(Clearwisdom.net) I am a Falun Dafa practitioner living in China. Three generations of my family are Chinese Communist Party (CCP) members, and I work for the CCP Disciplinary Committee. It is not difficult to imagine how deeply I have been poisoned by the CCP culture. During the past few years, while I have appealed for justice for Falun Dafa, I believed in my heart that the persecution of Falun Dafa is the brainchild of Jiang Zemin and not the CCP. Now I finally have come to realize that, without the CCP, Jiang could not have mobilized and sustained such a large scale and long-standing persecution. When CCP police officers tortured me, threatened that my child would not be allowed to attend the university and extorted large amounts of money from me, I told them, "You are a disgrace to the CCP. You have tarnished the CCP and are responsible for its losing face." This shows how deeply I was poisoned by the insidious CCP. Because of this misconception I held in my mind, I had left open a giant loophole for the evil to take advantage of. The evil has had a field day persecuting me because of my deep-seated shortcoming.
One day in early 2003, I entered into a dreamlike trance state. I was walking on a steel wire above a canyon. What was strange about this vision was that the sky was split into two parts. To my right I saw colorful, rosy clouds covering the sky. It was a spectacular scene. On my left were dark, heavy clouds surging over the sky. At the same time a second vision was even stranger. It was as if my body was divided into two parts. My right side was clear and clean, while my left side was dark and dirty. I could not figure out the true meaning of this scene.
Afterwards, my right side felt very light, while my left side felt bound and restricted by invisible ropes. I was unable to straighten my left arm. When studying Falun Dafa articles, I was reading with my eyes and mouth, but my brain did not take in what I read. Although I tried for half a year, I could not recite Lunyu, the introduction to the lectures in Zhuan Falun. I knew something was wrong even though I was working so hard to do the three things Teacher asked us to do. Yet, I could not break free from that state.
In early 2004, I was arrested by police officers and sent first to a detention center and then to a brainwashing center. While they were completing the paper work to prosecute me and issue a warrant to arrest to me, I escaped from the detention center. Police cars passed me, but they did not see me. I knew Teacher was protecting me.
After my escape, I stayed at a fellow practitioners' home, where I devoted all my time to the study of Falun Dafa articles and weekly reviews from the Minghui website and the Zhengjian website to make up for the time wasted in detention and catch up with the Fa-rectification process.
In December 2004, I first saw the phrase "the Evil Spirit of Communism" in the Minghui and Zhengjian weekly reviews. I suddenly enlightened to the concept. That evening I started sending forth righteous thoughts every half an hour to eliminate this evil spirit. The evil spirit did not give up easily. One morning a week later, at 4 a.m. when I got up to do the Falun Dafa exercises, a dark-red centipede suddenly crawled out of my right wrist. I immediately drove it away. Then, two more crawled out of the same place. I drove the two centipedes away, one by one. Just as I started to take a breath, one more crawled out of my backbone near my heart and another one from the center of the back of my neck. I was scared and wanted to shout for Teacher to help. Then a voice said, "Relax. Let me help you." The centipedes were removed. Right after the centipedes were removed, I woke up from this nightmare and burst into tears.
I said to myself, "Dear Teacher, you are really protecting disciples at all times. Thank you! Thank you!" I cried for a while and began the exercises. The left side of my body became very light and the invisible ropes disappeared. After finishing the exercises, I studied the Falun Dafa articles. I had no trouble reading and the division of my two sides had disappeared. Since then, I have been light-hearted when doing the exercises or studying Falun Dafa articles. It was just like being released from shackles.
Before the 2005 Chinese New Year, I wrote a declaration withdrawing from the CCP. That evening, Teacher pushed two balls of dirty matter out of the bottoms of my feet. I once again experienced the ever-prevailing power of our Teacher.
As a genuine Falun Dafa practitioner, I no longer was a CCP member since Jiang's regime claimed that, "CCP members could not practice Falun Gong." I had chosen Falun Dafa without hesitating. But, because I had not formaly withdrawn from the CCP, the old forces in other dimensions insisted that I was not a genuine practitioner. That's why I was arrested in early 2004.
My third-eye has been open during my cultivation. Ever since the beginning of the persecution, every practitioner in China has had two sides: one is our Teacher and the other one is a god of the old forces. As long as one does not withdraw from the CCP, the old forces will control you. In this case, it's hard for Teacher to help us. Since we have not enlightened to this point, our difficulties increase. Our path is not that wide. If Teacher did not take care of us, the old forces would have destroyed us long ago.
So why did three dark-red centipedes crawl out of my right wrist? That's because I swore allegiance three times in front of the bloody CCP flag: when I joined the Young Pioneers, the Youth League, and the CCP. Why did another two centipedes crawl out of my back? This is because I had been fused to the CCP culture since kindergarten. My mind was immersed in the CCP culture and held few other thoughts. Why were two balls of dirty matter excreted from the bottoms of my feet? Because the evil elements of the dirty CCP culture had occupied every cell in my body. If those dirty things are not cleansed, how could my brain accept Falun Dafa? Therefore, a genuine Falun Dafa practitioner should get rid of the constraints of the CCP evil spirit. This is of utmost importance!
Teacher hinted about this as early as 2003, but I was slow to understand. It took me two years before I finally understood teacher's hints. Teacher has said,
"Don't use human notions to judge the Fa-rectification or the form in which Dafa disciples cultivate, and don't always prolong the process of improving your understanding due to your human thoughts. You are people walking the path to godhood, and every single attachment will hinder you." ("New Year's Greeting," February 9, 2005)
I hope fellow practitioners will learn from my experience. Only when we set aside all human concepts can we progress rapidly. The evil will tremble before us. Teacher has told us clearly that we should withdraw from all organizations of the evil CCP. By doing so, we cut the cord that ties us to the CCP, sever ourselves from politics, and become genuine Falun Dafa practitioners.
April 4, 2005
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