to his mind. Later when the other leaders tried to persuade me, they tried to connect my quitting the Party with Falun Gong and tried to use this to persecute me.
In order to avoid being persecuted directly, I mentioned corruption as my reason for quitting the Party. Nevertheless, they all knew about my experience of being persecuted as a Falun Gong practitioner. When they were trying to persuade me, there were visitors and phone calls constantly. One of the leaders kept yawning when he talked to me. I knew that this was the result of the other practitioners sending forth righteous thoughts together. When I submitted the application to quit the CCP, I also requested to leave the office of "Education Movement to Maintain Advancement" and I asked to do pure technical work in the future. I was firm in my mind and they were busy. After seeing their persuasion had no effect, they accepted my withdrawal from the CCP and agreed to all my requests. Afterward, the work unit asked my family members to pressure me not to quit, but this did not sway my determination.
Later, I published my statement of quitting the "China Young Pioneers," the "Communist Youth League," the CCP, and all Communist organizations. The next day, the work unit leader asked me to transfer out of my job duties of Party member management. Subsequently, I was transferred to pure technical work in the work unit.
I have a few understandings from this experience.
- Master is in charge, and the Master arranges Dafa practitioners' paths. Every Dafa practitioner is in charge of their own choices during cultivation. It does not matter whether ordinary people approve or not. As long as we have strong determination, we can take charge of our cultivation.
- I further understood the importance of studying the Fa.
"The Fa can break all attachments, the Fa can destroy all evil, the Fa can shatter all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts." ("Drive Out Interference")
In every step we take in our cultivation, we must treat the Fa as the teacher. Only when we study the Fa well can we totally deny the old force's arrangement and take the right path. In addition to studying Zhuan Falun, it is critical not to forget studying Master's articles, especially the recent articles. My elimination of fear and upgrading my xinxing took place after reading Master's articles. - This experience let me feel the power of Dafa practitioners' sending forth righteous thoughts together. I truly experienced the effects of righteous thoughts.
- The role of the group cultivation environment is important. I had other practitioners' help the entire time. Besides treating the Fa as the teacher, I benefited from upgrading my xinxing with the help of other practitioners' timely encouragement and sharing.
- Quitting the CCP is the beginning for all people opposing the persecution. If all Dafa practitioners that are Party members could quit the Party nobly and publicly in their work unit (not including those who temporarily cannot quit the Party in public), it would greatly help the people to correctly understand the Communist Party's essence and the matter of quitting the Party. In addition, it would lead more people to quit.
Although I have submitted my withdrawal from the Party, the work unit has not responded to it. They are still "working on it," hoping that I will retract it, which will not happen. I have started refusing to participate in Party activities. In addition, I have stopped paying the Party membership fee, which will terminate my membership automatically in six months. I believe that my quitting the Party is only a good start. I will encounter many issues in the future. While extricating myself of the Party membership, I will save sentient beings more maturely, clear-mindedly, and rationally.
March 28, 2005
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